after some time~

Assalamualaikum wrt~~

:D after spent some time to rearrange my 'position'.. finally i got time to jot down something ere.. i'm taking driving lesson rite now.. so dont hav much time to contact others or go somewhere else.. after i got P.. i want to go to my bro's place.. shah alam.. n mayb to melaka also.. ehehehehhee..

i'm facing a few probs.. but my 'ego' or u can say maruah.. prevent me from say anything to others.. so plz dont push me.. i'm trying my best.. this is where i start.. i wanna b someone else.. everytime my 'iman' remind me wut shld i do.. or bout wut r the wrong deeds i've done.. my heart feel the pain.. but sometimes.. my hawa'/nafsu 'mengatasi' the heart n 'aqal.. says that do a few small things like that..wld b fine.. soo bad of me.. i know i shldnt do that.. i'm not in the position to say anything to others.. but wut's on my mind.. wut i saw/see.. i cant deny it.. that's the reality.. i cant turn my eyes away.. i sldnt!!

wut i believe.. isnt something i believe wit my head..or eyes.. but wut i believe by heart.. but ppl cant see that.. ppl always say.. everything shld b fine.. but how is it? u even dont know whether 2morrow will come or not.. u even say everything will b fine??

hav u ever feel.. that u want something.. but u even cant reach to it.. u even cant get closer to it.. it's very frustrating.. rite? i keep my feeling.. locked inside my heart.. coz i dont dare to express it.. i wont dare to feel it n even shape it.. my dream still in the dreamland.. i cant get it out from there.. jzkm n wassalam