exam dah abes.. merdeka!!!

yo!.. ehehhehehe my last paper was dis morning.. n it was quite shocking.. coz i didnt expect dat i can answer it.. acteli i dont like d subject.. dat i had dis morning.. isk.. dat's it..i dont wanna talk bout it.. uhuhuhuuh
for those who follow my updated entry.. well arigatou ghozaimasta'.. u must be feel quite weird after yesterday's entry rite? well.. jitsu-ai nvr tell others bout my prob.. i'll make it clear here.. i think i can solve my own prob.. i'm not saying dat d others cant solve their own prob..but it's juz d matter of my principle.. if they ask for help.. i'll help them.. if they didnt say anything.. i wont make they do dat.. i believe everything a person do or did.. they hav their own reason n i cant interfere wit dat..

isk.. acteli i wanna explain bout yesterday's entry but then.. i think there's nothing to say anymore.. i dont care bout wut ppl say.. sometimes i juz cant stand wit ppl dat care too much bout wut d others think or say bout themselves.. i know dat we live in community.. so as one of them.. we hav to act like one.. but it doesnt mean dat we hav to satisfy them.. d only one who can satisfy someone is her/himself..

after d last paper dis morning.. i went to syud's room.. acteli i juz wanna take those cds she borrowd.. coz she said she cant open d cd.. hmmm wut's wrong ek? then.. acteli she juz got something from back home.. n guess wut? ppl at home sent her about 5 packets of bihun.. waaaaaa.. n she has about 7 in total... she gave me one.. n i already cooked it juz now.. ahahhahahah lame x makan bihun.. uhuhuhuhu.. hmm.. i guess nothing to talk bout for now.. huh.. dis monday i'll start class for 2nd sem.. uhuhuhuuh.. so malas n depressing.. we juz finishd our exam so kambe-stekudasai... uhuuhuhu wokeh la.. see ya around k.. byee

huhuhuhu.. exam

yo!!! mina-san.. genki? ehehheheh how's ur life so far? ermm good? ehehhee well.. acteli i dont really hav something to write ere.. but juz feel like it.. ahahahhaha mezrashi nee.. ahahhahah well yesterday i baked bun.. or i think it acteli pau.. hmm.. not bad.. i've been wanting to eat some acteli n cant find one ere.. so i juz make one.. ahahahhah n i plan to make some tonite too.. ahahahhaha... isk.. i think i laugh too much these days... n i think those smiles are not from my heart.. hmmm i tried so hard acteli.. to live a normal life.. but i think this is not a normal life.. hmm.. none of ppl around me knows bout dis.. except myLord.. ahh dont wanna think bout it rite now

jitsu-a.. i think i'm not a realible person.. i know dat for someone to declare it seems stupid.. but honto-wa.. i really think dat.. i hav a long list bout wut i wanna do.. but the list is juz getting longer.. i hav a long list bout wut to get or find.. but nvr try to reduce the amount of it.. huhuhuhuuhuh.. baka da ne.. watashi.. sometimes.. when i think of a bad situation.. i always think of running away.. altho in reality it's one of our own choice.. but when i think back.. i'll regret it in d future.. u know rite, i like animes.. i watchd a lot.. many kind of it.. sometimes i learned something from them.. n sometimes.. it's juz wasting my time but i enjoy it.. tanoshi!! ppl always said.. altho in those animes.. running away from our problems.. wont solve it.. it juz make it worse.. i trained myself, u know.. pathetic am i? :( i try very hard to face any prob i hav.. get thru it.. but acteli i'm not facing it.. i juz pretend it.. y? well.. i cant.. ppl always said.. be optomistic..but it's easy said than done..

wut ever we do.. wutever we choose.. wutever we decide.. will create out line, isnt it? dat's y when i hav to face any prob.. i get scared.. if i choose a wrong path.. then i'll stray from d right path.. but wut's a right path? wut's good for me.. wuts give me an eternal happiness.. hmm.. it's really direct rite? i live everyday watching ppl around me.. get influenced.. learnd from mistake.. get back to my foot.. then dat's it.. d meaning in it? nai!!! huh.. wut am i writing? i've nvr been like dis b4.. b4, i nvr tell my prob to other ppl.. i always keep to myself.. y? coz i feel i cant tell.. it's not dat i cant trust ppl.. but i feel dat it's my own prob so juz keep away from it, k.. but when my frens got one.. i really wanna help them.. y? i dont know.. i juz feel like it.. in anime(i told u, i'm easily influenced)they always said dat juz do wut u feel rite.. i hav a lot to write.. but i think it's enuf..(i told u, i nvr told anyone bout my prob..dis is weird for myself)wokeh got ot go.. byee.. mata ne

Wut's next??

hi there.. first thing.. i havnt write anyhting for these past few days.. sori bout dat.. how should i put this.. i havnt contact my frens.. well mayb it's natural for u guys but i juz realize dat i havnt talk to ppl other than my housemates n my coursemates.. huh.. wut a bad fren i am.. i havnt talk to dayah after eid.. i havnt talk to ehsan for a few months already.. syud lak.. after eid.. we juz sms each other n in ym only... uhuhuhuuhuh.. i really dont know wut happen to me.. mayb u can say bcoz of exam.. but i think it's juz an excuse.. huh.. wut am i writing?? ok i admit.. i'm not in gud mood rite now.. bcoz of d paper i got 2day.. it was realllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy suck!! after i sat for d paper.. something juz popped up in my head.. wut acteli am i doing? wut acteli i learned in d classes?? it's juz dont feel rite.. u know.. when u wanna match ur clothes... the color juz dont feel rite.. these feelings juz dont leave me alone.. after d paper today(it's not today acteli.. it's yesterday now..ehehehe) i went back home...feel really hungry.. but no one cook yet.. so i cooked something simple.. juz spagetti.. then hav some.. then went to bed.. ahahhahha u know it's juz 6 pm at dat time.. i felt so empty..

i read firah's blog juz now.. well it's kinda habit u know.. read others blog when u wanna write ur own.. hehehehhehe ok kan firah? ahahahhah.. well i havnt read hers for a few weeks already i think.. then in her blog.. she wrote something n it really struck me.. huh.. it makes me think d same way.. dat i nvr think dat way b4.. huh.. really... nanyi tendayo..watashi..??? i really hate dis.. i dont like dis kind of life.. dis is not life dat i desire.. dis is not d path i wanna draw for my history.. how shld i put this...??? it's like u get lost somewhere u know.. when u choose a way.. it's juz dont feel rite.. n u dont know wut to do.. u dont wanna stay put.. coz u know if u dont do anything.. nothing will come ur way.. no one can save u.. but if u do something..it's juz dont feel rite..owh God.. plz help mee...

when i get irritated.. or upset.. i cook.. rite now.. i really wanna make something.. n i wanna make bread.. ehehehehhe pelik kan? ade ke nk buat roti lak.. ermmm not plain bread.. i wanna make meat bun.. i cant buy it here.. but i wanna eat meat bun.. it's frustrated rite? it's feel like u're really hungry.. then there's food in front of u but u cant eat it.. acteli i know how to make meat bun.. but i know it's not as delicious as in d store.. well it's enuf rite? ppl always say dat wutever come from our hand is delicious.. well mayb it's not applied to all but it's at least applied to me.. i'm not saying dat wutever i cook is delicious but.. i will eat wutever i cook.. ehehehe altho it's not as delicious as in d store but it's delicious for me.. uhuhuhuuuh.. sounds depressing rite? huhuhuhuh.. i wanna sleep rite now.. but cant sleep.. owh sorry.. u read my blog..wanna find any interesting event but all u read is my small-matter-thingy.. ahahhaha warukattana.. ja' see ya around next time.. eheheh mata ne

u will see wut u believe...

hi there.. ehehhehheehe after dis we're(plus my housemates...) going to mariam's house.. ehehehe for iftar.. ermmm acteli i dont hav or more to dont feel to write anything.. but then i juz finish read firah's blog.. ermm i'm acteli speechless after read it.. i cant believe wut i read.. uhuhuhuhu n i also cant believe firah's like dat... i know dat i know firah not too long ago for me to say dat i understand her well.. but from my instinct.. ermmmm she's not a person dat selfish(well dat's wut i can understand from her blog) hermm.. for ppl who havnt read her blog..it's not dat i wanna badmouth her or something like dat.. but it's commonly happened to ppl around our age acteli... hermmm.. ppl always say dat they wanna do wut they desired.. they wanna be free from all their prob n live happily.. but wut's happy life acteli.. i think it's very subjective... som ppl may say being rich is happy life.. other ppl also say power's d factor to happy life.. n everyone's ideal life is not d same.. so it's impossible to satisfy everyone..

well acteli i'm in hurry.. ermmm i'll talk bout it later.. ehehehehe.. wahh i really miss my home..my mom.. my dad.. my bros n sis.. uhuuh n also my meow2.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. i hav been awy for too long.... my bro told me dat.. our house's not like b4.. i know dat but i cant imagine it.. ahahahhahha.. waaa sooo many thing i wanna write in dis blog.. coz soooo many thing happened in dis a few days.. ahahahhahahha.. wokeh got to go.. ahahahhha really hungry rite now... n thank u am.. :D

my fav group- at d moment la---> Kat-Tun!!!!!!!

Kizuna(bond) --->kat-tun

dis is my fav song at d moment.. ahahahah ac teli they sing it in their languange..but i only found d lyric in english..well at least i can understand it.. ehehehh enjoy it!!


No matter how much we consider the future,
No one can see the truth.
Something is blocking my blank mind,
It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

In time that flows, I try not to lose anything.
Passing by, we collided - true emotion
permeated my heart, into warm desires
The miracle I requested came about by chance.

Even when things couldn't stand still, amidst the pain,
I saw the light, because we were bound together.
It's okay if you lied, and it's okay to cry
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

uhuhuhuhuuuhh.. the group who sing dis song is in d pic above.. ehehehhe alaaa.. it juz a boyband group who's famous among girlz... eheheheh

New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2006..waaa!!

konichiwa'.. sawadikap!! ehehhheh domo!!.. eheheheh i'm verrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyy sleeeeeeeeepy rite now.. so i think mayb i'll take some rest n update dis boring blog.. ahahhahah.. but dis yr ermm.. i dont feel anything bout it.. coz when 2005 b4.. i feel like wow!!! but when 2006 comes.. hermmm feel like abit boring.. mayb coz i'm worried bout exam..(in d middle of january) eheheheh n i hav to take 7 papers.. waaaa.... n i'm a bit lazy dis time... i dont know y.. hermmm... mayb coz i'm staying in house?? coz b4.. i lived in hall.. n there was ade suasane study from others... ehehheh.. when i ask d others.. ade yg 3 papers only.. 5 papers.. n mine is paling byk papers.. waaaa uhuhuuuhhuuh.. i think i can put more effort on subj other than maths.. coz my strong point is from maths.. but guess wut?? maths dis sem is sooooooooooooooo hard.. plus we dont hav maths next sem... waaaaaaaaaaa how i;m going to survive????? uhuhuhuhuhuh ermmm... wut to do??? put those things aside.. eheheheh ahaa.. these a few days.. i build a habit.. waking late in d morning...waarrgghhhhh!!! i really hate dis.. coz i'm a morning person.. once i wake up.. i wont sleep after dat.. so i dont sleep in d evening.. n i like to study at nite.. so i'll sleep late... but wake up so alte in d morning.. waa.... i really hate it.... hmm.. mayb coz i didnt turn on d alarm.. n also i change my sleep position(it's one of my habit.. eheheh i really like change any position in my room..including my sleep position..:p) coz my alarm is really near to my next dooor's bed.. juz a wall between them.. so i think it's really annoying if i dont turn it off on time.. ehehhehe hm... y? coz i dont like to bother d others for such things as alarm.. loud music.. n things like dat.. coz i expect d same things from them.. it's natural like dat, isn't it?? ehehehehhe

one thing is always on my mind in these a few days.. i like to experience something.. ermmm like when i was in form 4 or 5(high school) i was wondering how is it to be a college stud or univ.. something like dat.. ermm now i already experienced high school.. college.. univ.. so i'm wondering bout d feeling being an employee??? ermmm i havnt think how i wanna be.. ermm i mean.. i'm engineering stud.. particular in mechatronic engineering.. i can go to electronic field.. or mechanical.. or i can be a lecturer.. bout dat part i havnt decide yet.. coz i think i'm suitable to be office-gal.. i know bout it.. coz my bro's working wit proton.. ermm but i like doing calculation n practical works.. so it's more to laboratory or industrial thingy.. ermm but d other hand.. my parents really want me to take lacturer at d end... hmmm.. hah!! mayb i'll juz do wut i can or wut i hav to do.. n think bout those thing when d time comes.. ehehhehe..

wokeh la.. i think i can study a bit more after dis.. take a rest.. watch anime a few episodes.. then sleep.. ehehehe dat's my routine.. mata neh.. ja ne

Yosh!!!! kora... ehehehhhehe

Hi there.. :p feeling great? ahahahha after shopping so many things? well.. i guess no...y???? coz ur pocket feel empty rite?? ahahhaha alaaaa... rileks.. it's juz normal thing after boxing day...wakakakkakaka.. well i juz realize other ppl(not my frenz) also read my blog.. well i find it's suprising coz i dont feel my blog is 'an interesting one' so dat other ppl except my frenz will read it.. ahahahha well ari gatou ghozaimashta'.. i really appreciate it.. eheheheh well it's juz my daily n personal life.. so dat i can release my tension.. i wanna let all d stuff in my head.. ehehehhe i juz watchd movies..juz like heaven n the family stone.. ermm well juz like heaven's great but the family stone.. ermm mayb i can give it.. 5/10.. not too boring or not too good.. eheehhehe warrghhh.. owh feel sooo sleepy rite now... b4 dis i hav many things to talk bout but now.. ermm seems like everything's leaving my head.. ehehehe i dont know it's a good thing or bad..ermm wokeh laa.. see ya next tyme.. :p mata ne

Boxing day!!

uhuhuuhuuhuuh... 2day's boxing day!!.. but ermm tell u wut.. i dont really excited over dis kind of day.. ehehhehhe ermm well mayb u'll figure it out dat.. i dont look like 'a normal female'.. ehehehe usually girlz like shopping.. travelling.. n stuff like dat.. but i dont feel like doing things like dat.. uhuhuhuhuu dont know y.. :D ermm boxing day mayb juz like d other day but wit less busses n trains on track.. ahahhahahhah ermm mayb i like electronic stuffs more than clothes mayb.. ehehhe ahh.. dat's not d point rite? :P ermmm i'm in my room rite now.. wit kak nuyu juz woke up.. kak mum went to Trafford centre.. Besma still at her house.. ermm well acteli i dont hav anything in my head rite now.. juz thinking dat.."APE MALAS2 NIH????? EXAM DAH DEKAT!!!!! UHUHUHUHUH.. SUME NOTES DAH DEPAN MATE.. TP MALAS LAK NK STUDI..EHEHEHEHEH.." ahahahahah my 1st paper is on 17th of january.. n my last paper is on 27th of january.. n I HAV 7 PAPERS...waaaa n all those subjects r really killing me..ermm..i guess nothing i can do bout it except studi.. studi.. n studi.. rite? eheheheh well haa... on 22nd of dec..kak nuyu turnd to 22!!!! n i'm d only 21 in dis house rite now.. wakakakakakaka.... alaaa.. it only last till 31st of dec thow.. ahahha xpe la.. saje jek carik alasan nk excited..:p ahaa kak asyif also has d same birthday..:p well dat's it.. see ya next time..:p

uhuhuuuh.. got dis from firah...

eehhehehehhee.. got dis from firah.. it's really interesting.. ehehhe reminded me of something..:p

To realise the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.

To realise the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realise the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realise the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realise the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realise the value of ONE SECOND, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realise the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

Christmas eve..

Salamz... uhuhuhuhuuh.. 2night is christmas nite.. juz watchd harry potter d first movie juz now.. ehehehhe but now feel sooooooooooooo sleeeeeeeeeeeppppy... pdhal dis morning i slept longer than usual.. ehhehe ah.. cant let myself be like dis.. uhuhuhuu i dont like when my daily thing like my eating schedule.. sleep schedule.. things like dat.. get 'terabur'<--dont know wut word in english.. ehehehhe but now feel like wanna write somethin n definitely not 'ilmiah' thing.. eheheh ape..rilek2.. last nite my mom called.. exactly i called her coz usually she's d one who calls..so dis time i called her first.. we talk many things as usual.. but then there's something dat not in our usual conversation.. they (my mom n dad) talk bout couple.. eheheheh mayb they suspect i hav bf or something like dat.. ermmm i dont know they object bout dis or not.. coz wit both of my bros.. they object my bros couple.. but when talk bout couple wit me.. seems like a bit different.. ermm x kan la kan.. ermm acteli i dont like couple.. it's not i object it.. but it seems dat there's other way.. ok after dis.. wutever i say(i mean write) here..is my own opinion.. it's not dat dont like d ppl who do dat k.. juz personal opinion.. no offend k..eheheheh :D i acteli dont like couple.. coz b4.. i thout couple is juz being wit d one we love.. rite? well.. it's basically rite.. but when they do or did all sorts of thing dat i really cant stand..ermm like holding hand.. n stuffs like dat...n i know it's 'normally' exceed dat limit.. i juz cannot 'like' couple... u know wut i mean.. well.. b4 i really dont mind.. i thout ppl wont go overboard bout dis.. but..(i really dont wanna say dis.. but..) well.. i believe ppl always think wut's d best for them.. n wont do anything dat will destroy themselves.. ppl called it crazy when they do.. but when emotion involved..(i think ppl called it emotion but i think it's juz lust<--i know it's juz bad of me..) ppl seems dat cant think well n do somthing dat they think will benefit them.. i know n mayb ppl will say dat i'm tooooo simple-minded.. well i take dat as compliment.. but wut i think is.. y do ppl let lust or so-called emotion control their mind? we juz need to think wisely.. we only hav one life.. n dats wut we're going to present to our Lord.. n dats life we need to carry on altho we alone..kite cacat ke.. our parents dead(na'uzubillah).. we're being captured.. we cant start our life over.. we juz need to continue.. juz y ppl always dont care wut happen to our dis only one life??? dis life.. we wont get any 2nd chance.. cam satu ayat yg always in my mind these afew days.. it's not sekadar yg kite mampu.. tp sehabis yg kite mampu.. heih..*sigh*..

one thing dat on my mind.. we're on our journey.. sometimes we forgot wut's our really objective.. ermm juz like.. when we go to city centre.. eheheheh it's alwys happens to girlz.. we acteli wanna buy ermm mayb stationery.. then we go to arndale.. ehehehe then.. along d way.. we may go to kedai kasut la.. then mayb go to arndale market la.. (if ade bujet la..:p) in d end sometimes.. we get to buy those stationery we need but also bought other thing.. but sometimes we forgot wut we're supposd to buy.. then.. bile sampai bilek ke.. kite tepuk kepla... "alaaaaa..... lupe nk beli tuuuutt...tuuuutt..."i believe some ppl may look at this matter as 'remeh jek..' tp acteli.. it's applied to our whole life.. huh.. i'm not juz say to others.. but also to me.. i always remind myself.. we acteli alone in dis world.. wut i mean is wut ever we do.. we gain pahale or dose for ourselves.. not for others except for a few things.. so wutever we do.. we hav to decide ourselves n receive any consequences..meaning being responsible toour action.. no one will cover it for us.. n only God wit us.. so juz believe in urself n God.. T-T when i talk bout dis.. i feel like i'm being selfish(sad n hurt).. see ya..

misz those dayz..uhuhuhuhuhuuhuu..

a bit in blue~~

I dont wanna cry - mariah carey

Once again we sit in silence
After all is said and done
Only emptiness inside us
Baby, look what we've become
We can make a million promises
But we still won't change
It isn't right to stay together
When you only bring each other pain

[Chorus]
I don't wanna cry
Don't wanna cry
Nothing in the world
Could take us back
To where we used to be
Though I've give you my heart and soul
I must find a way of letting go
'Cause baby, I don't wanna cry
Too far apart to
Bridge the distance
But something keeps us
Hanging on and on
Pretending not to know the difference
Denying what we had is gone
Every moment we're together
It's just breaking me down
I know we swore it was forever
But it hurts too much
To stay around

[Chorus]
All the magic's gone
There's just a shadow
Of a memory
Something just went wrong
We can't go on make-believing

[Chorus]

uhuhuuhuhuhuuh.. do u know y i post dis lyric? ermm mayb coz i feel a bot melancholic..uhuhuhuhu sedih r.. now i know somethin dat i think it's a bit too much for me.. ermm houw shld i put dis.. ermm a few days ago..i knew somethin dat i cant accept.. i still rite now still dont believe it.. korg mesti nk tau kan? eehehehheheh well.. i cant say it clearly.. but it's acteli not my prob..but i still cant close my eyes n say nothing bout dis.. u know i'm not like dat.. but i'm not d kind dat will say it clearly at dat instant.. uhuhhuhhuhhuuuh.. well.. next time i'll tell u..:p going to watch anime..ehehehhe

Take dis survey from syud~~ ehehehe..

waaa.... i took dis survey from syud's blog... looks interesting but actually.. i dont feel like digging my own mind to write somethin in dis blog.. eheheh juz njoy..:p

- How many people on your friends list are your exes?
none...

- What's your favorite city?
manchester...

- When was the last time you saw your mom inperson?
on jun 2004.. uhuhuhuh wanna go home..:p

- Who got you to join Friendster?
hmmmm.....xigt dah..
- What did you have for dinner last night?
ermm.. nasik lemak.. eheheh best2

- do you have celebrities on your friends list?
ermm.. got a few liek their names.. but i dont think they're real thing..:p

- What's the last thing you said out loud?
"kak nuyu.. jgn tido.. mkck jah nk dtg jap lagik.."

- Look to your left. What's there?
my hp

- What is the last thing/person you spent overRM100 on?
in pnds is it? ermm.. beskal baru beli td.. eheheheh

- Who's your favorite villain?
eerrrrrmmmm..:p

- What's the last piece of clothing you borrowedfrom someone?
ape ek.. tudung kot..

- What word makes you laugh no matter where,when or how it is said?-
got a lot but forgot wut is it..eheheheheh

-What website do you visit the most during theday?
yahoo mail...torrent website.. anime website..

- Go into your text message log on yourphone...what does the last message say?
cant write it down coz..ehehehe secret:p

- Do you have plants in your room?
yup

- If you could drink anything right this second,what would be?
orange juice

- Last piece of e-mail opened:
something bout mcot..

- Does anything hurt on your body right now?
my butt..eheheeheh

- What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
manchester

- Last alcoholic drink?
none

- If someone you hated died, would you laugh andspit on their grave?
of course no..

- Do you own a picture phone?
yup..

- What were you doing last night at 9?
layan internet..uhuhuhuhu

- What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
forgot wut it's called...

- Do you exercise as much as you should?
ermm..mayb half of it.. ehhehhehe i really want to..

- Would you give your bf/gf a second chance ifthey cheated on you?
nope(confidently replied).. coz i know i kinda put my pride b4 me..

ermm.. uhuhuuhuhuuh.. kinda boring le plak survey nih.. uhuuhuhuhuhu.. xpe la sekali sekali<---mmg jrg giler.. ahahhahah x pnah rase nk jwb survey but now.. waiting for my brownies!! yumm..yumm.. ehehheeh best syud.. skrg nih tgh masak brownies my own version.. ehehehe

sad n upset enuf to make me ignore u!!

huh!! human r really weird.. n wicked!! sape ek? heih... it's like dis.. i really dont like putting myself into others' trouble.. but if they need my help.. i'll always b there 4 u!! but dont 'misuse' me plzzzz.... i'm not some tools dat u can toss away if u dont need me n beg me if u need somethin from me.. it's not i'm asking for reward or somethin like dat.. but let me state dis clearly.. i hav feeling too.. plz consider my feelign as well.. not telling me d truth but still need me is really disgusting!!!!!! do u know how upset i m bout dis?????? while i was watchng narnia n at dat moment.. it's suppossd to be happy part.. i feel like crying!! i helpd u comply bcoz u need help n dont wanna see my fren troubled by somethin dat i can help.. n also coz 'lillahi ta'ala.. juz simply like dat.. but dis's getting me sick!! i really dont wanna dis.. i now.. i believe everything ppl said to me.. altho anyone.. simply put i'm easily being tricked by anyone.. but......(speechless) when u did dat to me.. huh.. so someone plzz tell me wut to do.. my way of doing somthin is simple.. if u get lost, then u need some1 to show u d rite way.. if u dont know, then ask.. if u do wrong, then ask for forgiveness.. if u do somthin rite, then u'll be blessed.. it's juz simple as dat.. is it hard for u to consider my feeling? do along d way b4 u jus consider me as ATM(wut a funny way to give example..:p).. u come to me when u broke.. then u left me wit nothing when u get somethin from me.. btol la kan? cam ATM la kan..:D wokeh la.. i dont wanna talk further bout dis.. i know dat person wont read dis blog..(i shouldnt write dis thow).. <-- n i'm happy bout dis..:D wokeh la oyasumi nasai!! ja ne..

Story 4 2day....

uhuhuuhuhuuhuh..... story 4 2day? ermmm juz finishd burn cite to cds.. n dont knwo wut to do.. also juz sent an email to mcot mailing list bout daurah 2morrow.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. td fizah amal n azu came.. they juz wanna c my house n kak mum.. :p then fizah said i hav changed.. ermm dont know wut's dat mean.. is it gud or bad? ermm acteli i dont like when ppl said i changed.. coz (ermm i dont knwo y..) havnt thout bout it.. but when ppl said like dat.. mayb it's d truth.. hermm.. dis afternoon.. i went to cinema wit kak nuyu.. juz temankan dier tgk narnia.. well.. i watchd it b4.. but i pormised her..;p in d middle of d story.. i feel sad.. i dont know y.. i feel like crying.. i nvr cry without reason b4.. but i really feel sad.. even now(but i dont feel like crying now).. :D if i gonna say i felt sad coz of d movie.. d movie isnt sad at all.. i think it's not from movie.. eheheehehhe.. PMS kot.. hermm.. let's talk bout something else.. ah.. kak mum worried bout who wanna stay wit us next yr.. uhuhuhuuh.. coz besma n kak nuyu will b going home for good next yr.. n we got 2 rooms empty then.. hermm.. kak mum really thinks hard bout it.. ahahahha but for me.. it's doesnt matter.. well insyaAllah we can find some1.. aha.. i dont know when.. but i found one kind of fashion dat really make me upset.. dat time i was on d bus.. then i didnt realize at first but then when a girl dot out from d bus.. i cant believe my eyes.. she was wearing hijab(tudung n juz like kak nuyu's) but wit skirt paras lutut.. n boot.. well.. i dont know if 'some1' came up wit new mazhab<---- dis sentence shows dat i'm really upset bout it.. i know dat diff mazhab got diff explaination for aurat.. but then i havnt heard or seen or read bout any mazhab dat lutut is not aurat.. uhuhuhuhuuhu how we gonna live 'happily' like dis.. if kafir know bout it.. they will laugh bout it n say how weak Muslims are.. i really dont know wut to say.. :(( ermm wokeh la.. wanna study lak.. :p gonna strike for d best dis sem.. eheheheheh mata ne

Heaven - Nu Flavor

First time I saw you girl,
You turn me upside down
I can't stop thinking bout you
My head is spinning round
I got to find away to get with you somehow
Girl I'm so crazy for you
You know I want you now

And everyminute of every single day
I'm dreaming of how it could be
And everynight before I go to sleep
I'm praying that soon you'll be here with me

Chorus
Heaven, heaven oh heaven
can't you help
I looked in her eyes now she's all I see
Heaven oh heaven
can't you help me
I'm down on my knees
please help me

Cant fall alseep tonight
I don't know what to do
I hold my pillow but
I wanna be holding you
And when close my eyes
I always see your face
I know my happiness is only kiss away

And every hour here in the dark
Everyday of my lonely heart
Tells me that I need to be with you
Heaven oh heaven what can I do

Chorus
Heaven, heaven oh heaven
can't you help meI
'm giving my love for eternity

Heaven oh heaven
can't you help me
I'm down on my knees help me
I'd give anything if you were here with me

Give anything you want
and anything you need
I never thought that
I could feel the way I do
But now I wanna spend the rest of my with you

And every day that we are apart
I'm shedding this love here in my heart
And everynight before I go to sleep
I'm praying that soon you'll be here with me

Chorus
Heaven, heaven oh heaven
cant you help me
I looked in her eyes now shes all I see
Heaven oh heaven
cant you help me
I'm down on my knees
please, heaven

Heaven....(repeat until fade)

kakoii dashou??

My head juz keep spinning..uhuhuhu

yo!! acteli dis is juz smbgn fromd previous post.. ermm i think i'm going to write more in dis blog.. coz d holiday's juz started.. n dont know wut to do except readng manga.. watching anime.. studying.. coz no class.. yot's going to spain.. besma's going home.. kak mum's going to PMS.. syud n dayah r so far away.. uhuhuhuhu:p so lazy to go there.. but i'm soooo bored.. i ask kak nuyu to go to cinema.. but then.. there's no time for us.. n it's juz 2 of us.. uhuhuhuuh x best r... waaaaa:(( wut i'm going to do???? from previous post.. how should i put dis.. i'm tired of ppl dat juz think full of them self.. do they realize dat wutever they did or doing.. are going to affect other ppl.. it's not dat they can live ignoring ppl around u.. it's true dat i told u dat we cant shut ppl mouth.. but we live in community.. in d future u're going to live in community.. u got to know how treat ppl around u.. how to live so dat u wont hurt them in a way they wont get it back at u.. once some1 told me.. wut's d point of being good to ppl when they hurt u...so it's better u hurt them first.. huh.. dat's soooo damn stupid.. huh.. how can i make u realize dat??? it doesnt need any ustazah or ustaz to explain in religious way.. it's juz logical.. y i said it's stupid? u'll nvr know who u're going to met in d future.. n u'll nvr know ppl around u now r going to b wit u in d future.. if u said it's better u hurt them first b4 they hurt u.. then how u're going to live wit them.. wit those who u juz met.. n those who u 'll be meeting wit.. u'll nvr know they r going to hurt u or be good to u.. huh(dis time.. a really big sigh) i know dat person said dat to me long a go.. n mayb dat person already forgot bout it.. but wut i saw or witnessing now is as dumb as d statement above.. huh.. it's really make u pitiful.. huh.. membebel pnjg giler nih.. i know i shouldnt be talking bout dis.. coz it's bout certain ppl's personal life.. but i cant juz leave it like dat.. they r my fren.. wut's d use of fren if they're juz watching u while u're going into deep dark 'life'.. huhuhuhuhu.. wokeh la dah byk dah merepek nih.. time to stop n give a break to my head.. it's feel like my head's gonna explode.. ahahhhaa.. till next time, mata ne!! :p

yay!!!

uhuhuuhuhuhh.. juz found syud's blog.. waaaa ureshi..ureshi..(dgn gaye gedik cam dlm anime.. ahahhahaha) hampeh giler syud.. kerek ngan saye.. xpe2.. uhuhuhu (altho her blog's full of surveys.. not anything like blog thingy..) ahahahhah it doesnt matter..:p huh.. rite now feel soooo hungry but... sooooooooooo lazy to cook.. n feel like wanna rite somethin ere.. if anyone realize.. i think no one realize dis acteli.. when i feel like writing in dis blog.. meaning dat i've been troubled wit something.. coz usually i treat my probs like somethin events in my life.. if i get a prob then.. at certain time i'll think bout it..do somethin bout it.. n dat's it.. i'll nvr think bout it all day long..24/7.. no!! it's juz doesnt suit me.. eheheheh.. events<--dis is influence from digital system design II.. uhuhuuh it's mean dat something happens.. my life got distracted.. n after dat it juz become history n dat's it.. :D.. ahahaaha cam complicated lak.. :p xpe laa.. huh.. i'm lost in explaination.. ahahah acteli now wut i wanna say is.. my prob rite now is not usual prob.. it get me thinking bout it 15/5..<--- ahahahha i dont wanna say 24/7..coz it's too extreme.. ermm.. well i dont wanna state it ere wut's d prob is.. but if dat person read dis.. he/she will know.. dier akan tau saye tujukan mende nih utk dier.. coz i juz confide in him/her.. uhuhuhuh dis is bout life.. if u think u already give up on life.. then u dont hav any right to live as human.. juz give ur life to baby who died early..(it's not right to say this) but i really upset rite now.. huh.. kak mum's calling me.. coz she cooked something special.. eheheh ebst2.. coz Besma's going home tomorrow.. eheheh tq kak mum.. n i'm going to miss u besma.. ehehehe mata ne