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MPI..

Assalamualaikum wrt...
Yo!!!.. ehehhehhehe how r u guys? hope u r in d best of health n eman... :D dis week.. starting 26th of march.. we r having MPI(minggu penghayatan Islam).. well i dont know whether they already change the exact meaning.. coz i dont like it.. we dont need a specific week to 'menghayati' Islam.. we practice it everyday.. we juz can make it like.. ermm 'menggandakan' something like dat..uhuhuuh xpe la.. juz first step.. i really hope they will change it some day... d majlis perasmian.. i didnt go.. coz i went to tamrin nisa'.. then..d next activity is kuiz..well acteli we also got usrah at dat time.. but i'mone of d exco(MCOT) they ask me to make some sandwiches.. n i havnt done much around dis time.. except provide cartoon for d bulletin..

at first.. i thout i can make them earlier.. pass them to someone.. n i can go to usrah withoutany worries.. but then.. dont hav much time.. i started boil eggs at 430.. n we planned to go at 5.. uhuhuhhuuh terpakse la.. x pela.. we hav another one on thursday.. but d problem is.. i heard of it after someone ask me.. some kinda nk celebrate besday la.. n i said yes.. uhuhuhuhuuhu.. really xdek mase r skrg nih.. really fortunate i dont hav much subject dis sem.. not like last sem.. uhuhhuuh..

my bro r going to korea dis 3rd of april.. n i will be at london at dat time.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. owh.. my second bro will be going back for gewd dis thursday.. i really jealous of him.. from form 1 he entered sekolah agama.. then can fly to jepun..(acteli i really want to go to jepun).. then even b4going back to mesia.. he already got a job.. uhuhuhu he'll be working at Melaka.. hmm.. my first bro at selangor.. then my second bro at melaka.. then i'll go to johor la.. ehehehh then.. my little bro go to perak or perlis.. then my little imouto can stay at Kelantan(coz she nvr go study out of kelantan b4).. then.. i'll send my youngest ottoto.. to sabah or sarawak.. ahahahah my parents dont want any of their children go there.. ahahahhhaha isk mengarut jek..

i hav to post back my ticket to lee's travel.. coz MAS change their flight schedule.. they dont hav any flight to manchester anymore.. we hav to go to london's airport first b4 direct flight go to mesia..uhuhhuu leceh giler.. xpe la..
wokeh la.. feel sleepy.. going to bed after dis..nite!!!! salamz..

unpredictable weather...

hi every1.. uhuhuuhuh
starting 2day.. i'll write in bold char.. coz of my new design of blog... uhuhuuhuh i luv it.. well.. i took about 5 hours editing my blog.. i planned it b4.. but dont hav time lorr.. uhuhuhuuh those who came to my room these few days will know how my life rite now.. uhuhuuh really2 bersepah!!! my sleep also not 'teratur'.. uhuhuhu really x aman..

2day i need to send a report.. will meet my groupmates at 12.. but er i am.. sitting in my room like dont care..no lah!!!! i'm giving d report last blow.. ahahahah.. i'm d compiler for dis week.. uhuhuhuuh.. really cant understand my groupmates.. they r really strict.. how shld i say dis.. ermm "lepak ar.. x yah le tension2 sgt.. we r doing it in our won way.." ermm ahahahaha i cant say it straight to their faces.. coz sometimes i messed up.. :P so kinda shameful of me la if i say dat to them.. uhuhuuhu

other ppl may see me as dont hav prob.. welli can say dat 'mayb' i dont hav d very same prob as d others.. erm also 'mayb' my probs are not as big as d others.. but i'm doing my best.. but sometimes i messed up.. there's one thing i wanna achieve rite now.. i wanna be consistent.. i wanna be istiqamah in wut i did(only guwd thing la..:D) but its very hard.. i dont know bout d others.. but for ppl who always say dat.. but not doing it.. dont say it then.. its very hard!!!! well.. i'm not upset to any1.. uhhuhu juz to me.. :p

owh.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..i'm late rite now.. got meeting wit my groupmates at 12.. got to go now.. uhuhuuh buhbyee.. c ya!!! jzkk..:D

HIJJAZ - BELAIAN IBU

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^-^ how can i forget someone who carry me around for 9 months without saying i'm a nuisance.. never abandoned me.. never forget me even a day.. never ignore me even one day.. looking me with such a pair of loving eyes.. my heart aches everytime i remember those days that i took my ways instead of ways u prefer.. those days that i showed bad expressions.. but u never turn ur back on me.. owh..how i wish i'll always b by ur side.. give all my love to u.. touch ur hand.. n tell u how much i luv u.. mama.. I LUV U!!!!!!!

salamz...

Assalamualaikum wrt..

phew.. after those a few days.. ermm i juz came back from ireland.. uhhuhuhuh that was my first time there.. well.. i'm not that kinda 'suke berjln2'.. ehehehhe but bcoz of some reason..

i dont know if my family will read dis blog.. but ermm.. i dont think so..:p for those who r near me.. know wut i've been up to these days.. ok.. lately(since last sem i think) i follow a jemaah.. well its not a bad thing.. but it consumes my time+money+energy.. eheheh well.. i knda like it.. xdek org pakse.. but i havnt tell my family.. its not dat i dont wanna tell them.. n its not dat my family object dis thing.. but i get dis kinda feeling dat they cant accept it easily.. my family nvr get involve in dis thing.. well its not dat my family is more into academic stuff.. well i can say dat.. but my family is normal family.. dat hope grad successfully.. then get a good profession.. then get married.. buy a good house.. then live 'happily'.. n thats it.. sometimes.. go to 'ceramah agama'.. but no care for other ppl.. i get this feeling dat.. if i tell them.. jwpnnye? nape susah2 nk g dakwah kat org? ustaz ramai... lagi pun bukn nye cukup ilmu nk g ckp2 ngan org.. biar la org lain yg buat keje tu.. i cant b upset bcoz of wut thery say.. 'mangse keadaan'.. :(( kinda sad rite? first thing i wanna do when i go back to m'sia.. tell them.. n hope they will support me.. n 2gether wit me in dis kinda field.. ehehehhehe

wanna tell u something.. this thing really bugs me a lot.. i hav 2 friends(A n B).. they r very good fren to each other.. wit me..so-so la.. eheheheh A is kinda 'hanyut' la.. dont wanna say bad things bout her.. i thnk bcoz of upbringing.. kitorg kwn baik tu boleh la kate kwn baik.. xdek la gduh2 or buat bodo jek kalo jumpe tepi jln.. then B is someone who i always see.. i seldom see A.. one day.. B tell me.. ayat dier camnii.. kalo bgtau dlm bahase melayu lagik best bunyik dier..:p "Sheila, kitorg(kwn2 diorg la) selalu pelik camne la ko leh kwn ngan A.. cam jauh beza giler".. saye pon pelik la.. ape yg x leh kwn nye.. saye pon tanye balik.. "asal? ape yg pelik nye? x leh ke?".. dier pon jwb.."xdek la.. ko kan baik.. A tu kan cam tu.. cam pelik la camne korg leh jadik baik..C(kwn diorg gak la) pon ade pnah bgtau bende nih".. org baik hanya leh kwn ngan org baik jek ke? org baik x leh kwn ngan org 'x baik' ke? well.. its ok.. but sometimes make me think.. dats wut ppl see me outside? its not dat i dont like ppl see me as 'org baik' but.. i only did(at d moment) wut ppl should do.. ape yg org 'x baik' tu buat sampai normal ppl(i think i ca generalise like dat) been saperated from them? juz something to ponder..uhuhuhuhu:(

i got lab at 11.. (really hav so many things to write..) but i think its enuf for now.. huuhuhuhuhuh.. *in dilemma rite now.. God, plz give me guidance..
salamz..

long tyme no c..

Assalamualaikum wrt..
Yo!!! long time no c man.. ermm almost a month i didnt write soemthing in dis blog... ahahahahah well.. i can say dat i dont hav time to write up all dat happen to me these days.. ahahha.. last nite we(me, along, kak mum, nawar, inayah, zatil, ain, am, kak, asyif, kak zai, kak jah) celebrated kak mum's besday.. acteli her ebsday is on 6th of march... but we juz wanted to get on her... well.. at some points it didnt turned out so well as planned.. but i think dats ok.. i always remember dis phrase.. any relationship.. after 'gaduh-gaduh'.. u will become closer.. i think its all apply to any kind of relationship.. including children-parents.. :p..

rite now.. i hav sooo many prob.. but i hav been taught since m small.. solve ur own prob.. dont ever try to depend on others.. well.. uhuhuuhuhu dats wut m doing.. i only depends on Him only.. always remember wut kak mums told me.. whenever m sad.. or tired(mentally) or weak.. i'll remind myself.. dat.. we always ask Him for us to be strong.. give us guidance in solving our prob n obstacles.. but He nvr give those in straight way... we nvr receive 'letter' or guidebook showing how to solve our prob from Him.. but by giving us prob n obstacles itself.. is one way of making us strong.. we try to solve d probs.. He will always help us.. sometimes i despise myself.. i always choose wuts He doesnt want us to choose.. i realize dat.. but..uhuhuuhu its really hard to change.. plus its change from bad to good.. uhuhuuhuhu..

dis weekend.. i'll b away for study circle.. well its kinda big one.. a combined one.. ppl always said.. if we wanna change.. be it a bit by a bit.. but b consistent.. huhuhuhuuh.. but be consistent is something hard.. uhhhuuh..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

yupp!! i'm lazying around rite now.. feel nothing to do but then really hav a lot of hw to do acteli.. huhu.. u know.. i dreamt 4 nites in a row bout going back home.. i guess i really miss home altho i wont admit it.. eheheheh more i dont wanna think bout it.. more it comes to my restless-long sleep!!!.. uhuhhuuhuhu huishh.. wut m i talking bout???

as usual.. weekend, i spend my days in my room.. feel a bit cold but its comfortable enuf for me.. eheheheheh acteli i was planning to change some of d stuff in my room.. ehehehehhe but really so lazy to work out my tulang 4 kerat.. ahahahhaa huh*sigh*.. these days r really hard.. i dont know wut to do.. i'mnot a robot n i'm not an animal.. i know dat.. i dont know how long i'll be living.. i dont know wuts my last thing dat i'll be doing b4 i die... dat's all in Allah's hand... i know i hav works to do.. my head keep telling me dat i hav to do dat..i hav to do this.. but i dont know wuts make me dis bad... i always ask Allah for strength.. but myself, i nvr try to use d 'strength dat HE gave me..i really hope He wont stop giving me d strength.. uhuhuhhuhuhu *really feel so low of myself*

i spent about 45 pnds only for ink for printer only in dis month.. n i only got 1/2 of d allowance dat i supposd to get.. huhuhuuhuh.. i hav to watch carefully to my budget.. i havnt shop for clothes for a long time.. well dat's not in my interest acteli.. d last cloth i bought is when i'm in ds2.. from lele.. d4 dat is in ebay 2 month ago.. ahahahhaa.. not a girly type am i?? ahahhaha well i dont care.. these days.. i like to ware 4 layers of clothes.. first layer is sleeveless shirt.. then long-sleeve shirt then.. a not-too-thick sweater wit hook.. then my long black coat.. wear it either wit my denim jeans or denim skirt.. ahahhaha i think i wear dat kind of fashion about 4 times a week.. ahahhahahah realy comfortable dat now's still so cold outside.. ;p

dat's all for now.. jazakillah..

my turning point...

Assalamualaykum wrt..

it's really hard if u wanna change.. altho u wanna change from bad to good.. but it's really hard.. dat's d situation i'm in rite now.. i know how bad i was b4.. n i think i am rite now.. there're so many things i wanna do n leave.. but wit i am rite now.. it's a miracle!! i wanna b good.. i already got d hidayah.. so i'll use all my strength to change.. huh.. all i do is talking rite? i wont change juz by dat.. huhuhuhuh..

i went to liverpool yesterday n juz got back dis afternoon.. we(me plus kak asyif, am, nawar, zatil, ain, along, inayah) stayed at cik yah's house.. we had usrah.. ate 2gether.. n salat 2gether.. i really long for dat kind of environment among my frens.. but i know.. it's quite hard.. but it's not impossible for it to happen rite?.. uhuhhuuhu.. i started to study 40 hadith.. i feel like really poor.. coz i know nothing.. i barely remember sentences in al-Quran.. n i know very few hadiths.. how can i live with dis very lil' knowledge?? in one of a book i read recently.. Imam Ghazali said dat.. u cant go amar makruf nahi mungkar till u 1. berlemah lembut dgn ape yg hendak diseru n dicegah.. 2. berilmu dgn ape yg ingin diseru n dicegah.. 3. adil dgn ape yg ingin diseru n dicegah.. hmm... n i rite now? hav no right to tell ppl wut's wrong n wuts rite.. but dat's my objective in life.. d me rite now's d worst.. i know dat.. i really wanna change dat.. all i can do are learn everthing dat i need to know n ask for Allah's guidance.. it'll be fine.. "Allah will help those who's helping Allah in Islam.." i'll always hold to dat words.. Allah's words are always true..

insyaAllah.. for those who always stay by my side.. i'm very grateful to u.. n only Allah can reward u.. tq.. muaahsss

these days...

Assalamualaikum wrt..

i dont know wut happen to me these days.. juz feel like i'va waste so many time n cant get enuf of it??? astaghfirullah hal 'azim.. y hav i been so ungrateful??? feel so shame of myself n sooo guilty.. oh God.. plz forgive me.. i juz got back from ds2.. basically it's a big usrah(circle).. given by ustaz.. well.. acteli it was a big shock for me.. after heard all those things there.. y? ermm.. coz i juz knew something dat i should know..but nvr realize it b4.. how foolish i am.. D Mercifull God gave me more than enuf time to enjoy my time.. but...

i really grateful to God.. dat i've been sent here.. coz i can learn all these.. n i really wanna change my life.. so dat i can give my 100% to da'wah.. my rezki is in Allah's hand.. He will give whenever He wants.. n take it back whenever He wants.. mayb some ppl will say dat it's extreme dat i've enter dis kind of world.. b4 i wld say like dat to those ppl.. but now i really regretted it.. i'm really sorry..
as u heard n saw(mayb).. karikatur dat insulted Rasulullah had been published.. i really shocked heard dat.. i nvr see d karikatur.. now dis kind of attack they wanna give us? r u really dat desperate? N as u know.. dis is also God's test.. He's testing our iman.. even if there's a tiny dot in our heart.. it will be hard to weep it away.. but Allah loves us.. even we dont do wut He says.. He still gives us rezki.. still let we live in His world.. but still.. there're ppl who juz 'dont wanna' realize this thing.. juz take for granted all these things.. how can u do dat??? Rasulullah begged Allah to put all his ummat's sin on his shoulder.. but Allah rejected d request.. do u know y Rasulullah did dat? Coz he loves us.. even our parents or lovers.. anyone.. wont do things like dat.. even Rasulullah nvr meet us.. even there're ppl who ignore insult-Rasulullah-thing in his ummat.. Subhanallah.. Rasulullah lived his life to deliver kalimatullah to us.. n we live..even born in Islam.. bcoz of Rasulullah.. we even didnt grateful to him n Allah??? wut kind of human we wld be?

i juz cant be silent bout dis.. i want ppl to realize.. Allah's watching us.. He knows everything.. even when we're alone.. we know dat.. we always say dat.. but we nvr realize wut's d meaning of it.. it means dat.. we cant lie.. we cant pretend to b good.. we hav to do wut He says.. wutever in our hearts He knows everything.. owh.. God.. i always ask for strength.. i always ask for guide... but i'll nvr get them if U doesnt help me.. plzzz help me go thru dis life.. i'll do my job while i'm in Ur world.. juz help me.. i cant askhelp from anything else.. coz U're d only one whose Mighty..U're d only one who hav everything.. plzzz help me.. plzz dont turn Ur back on me..

also my bro..wit his proud car

my bros..

exam dah abes.. merdeka!!!

yo!.. ehehhehehe my last paper was dis morning.. n it was quite shocking.. coz i didnt expect dat i can answer it.. acteli i dont like d subject.. dat i had dis morning.. isk.. dat's it..i dont wanna talk bout it.. uhuhuhuuh
for those who follow my updated entry.. well arigatou ghozaimasta'.. u must be feel quite weird after yesterday's entry rite? well.. jitsu-ai nvr tell others bout my prob.. i'll make it clear here.. i think i can solve my own prob.. i'm not saying dat d others cant solve their own prob..but it's juz d matter of my principle.. if they ask for help.. i'll help them.. if they didnt say anything.. i wont make they do dat.. i believe everything a person do or did.. they hav their own reason n i cant interfere wit dat..

isk.. acteli i wanna explain bout yesterday's entry but then.. i think there's nothing to say anymore.. i dont care bout wut ppl say.. sometimes i juz cant stand wit ppl dat care too much bout wut d others think or say bout themselves.. i know dat we live in community.. so as one of them.. we hav to act like one.. but it doesnt mean dat we hav to satisfy them.. d only one who can satisfy someone is her/himself..

after d last paper dis morning.. i went to syud's room.. acteli i juz wanna take those cds she borrowd.. coz she said she cant open d cd.. hmmm wut's wrong ek? then.. acteli she juz got something from back home.. n guess wut? ppl at home sent her about 5 packets of bihun.. waaaaaa.. n she has about 7 in total... she gave me one.. n i already cooked it juz now.. ahahhahahah lame x makan bihun.. uhuhuhuhu.. hmm.. i guess nothing to talk bout for now.. huh.. dis monday i'll start class for 2nd sem.. uhuhuhuuh.. so malas n depressing.. we juz finishd our exam so kambe-stekudasai... uhuuhuhu wokeh la.. see ya around k.. byee

huhuhuhu.. exam

yo!!! mina-san.. genki? ehehheheh how's ur life so far? ermm good? ehehhee well.. acteli i dont really hav something to write ere.. but juz feel like it.. ahahahhaha mezrashi nee.. ahahhahah well yesterday i baked bun.. or i think it acteli pau.. hmm.. not bad.. i've been wanting to eat some acteli n cant find one ere.. so i juz make one.. ahahahhah n i plan to make some tonite too.. ahahahhaha... isk.. i think i laugh too much these days... n i think those smiles are not from my heart.. hmmm i tried so hard acteli.. to live a normal life.. but i think this is not a normal life.. hmm.. none of ppl around me knows bout dis.. except myLord.. ahh dont wanna think bout it rite now

jitsu-a.. i think i'm not a realible person.. i know dat for someone to declare it seems stupid.. but honto-wa.. i really think dat.. i hav a long list bout wut i wanna do.. but the list is juz getting longer.. i hav a long list bout wut to get or find.. but nvr try to reduce the amount of it.. huhuhuhuuhuh.. baka da ne.. watashi.. sometimes.. when i think of a bad situation.. i always think of running away.. altho in reality it's one of our own choice.. but when i think back.. i'll regret it in d future.. u know rite, i like animes.. i watchd a lot.. many kind of it.. sometimes i learned something from them.. n sometimes.. it's juz wasting my time but i enjoy it.. tanoshi!! ppl always said.. altho in those animes.. running away from our problems.. wont solve it.. it juz make it worse.. i trained myself, u know.. pathetic am i? :( i try very hard to face any prob i hav.. get thru it.. but acteli i'm not facing it.. i juz pretend it.. y? well.. i cant.. ppl always said.. be optomistic..but it's easy said than done..

wut ever we do.. wutever we choose.. wutever we decide.. will create out line, isnt it? dat's y when i hav to face any prob.. i get scared.. if i choose a wrong path.. then i'll stray from d right path.. but wut's a right path? wut's good for me.. wuts give me an eternal happiness.. hmm.. it's really direct rite? i live everyday watching ppl around me.. get influenced.. learnd from mistake.. get back to my foot.. then dat's it.. d meaning in it? nai!!! huh.. wut am i writing? i've nvr been like dis b4.. b4, i nvr tell my prob to other ppl.. i always keep to myself.. y? coz i feel i cant tell.. it's not dat i cant trust ppl.. but i feel dat it's my own prob so juz keep away from it, k.. but when my frens got one.. i really wanna help them.. y? i dont know.. i juz feel like it.. in anime(i told u, i'm easily influenced)they always said dat juz do wut u feel rite.. i hav a lot to write.. but i think it's enuf..(i told u, i nvr told anyone bout my prob..dis is weird for myself)wokeh got ot go.. byee.. mata ne

Wut's next??

hi there.. first thing.. i havnt write anyhting for these past few days.. sori bout dat.. how should i put this.. i havnt contact my frens.. well mayb it's natural for u guys but i juz realize dat i havnt talk to ppl other than my housemates n my coursemates.. huh.. wut a bad fren i am.. i havnt talk to dayah after eid.. i havnt talk to ehsan for a few months already.. syud lak.. after eid.. we juz sms each other n in ym only... uhuhuhuuhuh.. i really dont know wut happen to me.. mayb u can say bcoz of exam.. but i think it's juz an excuse.. huh.. wut am i writing?? ok i admit.. i'm not in gud mood rite now.. bcoz of d paper i got 2day.. it was realllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy suck!! after i sat for d paper.. something juz popped up in my head.. wut acteli am i doing? wut acteli i learned in d classes?? it's juz dont feel rite.. u know.. when u wanna match ur clothes... the color juz dont feel rite.. these feelings juz dont leave me alone.. after d paper today(it's not today acteli.. it's yesterday now..ehehehe) i went back home...feel really hungry.. but no one cook yet.. so i cooked something simple.. juz spagetti.. then hav some.. then went to bed.. ahahhahha u know it's juz 6 pm at dat time.. i felt so empty..

i read firah's blog juz now.. well it's kinda habit u know.. read others blog when u wanna write ur own.. hehehehhehe ok kan firah? ahahahhah.. well i havnt read hers for a few weeks already i think.. then in her blog.. she wrote something n it really struck me.. huh.. it makes me think d same way.. dat i nvr think dat way b4.. huh.. really... nanyi tendayo..watashi..??? i really hate dis.. i dont like dis kind of life.. dis is not life dat i desire.. dis is not d path i wanna draw for my history.. how shld i put this...??? it's like u get lost somewhere u know.. when u choose a way.. it's juz dont feel rite.. n u dont know wut to do.. u dont wanna stay put.. coz u know if u dont do anything.. nothing will come ur way.. no one can save u.. but if u do something..it's juz dont feel rite..owh God.. plz help mee...

when i get irritated.. or upset.. i cook.. rite now.. i really wanna make something.. n i wanna make bread.. ehehehehhe pelik kan? ade ke nk buat roti lak.. ermmm not plain bread.. i wanna make meat bun.. i cant buy it here.. but i wanna eat meat bun.. it's frustrated rite? it's feel like u're really hungry.. then there's food in front of u but u cant eat it.. acteli i know how to make meat bun.. but i know it's not as delicious as in d store.. well it's enuf rite? ppl always say dat wutever come from our hand is delicious.. well mayb it's not applied to all but it's at least applied to me.. i'm not saying dat wutever i cook is delicious but.. i will eat wutever i cook.. ehehehe altho it's not as delicious as in d store but it's delicious for me.. uhuhuhuuuh.. sounds depressing rite? huhuhuhuh.. i wanna sleep rite now.. but cant sleep.. owh sorry.. u read my blog..wanna find any interesting event but all u read is my small-matter-thingy.. ahahhaha warukattana.. ja' see ya around next time.. eheheh mata ne

u will see wut u believe...

hi there.. ehehhehheehe after dis we're(plus my housemates...) going to mariam's house.. ehehehe for iftar.. ermmm acteli i dont hav or more to dont feel to write anything.. but then i juz finish read firah's blog.. ermm i'm acteli speechless after read it.. i cant believe wut i read.. uhuhuhuhu n i also cant believe firah's like dat... i know dat i know firah not too long ago for me to say dat i understand her well.. but from my instinct.. ermmmm she's not a person dat selfish(well dat's wut i can understand from her blog) hermm.. for ppl who havnt read her blog..it's not dat i wanna badmouth her or something like dat.. but it's commonly happened to ppl around our age acteli... hermmm.. ppl always say dat they wanna do wut they desired.. they wanna be free from all their prob n live happily.. but wut's happy life acteli.. i think it's very subjective... som ppl may say being rich is happy life.. other ppl also say power's d factor to happy life.. n everyone's ideal life is not d same.. so it's impossible to satisfy everyone..

well acteli i'm in hurry.. ermmm i'll talk bout it later.. ehehehehe.. wahh i really miss my home..my mom.. my dad.. my bros n sis.. uhuuh n also my meow2.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. i hav been awy for too long.... my bro told me dat.. our house's not like b4.. i know dat but i cant imagine it.. ahahahhahha.. waaa sooo many thing i wanna write in dis blog.. coz soooo many thing happened in dis a few days.. ahahahhahahha.. wokeh got to go.. ahahahhha really hungry rite now... n thank u am.. :D

my fav group- at d moment la---> Kat-Tun!!!!!!!

Kizuna(bond) --->kat-tun

dis is my fav song at d moment.. ahahahah ac teli they sing it in their languange..but i only found d lyric in english..well at least i can understand it.. ehehehh enjoy it!!


No matter how much we consider the future,
No one can see the truth.
Something is blocking my blank mind,
It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

In time that flows, I try not to lose anything.
Passing by, we collided - true emotion
permeated my heart, into warm desires
The miracle I requested came about by chance.

Even when things couldn't stand still, amidst the pain,
I saw the light, because we were bound together.
It's okay if you lied, and it's okay to cry
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

uhuhuhuhuuuhh.. the group who sing dis song is in d pic above.. ehehehhe alaaa.. it juz a boyband group who's famous among girlz... eheheheh

New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2006..waaa!!

konichiwa'.. sawadikap!! ehehhheh domo!!.. eheheheh i'm verrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyy sleeeeeeeeepy rite now.. so i think mayb i'll take some rest n update dis boring blog.. ahahhahah.. but dis yr ermm.. i dont feel anything bout it.. coz when 2005 b4.. i feel like wow!!! but when 2006 comes.. hermmm feel like abit boring.. mayb coz i'm worried bout exam..(in d middle of january) eheheheh n i hav to take 7 papers.. waaaa.... n i'm a bit lazy dis time... i dont know y.. hermmm... mayb coz i'm staying in house?? coz b4.. i lived in hall.. n there was ade suasane study from others... ehehheh.. when i ask d others.. ade yg 3 papers only.. 5 papers.. n mine is paling byk papers.. waaaa uhuhuuuhhuuh.. i think i can put more effort on subj other than maths.. coz my strong point is from maths.. but guess wut?? maths dis sem is sooooooooooooooo hard.. plus we dont hav maths next sem... waaaaaaaaaaa how i;m going to survive????? uhuhuhuhuhuh ermmm... wut to do??? put those things aside.. eheheheh ahaa.. these a few days.. i build a habit.. waking late in d morning...waarrgghhhhh!!! i really hate dis.. coz i'm a morning person.. once i wake up.. i wont sleep after dat.. so i dont sleep in d evening.. n i like to study at nite.. so i'll sleep late... but wake up so alte in d morning.. waa.... i really hate it.... hmm.. mayb coz i didnt turn on d alarm.. n also i change my sleep position(it's one of my habit.. eheheh i really like change any position in my room..including my sleep position..:p) coz my alarm is really near to my next dooor's bed.. juz a wall between them.. so i think it's really annoying if i dont turn it off on time.. ehehhehe hm... y? coz i dont like to bother d others for such things as alarm.. loud music.. n things like dat.. coz i expect d same things from them.. it's natural like dat, isn't it?? ehehehehhe

one thing is always on my mind in these a few days.. i like to experience something.. ermmm like when i was in form 4 or 5(high school) i was wondering how is it to be a college stud or univ.. something like dat.. ermm now i already experienced high school.. college.. univ.. so i'm wondering bout d feeling being an employee??? ermmm i havnt think how i wanna be.. ermm i mean.. i'm engineering stud.. particular in mechatronic engineering.. i can go to electronic field.. or mechanical.. or i can be a lecturer.. bout dat part i havnt decide yet.. coz i think i'm suitable to be office-gal.. i know bout it.. coz my bro's working wit proton.. ermm but i like doing calculation n practical works.. so it's more to laboratory or industrial thingy.. ermm but d other hand.. my parents really want me to take lacturer at d end... hmmm.. hah!! mayb i'll juz do wut i can or wut i hav to do.. n think bout those thing when d time comes.. ehehhehe..

wokeh la.. i think i can study a bit more after dis.. take a rest.. watch anime a few episodes.. then sleep.. ehehehe dat's my routine.. mata neh.. ja ne

Yosh!!!! kora... ehehehhhehe

Hi there.. :p feeling great? ahahahha after shopping so many things? well.. i guess no...y???? coz ur pocket feel empty rite?? ahahhaha alaaaa... rileks.. it's juz normal thing after boxing day...wakakakkakaka.. well i juz realize other ppl(not my frenz) also read my blog.. well i find it's suprising coz i dont feel my blog is 'an interesting one' so dat other ppl except my frenz will read it.. ahahahha well ari gatou ghozaimashta'.. i really appreciate it.. eheheheh well it's juz my daily n personal life.. so dat i can release my tension.. i wanna let all d stuff in my head.. ehehehhe i juz watchd movies..juz like heaven n the family stone.. ermm well juz like heaven's great but the family stone.. ermm mayb i can give it.. 5/10.. not too boring or not too good.. eheehhehe warrghhh.. owh feel sooo sleepy rite now... b4 dis i hav many things to talk bout but now.. ermm seems like everything's leaving my head.. ehehehe i dont know it's a good thing or bad..ermm wokeh laa.. see ya next tyme.. :p mata ne

Boxing day!!

uhuhuuhuuhuuh... 2day's boxing day!!.. but ermm tell u wut.. i dont really excited over dis kind of day.. ehehhehhe ermm well mayb u'll figure it out dat.. i dont look like 'a normal female'.. ehehehe usually girlz like shopping.. travelling.. n stuff like dat.. but i dont feel like doing things like dat.. uhuhuhuhuu dont know y.. :D ermm boxing day mayb juz like d other day but wit less busses n trains on track.. ahahhahahhah ermm mayb i like electronic stuffs more than clothes mayb.. ehehhe ahh.. dat's not d point rite? :P ermmm i'm in my room rite now.. wit kak nuyu juz woke up.. kak mum went to Trafford centre.. Besma still at her house.. ermm well acteli i dont hav anything in my head rite now.. juz thinking dat.."APE MALAS2 NIH????? EXAM DAH DEKAT!!!!! UHUHUHUHUH.. SUME NOTES DAH DEPAN MATE.. TP MALAS LAK NK STUDI..EHEHEHEHEH.." ahahahahah my 1st paper is on 17th of january.. n my last paper is on 27th of january.. n I HAV 7 PAPERS...waaaa n all those subjects r really killing me..ermm..i guess nothing i can do bout it except studi.. studi.. n studi.. rite? eheheheh well haa... on 22nd of dec..kak nuyu turnd to 22!!!! n i'm d only 21 in dis house rite now.. wakakakakakaka.... alaaa.. it only last till 31st of dec thow.. ahahha xpe la.. saje jek carik alasan nk excited..:p ahaa kak asyif also has d same birthday..:p well dat's it.. see ya next time..:p