i really like dis song.. after along n kak mum say that dis is a gud song.. ermm at first i wasnt interested..coz.. it's from in-team.. but try it!!! its gud..
Bertali arus dugaan tiba
Menakung sebak airmata
Namun tak pernah pun setitis
Gugur berderai di pipi
Tidak ditempah hidup sengsara
Suratan nasib yang melanda
Menongkah badai bergelora
Diredah bersendirian
Bagaikan camar pulang senja
Patah sayapnya tetap terbang jua
Sekadar secicip rezeki
Buat yang sedang rindu menanti
Segenggam tabah dipertahankan
Buat bekalan di perjalanan
Kau bebat luka yang berdarah
Kau balut hati yang calar
Telah tertulis suratan nasibmu
Derita buatmu ada hikmahnya
Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu
Tak siapa tahu hatimu
Biarpun keruh air di hulu
Mungkinkah jernih di muara
Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu
Pasti bertemu tenangnya
ehehehehe.. njoy d song... uhuhuhuh till now i still cant made up my mind.. uhuhuuhu
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
confused heart....
Assalamualaikum wrt.. hiyaa!!! uhuhuhuhuh.. i dont know how should/where to start.. i'm on my way to a really different world... i know this is a really big decision to make.. but i dont know where to talk to.. i dont wanna hurt my mom or dad.. every single word that i said or say to them.. i cant take it back..
uhuuhuhuhuhu.. i feel really confused rite now.. waaaaaaaaaaa...............i'll settle down.. n cite kat korg next time tau!!!.. bye c ya!!
Alahummaghfirli wali ukhti..luv ya!!
uhuuhuhuhuhu.. i feel really confused rite now.. waaaaaaaaaaa...............i'll settle down.. n cite kat korg next time tau!!!.. bye c ya!!
Alahummaghfirli wali ukhti..luv ya!!
Monday, April 10, 2006
boring~~~
salamz...uhuhuhuhu u guys sure pelik kan... semlm berie jek tulih.. cam ade byk mende nk bgtau.. tertibe 2day??? yup!!! feel really boring rite now.. ermm its not very suitable word actually.. malas sbenarnye..uhuhuhuuhuh ah!!.. i'll juz post pics.. heheheheh njoy d pics k!! :p
Allahumaghfirli waliukhti..
Allahumaghfirli waliukhti..
boring~~~
salamz...uhuhuhuhu u guys sure pelik kan... semlm berie jek tulih.. cam ade byk mende nk bgtau.. tertibe 2day??? yup!!! feel really boring rite now.. ermm its not very suitable word actually.. malas sbenarnye..uhuhuhuuhuh ah!!.. i'll juz post pics.. heheheheh njoy d pics k!! :p
Allahumaghfirli waliukhti..
Allahumaghfirli waliukhti..
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Soldier of Allah - 1924
sometimes.. it takes blood to cherish this world.. sometimes.. tears become useless..
The truth about the state
It wasn't always like this
Let us look back in time
History reminds us
One army
One land
One central authority
Crushing the romans persians put in fear
The Ummah like a Lion
No need to shed a tear
When the village was attacked by the kufar
The Khalife heard
The sister cry & Prepared for war
Attacking the city
Destroying it from existence
Lesson # 1 Don't ever Mess with Muslims
The Imam of the Ummah is a shield
where he protects the Ummah
and where the Ummah fights behind him
Where is this shield today to protect the Ummah??
What happen to this shield
to honor and dignify the Ummah???
In 1917 Prime Minister of britain
after entering Jerusalem stated
the crusade war has ended?
In the same year the french general, goro
went to the grave of Salahudeen-Ayubi
Salahudeen-Ayubi, the one
who 730 years prier
crushed the crusades and liberated Palestine & Syria
he went to his grave in Damascus and kicked it
and said wake up oh Salahudeen we hare here ?
How did they do this to you and me
We turn on the TV and all we see is
a world full of casualties a generation in agony
our Ummah is in misery
let us go back to beginning of the century
and review our history from one side
to the other side of the globe
the system of Islam
Ruled over the world
They went to the Muslims
for the all their solutions
from mathematics to biology
to the advancements in technology
the kafir women use to imitate our women
they wanted the same respect
that the Muslims sisters were given
while the enemies of Islam
were trying to twist the Quran
trying to write a Surah like Allah?s
they all failed miserably & many of them responded
with
Ashhadu -an la Ilaha Ilallah wa Ashhadu- anna Muhammadun rasullullah
Allah has challenged the humanity until the day of judgment
to produce a Sura or an Aya like the Quran
And Allah assures that they will never be able to make an Aya like it
The kufar plan and work to destroy this Deen
and Allah affirms that we too are planning
and if all the people of the world got together
they still could not and will never be able to
put even a scratch a side of a muster seeds
on the throne of almighty Allah (SWT)
After failing on the battlefield
they kufar got together and they decided to yield
they said we must change
the way the Muslims think
and sure enough the Muslim Ummah
began to sink
In 1917 john belford promised Palestine
to the jews
31 years later
his promise went through brittan and france
split the Muslim lands
3 years later
Islam worst traitor mustafa kamal
Brought the states fall
In 1920?s mustafah kammal with the help of the british becomes the hero
Hmm? well this so-called hero cancels the authority
of the most powerful system suitable for human beings
The khilafah!!!?
he abandon all the rulings of Allah?
he did not stop there?.
He banded the Adan in Arabic,
he denied Muslim sister from obeying Allah (SWT)
by abandoning the Hijab
All Islamic calendars and holidays were canceled
Yes brothers and sisters?
he changes the Arabic alphabet to Latin
By doing so he made sure the next generation
will be lost and have no connection to their Islamic roots
as they can not read or write all the Islamic culture that was recorded
This Islamic system sent by the Creator of alameen
went from the application in life
to be in museums for people to go and see in turkey
In 1924 Our state was demolished
Hundred years of planning
And their plans were accomplished
Kafirs broke our bond
Contaminated our knowledge
Better listen up because you won't learn this in college
Beginning of the end and the divisions began
Step by step they divided our lands
in 1921 saudi arabia & iran
next year egypt &
In 32 iraq
In 1945 jordan indonesia
Lebonen & syria Two years later
The division of India
the Muslims took a stand and demanded the ruling of Islam
so they gave them pakistan but it was only an illusion
a false resolution far from the solution
In 1948 The Jews establish their israeli state
In 1901 the kufar went to Sultan Abdull Hamid the II
and offered to pay tremendous amount of money
to the Islamic State for Palestine.
Sultan Abdull Hamid the II replied:
I am not going to give one inch of Palestine to the jews as Palestine is not mine give but it belongs to the Ummah and Ummah have shed blood to defend this land but if one day the Islamic State falls apart then you can have Palestine for free but as long as I am alive I would rather have my flesh be cut up then cut out Palestine from the Muslim land I will not allow any carving up while we are alive!!!!!
In 1960's somolia & nigaria
kuwait & algeria
In 1964
Came the PLO yasar arafat
The us scarecrow a great declined
In 1969
When the west was training
Muslims scholars for hire
Jews were setting
Al-Aqsa mosque on fire!
Let us recall 1970
For those who don't remember
That was the year
That we had black September
The king of jorden & yaser arafat
Began their plot
Shot after shot
Muslim blood spilled
As innocent Muslims were killed
Communism attacked but
Muslims fought back
The sincere Mujahideen of Afghanistan fought
and pushed back the Russians and then
They started to fight among themselves
Khomaine became in power
with the promise of ruling
and raising the Ummah to a level of dignity
But his promise never went through
soon after iran and iraq
went to war
And millions of innocent Muslims died
for 10 years Muslims killing Muslims
Over what!!!??? What else?!!!
the agenda of the west!!!
at the end there were no resolution
Today iran is very much open to democracy
and reformation
and the Muslims in iraq continue to suffer?.
SubhanAllah!?.
where is the Amir of the Ummah??!!!!?..
Another decade gone
But we still don't have Islam
Take a look at the gulf
And the killings of sadam
Over million Muslims died
But no one answered their cries
In the 1990's
The Muslim genocide
Bosnia Kosovo Chechenya Dagistan
Bring back Islam! Bring back Islam! Bring back Islam! Bring back Islam!
It?s year 2000
And nothing has changed
Past generation has aged
Let us write the next page
It?s time for us to change
It?s up to you & me
Either we make history or we become history?
this song is really give me spirit.. reminding me that.. there r ppl out there that r suffering.. protecting Islam with their life.. n im here??? uhuhuuhuhuh astaghfirullah hal 'azim..:((
The truth about the state
It wasn't always like this
Let us look back in time
History reminds us
One army
One land
One central authority
Crushing the romans persians put in fear
The Ummah like a Lion
No need to shed a tear
When the village was attacked by the kufar
The Khalife heard
The sister cry & Prepared for war
Attacking the city
Destroying it from existence
Lesson # 1 Don't ever Mess with Muslims
The Imam of the Ummah is a shield
where he protects the Ummah
and where the Ummah fights behind him
Where is this shield today to protect the Ummah??
What happen to this shield
to honor and dignify the Ummah???
In 1917 Prime Minister of britain
after entering Jerusalem stated
the crusade war has ended?
In the same year the french general, goro
went to the grave of Salahudeen-Ayubi
Salahudeen-Ayubi, the one
who 730 years prier
crushed the crusades and liberated Palestine & Syria
he went to his grave in Damascus and kicked it
and said wake up oh Salahudeen we hare here ?
How did they do this to you and me
We turn on the TV and all we see is
a world full of casualties a generation in agony
our Ummah is in misery
let us go back to beginning of the century
and review our history from one side
to the other side of the globe
the system of Islam
Ruled over the world
They went to the Muslims
for the all their solutions
from mathematics to biology
to the advancements in technology
the kafir women use to imitate our women
they wanted the same respect
that the Muslims sisters were given
while the enemies of Islam
were trying to twist the Quran
trying to write a Surah like Allah?s
they all failed miserably & many of them responded
with
Ashhadu -an la Ilaha Ilallah wa Ashhadu- anna Muhammadun rasullullah
Allah has challenged the humanity until the day of judgment
to produce a Sura or an Aya like the Quran
And Allah assures that they will never be able to make an Aya like it
The kufar plan and work to destroy this Deen
and Allah affirms that we too are planning
and if all the people of the world got together
they still could not and will never be able to
put even a scratch a side of a muster seeds
on the throne of almighty Allah (SWT)
After failing on the battlefield
they kufar got together and they decided to yield
they said we must change
the way the Muslims think
and sure enough the Muslim Ummah
began to sink
In 1917 john belford promised Palestine
to the jews
31 years later
his promise went through brittan and france
split the Muslim lands
3 years later
Islam worst traitor mustafa kamal
Brought the states fall
In 1920?s mustafah kammal with the help of the british becomes the hero
Hmm? well this so-called hero cancels the authority
of the most powerful system suitable for human beings
The khilafah!!!?
he abandon all the rulings of Allah?
he did not stop there?.
He banded the Adan in Arabic,
he denied Muslim sister from obeying Allah (SWT)
by abandoning the Hijab
All Islamic calendars and holidays were canceled
Yes brothers and sisters?
he changes the Arabic alphabet to Latin
By doing so he made sure the next generation
will be lost and have no connection to their Islamic roots
as they can not read or write all the Islamic culture that was recorded
This Islamic system sent by the Creator of alameen
went from the application in life
to be in museums for people to go and see in turkey
In 1924 Our state was demolished
Hundred years of planning
And their plans were accomplished
Kafirs broke our bond
Contaminated our knowledge
Better listen up because you won't learn this in college
Beginning of the end and the divisions began
Step by step they divided our lands
in 1921 saudi arabia & iran
next year egypt &
In 32 iraq
In 1945 jordan indonesia
Lebonen & syria Two years later
The division of India
the Muslims took a stand and demanded the ruling of Islam
so they gave them pakistan but it was only an illusion
a false resolution far from the solution
In 1948 The Jews establish their israeli state
In 1901 the kufar went to Sultan Abdull Hamid the II
and offered to pay tremendous amount of money
to the Islamic State for Palestine.
Sultan Abdull Hamid the II replied:
I am not going to give one inch of Palestine to the jews as Palestine is not mine give but it belongs to the Ummah and Ummah have shed blood to defend this land but if one day the Islamic State falls apart then you can have Palestine for free but as long as I am alive I would rather have my flesh be cut up then cut out Palestine from the Muslim land I will not allow any carving up while we are alive!!!!!
In 1960's somolia & nigaria
kuwait & algeria
In 1964
Came the PLO yasar arafat
The us scarecrow a great declined
In 1969
When the west was training
Muslims scholars for hire
Jews were setting
Al-Aqsa mosque on fire!
Let us recall 1970
For those who don't remember
That was the year
That we had black September
The king of jorden & yaser arafat
Began their plot
Shot after shot
Muslim blood spilled
As innocent Muslims were killed
Communism attacked but
Muslims fought back
The sincere Mujahideen of Afghanistan fought
and pushed back the Russians and then
They started to fight among themselves
Khomaine became in power
with the promise of ruling
and raising the Ummah to a level of dignity
But his promise never went through
soon after iran and iraq
went to war
And millions of innocent Muslims died
for 10 years Muslims killing Muslims
Over what!!!??? What else?!!!
the agenda of the west!!!
at the end there were no resolution
Today iran is very much open to democracy
and reformation
and the Muslims in iraq continue to suffer?.
SubhanAllah!?.
where is the Amir of the Ummah??!!!!?..
Another decade gone
But we still don't have Islam
Take a look at the gulf
And the killings of sadam
Over million Muslims died
But no one answered their cries
In the 1990's
The Muslim genocide
Bosnia Kosovo Chechenya Dagistan
Bring back Islam! Bring back Islam! Bring back Islam! Bring back Islam!
It?s year 2000
And nothing has changed
Past generation has aged
Let us write the next page
It?s time for us to change
It?s up to you & me
Either we make history or we become history?
this song is really give me spirit.. reminding me that.. there r ppl out there that r suffering.. protecting Islam with their life.. n im here??? uhuhuuhuhuh astaghfirullah hal 'azim..:((
setelah sekian lame..
Assalamualaikum wrt...
uhuuhuhuhuhuuuhhu salamz every1.. how r u guys? uhuuhuhu i juz got back from surrey.. camping there.. join a prog.. carik ilmu.. uhuhuhuhuh.. actually i'm in pinch rite now.. uhhuhuhuh someone who r going to get married cant be thinking bout someone else rite?? how shold i realize that person.. i dont wanna hurt hus feeling.. wuts he doing is wrong.. saye bukn nk berlagak sbg penghukum..but :(( i really dont know wut to do..
yesterday.. for d first time.. our family had conference thru YM.. all of us were there except my younger bro which is studying in perak(i think so.:D) my second big bro is at home rte now.. he alreday finish his study n soon will step into world of adult(working la..) eheheheh saje nk buat bahase cam org dewase sket..:p so my mom n papa look very happy especially my mom.. in our siblings.. my mom n papa has each one of them their fav.. its not a good thing but the other dont feel any inferior.. mayb coz we realize or acknowledge their 'superiority'... uhuhuhuuh i wont say any further than that..
my bro is groing to get engaged this summer.. n my second bro is going to meet someone soon..but i dont know who..(really feel lonely.. coz dont know any detail..) saye ade rase terase gak la in dis case.. there was one time...when my younger bro(d one that studying in perak) met accident.. its long time ago.. but i dont know anything bout that.. n still now my parents thout dat i still dont know bout that.. he broke his legs.. spending in hospital for a few months.. i think dat 'balasan' Allah nk tunjuk kat dunia pd kitorg... n also for him.. coz he is the naughtiest among us.. he didnt like study.. smoking.. always poteng kelas.. n now i hope he insaf la.. uhuuhuhuuhh.. b4 i really like him.. coz he didnt talk back to me.. even now.. when my mom or me call home.. when i talk to him.. u know.. guys dont like talk or manje2 wit their older sis.. but he's cool.. he went to sekolah agame b4.. i forgot either sekolah agame kerajaan or kerajaan negeri.. uhuhuhuhu.. i dont know wut my parents wttitude toward him.. i hope they treat him like b4... kekurangan kasih syg la tu.. uhuhuhuh xpe.. saye ade.. i'll always root for u as long as u do good thing..:p
owh.. acteli i wanna tell bout my second bro.. uhuhu he juz finish his study in japan.. my parents match him wit a girl... but i dont know who.. i dont know wut will he do.. acteli.. among our siblings.. he is the first one who couple.. but he studied in sekolah agame kerajaan negeri.. uhuhuhu dier started couple when he was studying in mrsm kuala berang, terengganu.. uhuhuhuhu.. a few weeks ago.. my parents gave their consent for me to couple.. but they dont know i dont like..(well.. this is personal opinion.. dont take it to heart k..:D) i hope there's no one waiting for me(u knwo wut i mean..) i dont wanna be match to someone.. its not that i will fond someone.. but i hav my own reasons.. uhuhuuh
wokehla.. i think now saye dah kekeringan idea.. dah xtau nk tulih ape dah.. uhuhuhuhu
Allahumaghfirli waliukhti.. jzkk
ja-ne matane..
uhuuhuhuhuhuuuhhu salamz every1.. how r u guys? uhuuhuhu i juz got back from surrey.. camping there.. join a prog.. carik ilmu.. uhuhuhuhuh.. actually i'm in pinch rite now.. uhhuhuhuh someone who r going to get married cant be thinking bout someone else rite?? how shold i realize that person.. i dont wanna hurt hus feeling.. wuts he doing is wrong.. saye bukn nk berlagak sbg penghukum..but :(( i really dont know wut to do..
yesterday.. for d first time.. our family had conference thru YM.. all of us were there except my younger bro which is studying in perak(i think so.:D) my second big bro is at home rte now.. he alreday finish his study n soon will step into world of adult(working la..) eheheheh saje nk buat bahase cam org dewase sket..:p so my mom n papa look very happy especially my mom.. in our siblings.. my mom n papa has each one of them their fav.. its not a good thing but the other dont feel any inferior.. mayb coz we realize or acknowledge their 'superiority'... uhuhuhuuh i wont say any further than that..
my bro is groing to get engaged this summer.. n my second bro is going to meet someone soon..but i dont know who..(really feel lonely.. coz dont know any detail..) saye ade rase terase gak la in dis case.. there was one time...when my younger bro(d one that studying in perak) met accident.. its long time ago.. but i dont know anything bout that.. n still now my parents thout dat i still dont know bout that.. he broke his legs.. spending in hospital for a few months.. i think dat 'balasan' Allah nk tunjuk kat dunia pd kitorg... n also for him.. coz he is the naughtiest among us.. he didnt like study.. smoking.. always poteng kelas.. n now i hope he insaf la.. uhuuhuhuuhh.. b4 i really like him.. coz he didnt talk back to me.. even now.. when my mom or me call home.. when i talk to him.. u know.. guys dont like talk or manje2 wit their older sis.. but he's cool.. he went to sekolah agame b4.. i forgot either sekolah agame kerajaan or kerajaan negeri.. uhuhuhuhu.. i dont know wut my parents wttitude toward him.. i hope they treat him like b4... kekurangan kasih syg la tu.. uhuhuhuh xpe.. saye ade.. i'll always root for u as long as u do good thing..:p
owh.. acteli i wanna tell bout my second bro.. uhuhu he juz finish his study in japan.. my parents match him wit a girl... but i dont know who.. i dont know wut will he do.. acteli.. among our siblings.. he is the first one who couple.. but he studied in sekolah agame kerajaan negeri.. uhuhuhu dier started couple when he was studying in mrsm kuala berang, terengganu.. uhuhuhuhu.. a few weeks ago.. my parents gave their consent for me to couple.. but they dont know i dont like..(well.. this is personal opinion.. dont take it to heart k..:D) i hope there's no one waiting for me(u knwo wut i mean..) i dont wanna be match to someone.. its not that i will fond someone.. but i hav my own reasons.. uhuhuuh
wokehla.. i think now saye dah kekeringan idea.. dah xtau nk tulih ape dah.. uhuhuhuhu
Allahumaghfirli waliukhti.. jzkk
ja-ne matane..
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
MPI..
Assalamualaikum wrt...
Yo!!!.. ehehhehhehe how r u guys? hope u r in d best of health n eman... :D dis week.. starting 26th of march.. we r having MPI(minggu penghayatan Islam).. well i dont know whether they already change the exact meaning.. coz i dont like it.. we dont need a specific week to 'menghayati' Islam.. we practice it everyday.. we juz can make it like.. ermm 'menggandakan' something like dat..uhuhuuh xpe la.. juz first step.. i really hope they will change it some day... d majlis perasmian.. i didnt go.. coz i went to tamrin nisa'.. then..d next activity is kuiz..well acteli we also got usrah at dat time.. but i'mone of d exco(MCOT) they ask me to make some sandwiches.. n i havnt done much around dis time.. except provide cartoon for d bulletin..
at first.. i thout i can make them earlier.. pass them to someone.. n i can go to usrah withoutany worries.. but then.. dont hav much time.. i started boil eggs at 430.. n we planned to go at 5.. uhuhuhhuuh terpakse la.. x pela.. we hav another one on thursday.. but d problem is.. i heard of it after someone ask me.. some kinda nk celebrate besday la.. n i said yes.. uhuhuhuhuuhu.. really xdek mase r skrg nih.. really fortunate i dont hav much subject dis sem.. not like last sem.. uhuhhuuh..
my bro r going to korea dis 3rd of april.. n i will be at london at dat time.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. owh.. my second bro will be going back for gewd dis thursday.. i really jealous of him.. from form 1 he entered sekolah agama.. then can fly to jepun..(acteli i really want to go to jepun).. then even b4going back to mesia.. he already got a job.. uhuhuhu he'll be working at Melaka.. hmm.. my first bro at selangor.. then my second bro at melaka.. then i'll go to johor la.. ehehehh then.. my little bro go to perak or perlis.. then my little imouto can stay at Kelantan(coz she nvr go study out of kelantan b4).. then.. i'll send my youngest ottoto.. to sabah or sarawak.. ahahahah my parents dont want any of their children go there.. ahahahhhaha isk mengarut jek..
i hav to post back my ticket to lee's travel.. coz MAS change their flight schedule.. they dont hav any flight to manchester anymore.. we hav to go to london's airport first b4 direct flight go to mesia..uhuhhuu leceh giler.. xpe la..
wokeh la.. feel sleepy.. going to bed after dis..nite!!!! salamz..
Yo!!!.. ehehhehhehe how r u guys? hope u r in d best of health n eman... :D dis week.. starting 26th of march.. we r having MPI(minggu penghayatan Islam).. well i dont know whether they already change the exact meaning.. coz i dont like it.. we dont need a specific week to 'menghayati' Islam.. we practice it everyday.. we juz can make it like.. ermm 'menggandakan' something like dat..uhuhuuh xpe la.. juz first step.. i really hope they will change it some day... d majlis perasmian.. i didnt go.. coz i went to tamrin nisa'.. then..d next activity is kuiz..well acteli we also got usrah at dat time.. but i'mone of d exco(MCOT) they ask me to make some sandwiches.. n i havnt done much around dis time.. except provide cartoon for d bulletin..
at first.. i thout i can make them earlier.. pass them to someone.. n i can go to usrah withoutany worries.. but then.. dont hav much time.. i started boil eggs at 430.. n we planned to go at 5.. uhuhuhhuuh terpakse la.. x pela.. we hav another one on thursday.. but d problem is.. i heard of it after someone ask me.. some kinda nk celebrate besday la.. n i said yes.. uhuhuhuhuuhu.. really xdek mase r skrg nih.. really fortunate i dont hav much subject dis sem.. not like last sem.. uhuhhuuh..
my bro r going to korea dis 3rd of april.. n i will be at london at dat time.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. owh.. my second bro will be going back for gewd dis thursday.. i really jealous of him.. from form 1 he entered sekolah agama.. then can fly to jepun..(acteli i really want to go to jepun).. then even b4going back to mesia.. he already got a job.. uhuhuhu he'll be working at Melaka.. hmm.. my first bro at selangor.. then my second bro at melaka.. then i'll go to johor la.. ehehehh then.. my little bro go to perak or perlis.. then my little imouto can stay at Kelantan(coz she nvr go study out of kelantan b4).. then.. i'll send my youngest ottoto.. to sabah or sarawak.. ahahahah my parents dont want any of their children go there.. ahahahhhaha isk mengarut jek..
i hav to post back my ticket to lee's travel.. coz MAS change their flight schedule.. they dont hav any flight to manchester anymore.. we hav to go to london's airport first b4 direct flight go to mesia..uhuhhuu leceh giler.. xpe la..
wokeh la.. feel sleepy.. going to bed after dis..nite!!!! salamz..
Friday, March 24, 2006
unpredictable weather...
hi every1.. uhuhuuhuh
starting 2day.. i'll write in bold char.. coz of my new design of blog... uhuhuuhuh i luv it.. well.. i took about 5 hours editing my blog.. i planned it b4.. but dont hav time lorr.. uhuhuhuuh those who came to my room these few days will know how my life rite now.. uhuhuuh really2 bersepah!!! my sleep also not 'teratur'.. uhuhuhu really x aman..
2day i need to send a report.. will meet my groupmates at 12.. but er i am.. sitting in my room like dont care..no lah!!!! i'm giving d report last blow.. ahahahah.. i'm d compiler for dis week.. uhuhuhuuh.. really cant understand my groupmates.. they r really strict.. how shld i say dis.. ermm "lepak ar.. x yah le tension2 sgt.. we r doing it in our won way.." ermm ahahahaha i cant say it straight to their faces.. coz sometimes i messed up.. :P so kinda shameful of me la if i say dat to them.. uhuhuuhu
other ppl may see me as dont hav prob.. welli can say dat 'mayb' i dont hav d very same prob as d others.. erm also 'mayb' my probs are not as big as d others.. but i'm doing my best.. but sometimes i messed up.. there's one thing i wanna achieve rite now.. i wanna be consistent.. i wanna be istiqamah in wut i did(only guwd thing la..:D) but its very hard.. i dont know bout d others.. but for ppl who always say dat.. but not doing it.. dont say it then.. its very hard!!!! well.. i'm not upset to any1.. uhhuhu juz to me.. :p
owh.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..i'm late rite now.. got meeting wit my groupmates at 12.. got to go now.. uhuhuuh buhbyee.. c ya!!! jzkk..:D
starting 2day.. i'll write in bold char.. coz of my new design of blog... uhuhuuhuh i luv it.. well.. i took about 5 hours editing my blog.. i planned it b4.. but dont hav time lorr.. uhuhuhuuh those who came to my room these few days will know how my life rite now.. uhuhuuh really2 bersepah!!! my sleep also not 'teratur'.. uhuhuhu really x aman..
2day i need to send a report.. will meet my groupmates at 12.. but er i am.. sitting in my room like dont care..no lah!!!! i'm giving d report last blow.. ahahahah.. i'm d compiler for dis week.. uhuhuhuuh.. really cant understand my groupmates.. they r really strict.. how shld i say dis.. ermm "lepak ar.. x yah le tension2 sgt.. we r doing it in our won way.." ermm ahahahaha i cant say it straight to their faces.. coz sometimes i messed up.. :P so kinda shameful of me la if i say dat to them.. uhuhuuhu
other ppl may see me as dont hav prob.. welli can say dat 'mayb' i dont hav d very same prob as d others.. erm also 'mayb' my probs are not as big as d others.. but i'm doing my best.. but sometimes i messed up.. there's one thing i wanna achieve rite now.. i wanna be consistent.. i wanna be istiqamah in wut i did(only guwd thing la..:D) but its very hard.. i dont know bout d others.. but for ppl who always say dat.. but not doing it.. dont say it then.. its very hard!!!! well.. i'm not upset to any1.. uhhuhu juz to me.. :p
owh.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..i'm late rite now.. got meeting wit my groupmates at 12.. got to go now.. uhuhuuh buhbyee.. c ya!!! jzkk..:D
Thursday, March 23, 2006
HIJJAZ - BELAIAN IBU
TERTANAM NALURI KEIBUAN
AMAT MENDALAM DI JIWA INSAN
YG MENDAMBAKAN KEBAHAGIAAN
OH IBU...
DI BAHUMU TERGALAS
BEBAN PERJALANANNMU PENUH RINTANGAN
KAU TITIPKAN KASIH SAYANG
SEJUJUR PENGORBANAN
TAK KU NAFIKAN
DI SAAT KITA BERJAUHAN
RASA INGINKU BERLARI
MENDAKAPIMU PENUH GIRANG
BAK SI KECIL KEHILANGAN
KAU INSAN PENYAYANG
BETAPA KU MERINDU
LEMBUT NYA BELAIAN IBU
MEMBUATKU TERLENAKU
PASTIKAN DIKAU AMAN
DIKURNIA SEJAHTERA
TAK KU LUPAKAN
DI WAJAH MU BEROLAK TENANG
SEBAK DI DADA KAU RAHSIAKAN
KU PASTIKAN
DIKAU AMAN DIKURNIA SEJAHTERA
TAK KU LUPAKAN
DI SAAT KITA BERJAUHAN
RASA INGINKU BERLARI MENDAKAPIMU
PENUH GIRANG
BAK SI KECIL KEHILANGAN
TIADA AKU TANPA IBU
HANYA KAU SATU DI DUNIA
BERTAKHTA DIKAU DI JIWAKU
KAULAH IBU YANG TERCINTA
KAU INSAN PENGASIH
BETAPAKU MENGHARAP
HADIRNYA RESTUMU IBU
MEMBAWAKU KE SYURGA
BERSEMI BELAIAN KASIH SAYANG
YANG BERPANJANGAN
DARIMU INSAN YANG MENDOAKAN
KEBAHAGIAAN ANAK-ANAKMU OH IBU
^-^ how can i forget someone who carry me around for 9 months without saying i'm a nuisance.. never abandoned me.. never forget me even a day.. never ignore me even one day.. looking me with such a pair of loving eyes.. my heart aches everytime i remember those days that i took my ways instead of ways u prefer.. those days that i showed bad expressions.. but u never turn ur back on me.. owh..how i wish i'll always b by ur side.. give all my love to u.. touch ur hand.. n tell u how much i luv u.. mama.. I LUV U!!!!!!!
AMAT MENDALAM DI JIWA INSAN
YG MENDAMBAKAN KEBAHAGIAAN
OH IBU...
DI BAHUMU TERGALAS
BEBAN PERJALANANNMU PENUH RINTANGAN
KAU TITIPKAN KASIH SAYANG
SEJUJUR PENGORBANAN
TAK KU NAFIKAN
DI SAAT KITA BERJAUHAN
RASA INGINKU BERLARI
MENDAKAPIMU PENUH GIRANG
BAK SI KECIL KEHILANGAN
KAU INSAN PENYAYANG
BETAPA KU MERINDU
LEMBUT NYA BELAIAN IBU
MEMBUATKU TERLENAKU
PASTIKAN DIKAU AMAN
DIKURNIA SEJAHTERA
TAK KU LUPAKAN
DI WAJAH MU BEROLAK TENANG
SEBAK DI DADA KAU RAHSIAKAN
KU PASTIKAN
DIKAU AMAN DIKURNIA SEJAHTERA
TAK KU LUPAKAN
DI SAAT KITA BERJAUHAN
RASA INGINKU BERLARI MENDAKAPIMU
PENUH GIRANG
BAK SI KECIL KEHILANGAN
TIADA AKU TANPA IBU
HANYA KAU SATU DI DUNIA
BERTAKHTA DIKAU DI JIWAKU
KAULAH IBU YANG TERCINTA
KAU INSAN PENGASIH
BETAPAKU MENGHARAP
HADIRNYA RESTUMU IBU
MEMBAWAKU KE SYURGA
BERSEMI BELAIAN KASIH SAYANG
YANG BERPANJANGAN
DARIMU INSAN YANG MENDOAKAN
KEBAHAGIAAN ANAK-ANAKMU OH IBU
^-^ how can i forget someone who carry me around for 9 months without saying i'm a nuisance.. never abandoned me.. never forget me even a day.. never ignore me even one day.. looking me with such a pair of loving eyes.. my heart aches everytime i remember those days that i took my ways instead of ways u prefer.. those days that i showed bad expressions.. but u never turn ur back on me.. owh..how i wish i'll always b by ur side.. give all my love to u.. touch ur hand.. n tell u how much i luv u.. mama.. I LUV U!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
salamz...
Assalamualaikum wrt..
phew.. after those a few days.. ermm i juz came back from ireland.. uhhuhuhuh that was my first time there.. well.. i'm not that kinda 'suke berjln2'.. ehehehhe but bcoz of some reason..
i dont know if my family will read dis blog.. but ermm.. i dont think so..:p for those who r near me.. know wut i've been up to these days.. ok.. lately(since last sem i think) i follow a jemaah.. well its not a bad thing.. but it consumes my time+money+energy.. eheheh well.. i knda like it.. xdek org pakse.. but i havnt tell my family.. its not dat i dont wanna tell them.. n its not dat my family object dis thing.. but i get dis kinda feeling dat they cant accept it easily.. my family nvr get involve in dis thing.. well its not dat my family is more into academic stuff.. well i can say dat.. but my family is normal family.. dat hope grad successfully.. then get a good profession.. then get married.. buy a good house.. then live 'happily'.. n thats it.. sometimes.. go to 'ceramah agama'.. but no care for other ppl.. i get this feeling dat.. if i tell them.. jwpnnye? nape susah2 nk g dakwah kat org? ustaz ramai... lagi pun bukn nye cukup ilmu nk g ckp2 ngan org.. biar la org lain yg buat keje tu.. i cant b upset bcoz of wut thery say.. 'mangse keadaan'.. :(( kinda sad rite? first thing i wanna do when i go back to m'sia.. tell them.. n hope they will support me.. n 2gether wit me in dis kinda field.. ehehehhehe
wanna tell u something.. this thing really bugs me a lot.. i hav 2 friends(A n B).. they r very good fren to each other.. wit me..so-so la.. eheheheh A is kinda 'hanyut' la.. dont wanna say bad things bout her.. i thnk bcoz of upbringing.. kitorg kwn baik tu boleh la kate kwn baik.. xdek la gduh2 or buat bodo jek kalo jumpe tepi jln.. then B is someone who i always see.. i seldom see A.. one day.. B tell me.. ayat dier camnii.. kalo bgtau dlm bahase melayu lagik best bunyik dier..:p "Sheila, kitorg(kwn2 diorg la) selalu pelik camne la ko leh kwn ngan A.. cam jauh beza giler".. saye pon pelik la.. ape yg x leh kwn nye.. saye pon tanye balik.. "asal? ape yg pelik nye? x leh ke?".. dier pon jwb.."xdek la.. ko kan baik.. A tu kan cam tu.. cam pelik la camne korg leh jadik baik..C(kwn diorg gak la) pon ade pnah bgtau bende nih".. org baik hanya leh kwn ngan org baik jek ke? org baik x leh kwn ngan org 'x baik' ke? well.. its ok.. but sometimes make me think.. dats wut ppl see me outside? its not dat i dont like ppl see me as 'org baik' but.. i only did(at d moment) wut ppl should do.. ape yg org 'x baik' tu buat sampai normal ppl(i think i ca generalise like dat) been saperated from them? juz something to ponder..uhuhuhuhu:(
i got lab at 11.. (really hav so many things to write..) but i think its enuf for now.. huuhuhuhuhuh.. *in dilemma rite now.. God, plz give me guidance..
salamz..
phew.. after those a few days.. ermm i juz came back from ireland.. uhhuhuhuh that was my first time there.. well.. i'm not that kinda 'suke berjln2'.. ehehehhe but bcoz of some reason..
i dont know if my family will read dis blog.. but ermm.. i dont think so..:p for those who r near me.. know wut i've been up to these days.. ok.. lately(since last sem i think) i follow a jemaah.. well its not a bad thing.. but it consumes my time+money+energy.. eheheh well.. i knda like it.. xdek org pakse.. but i havnt tell my family.. its not dat i dont wanna tell them.. n its not dat my family object dis thing.. but i get dis kinda feeling dat they cant accept it easily.. my family nvr get involve in dis thing.. well its not dat my family is more into academic stuff.. well i can say dat.. but my family is normal family.. dat hope grad successfully.. then get a good profession.. then get married.. buy a good house.. then live 'happily'.. n thats it.. sometimes.. go to 'ceramah agama'.. but no care for other ppl.. i get this feeling dat.. if i tell them.. jwpnnye? nape susah2 nk g dakwah kat org? ustaz ramai... lagi pun bukn nye cukup ilmu nk g ckp2 ngan org.. biar la org lain yg buat keje tu.. i cant b upset bcoz of wut thery say.. 'mangse keadaan'.. :(( kinda sad rite? first thing i wanna do when i go back to m'sia.. tell them.. n hope they will support me.. n 2gether wit me in dis kinda field.. ehehehhehe
wanna tell u something.. this thing really bugs me a lot.. i hav 2 friends(A n B).. they r very good fren to each other.. wit me..so-so la.. eheheheh A is kinda 'hanyut' la.. dont wanna say bad things bout her.. i thnk bcoz of upbringing.. kitorg kwn baik tu boleh la kate kwn baik.. xdek la gduh2 or buat bodo jek kalo jumpe tepi jln.. then B is someone who i always see.. i seldom see A.. one day.. B tell me.. ayat dier camnii.. kalo bgtau dlm bahase melayu lagik best bunyik dier..:p "Sheila, kitorg(kwn2 diorg la) selalu pelik camne la ko leh kwn ngan A.. cam jauh beza giler".. saye pon pelik la.. ape yg x leh kwn nye.. saye pon tanye balik.. "asal? ape yg pelik nye? x leh ke?".. dier pon jwb.."xdek la.. ko kan baik.. A tu kan cam tu.. cam pelik la camne korg leh jadik baik..C(kwn diorg gak la) pon ade pnah bgtau bende nih".. org baik hanya leh kwn ngan org baik jek ke? org baik x leh kwn ngan org 'x baik' ke? well.. its ok.. but sometimes make me think.. dats wut ppl see me outside? its not dat i dont like ppl see me as 'org baik' but.. i only did(at d moment) wut ppl should do.. ape yg org 'x baik' tu buat sampai normal ppl(i think i ca generalise like dat) been saperated from them? juz something to ponder..uhuhuhuhu:(
i got lab at 11.. (really hav so many things to write..) but i think its enuf for now.. huuhuhuhuhuh.. *in dilemma rite now.. God, plz give me guidance..
salamz..
Thursday, March 09, 2006
long tyme no c..
Assalamualaikum wrt..
Yo!!! long time no c man.. ermm almost a month i didnt write soemthing in dis blog... ahahahahah well.. i can say dat i dont hav time to write up all dat happen to me these days.. ahahha.. last nite we(me, along, kak mum, nawar, inayah, zatil, ain, am, kak, asyif, kak zai, kak jah) celebrated kak mum's besday.. acteli her ebsday is on 6th of march... but we juz wanted to get on her... well.. at some points it didnt turned out so well as planned.. but i think dats ok.. i always remember dis phrase.. any relationship.. after 'gaduh-gaduh'.. u will become closer.. i think its all apply to any kind of relationship.. including children-parents.. :p..
rite now.. i hav sooo many prob.. but i hav been taught since m small.. solve ur own prob.. dont ever try to depend on others.. well.. uhuhuuhuhu dats wut m doing.. i only depends on Him only.. always remember wut kak mums told me.. whenever m sad.. or tired(mentally) or weak.. i'll remind myself.. dat.. we always ask Him for us to be strong.. give us guidance in solving our prob n obstacles.. but He nvr give those in straight way... we nvr receive 'letter' or guidebook showing how to solve our prob from Him.. but by giving us prob n obstacles itself.. is one way of making us strong.. we try to solve d probs.. He will always help us.. sometimes i despise myself.. i always choose wuts He doesnt want us to choose.. i realize dat.. but..uhuhuuhu its really hard to change.. plus its change from bad to good.. uhuhuuhuhu..
dis weekend.. i'll b away for study circle.. well its kinda big one.. a combined one.. ppl always said.. if we wanna change.. be it a bit by a bit.. but b consistent.. huhuhuhuuh.. but be consistent is something hard.. uhhhuuh..
Yo!!! long time no c man.. ermm almost a month i didnt write soemthing in dis blog... ahahahahah well.. i can say dat i dont hav time to write up all dat happen to me these days.. ahahha.. last nite we(me, along, kak mum, nawar, inayah, zatil, ain, am, kak, asyif, kak zai, kak jah) celebrated kak mum's besday.. acteli her ebsday is on 6th of march... but we juz wanted to get on her... well.. at some points it didnt turned out so well as planned.. but i think dats ok.. i always remember dis phrase.. any relationship.. after 'gaduh-gaduh'.. u will become closer.. i think its all apply to any kind of relationship.. including children-parents.. :p..
rite now.. i hav sooo many prob.. but i hav been taught since m small.. solve ur own prob.. dont ever try to depend on others.. well.. uhuhuuhuhu dats wut m doing.. i only depends on Him only.. always remember wut kak mums told me.. whenever m sad.. or tired(mentally) or weak.. i'll remind myself.. dat.. we always ask Him for us to be strong.. give us guidance in solving our prob n obstacles.. but He nvr give those in straight way... we nvr receive 'letter' or guidebook showing how to solve our prob from Him.. but by giving us prob n obstacles itself.. is one way of making us strong.. we try to solve d probs.. He will always help us.. sometimes i despise myself.. i always choose wuts He doesnt want us to choose.. i realize dat.. but..uhuhuuhu its really hard to change.. plus its change from bad to good.. uhuhuuhuhu..
dis weekend.. i'll b away for study circle.. well its kinda big one.. a combined one.. ppl always said.. if we wanna change.. be it a bit by a bit.. but b consistent.. huhuhuhuuh.. but be consistent is something hard.. uhhhuuh..
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Assalamualaikum wrt..
yupp!! i'm lazying around rite now.. feel nothing to do but then really hav a lot of hw to do acteli.. huhu.. u know.. i dreamt 4 nites in a row bout going back home.. i guess i really miss home altho i wont admit it.. eheheheh more i dont wanna think bout it.. more it comes to my restless-long sleep!!!.. uhuhhuuhuhu huishh.. wut m i talking bout???
as usual.. weekend, i spend my days in my room.. feel a bit cold but its comfortable enuf for me.. eheheheheh acteli i was planning to change some of d stuff in my room.. ehehehehhe but really so lazy to work out my tulang 4 kerat.. ahahahhaa huh*sigh*.. these days r really hard.. i dont know wut to do.. i'mnot a robot n i'm not an animal.. i know dat.. i dont know how long i'll be living.. i dont know wuts my last thing dat i'll be doing b4 i die... dat's all in Allah's hand... i know i hav works to do.. my head keep telling me dat i hav to do dat..i hav to do this.. but i dont know wuts make me dis bad... i always ask Allah for strength.. but myself, i nvr try to use d 'strength dat HE gave me..i really hope He wont stop giving me d strength.. uhuhuhhuhuhu *really feel so low of myself*
i spent about 45 pnds only for ink for printer only in dis month.. n i only got 1/2 of d allowance dat i supposd to get.. huhuhuuhuh.. i hav to watch carefully to my budget.. i havnt shop for clothes for a long time.. well dat's not in my interest acteli.. d last cloth i bought is when i'm in ds2.. from lele.. d4 dat is in ebay 2 month ago.. ahahahhaa.. not a girly type am i?? ahahhaha well i dont care.. these days.. i like to ware 4 layers of clothes.. first layer is sleeveless shirt.. then long-sleeve shirt then.. a not-too-thick sweater wit hook.. then my long black coat.. wear it either wit my denim jeans or denim skirt.. ahahhaha i think i wear dat kind of fashion about 4 times a week.. ahahhahahah realy comfortable dat now's still so cold outside.. ;p
dat's all for now.. jazakillah..
yupp!! i'm lazying around rite now.. feel nothing to do but then really hav a lot of hw to do acteli.. huhu.. u know.. i dreamt 4 nites in a row bout going back home.. i guess i really miss home altho i wont admit it.. eheheheh more i dont wanna think bout it.. more it comes to my restless-long sleep!!!.. uhuhhuuhuhu huishh.. wut m i talking bout???
as usual.. weekend, i spend my days in my room.. feel a bit cold but its comfortable enuf for me.. eheheheheh acteli i was planning to change some of d stuff in my room.. ehehehehhe but really so lazy to work out my tulang 4 kerat.. ahahahhaa huh*sigh*.. these days r really hard.. i dont know wut to do.. i'mnot a robot n i'm not an animal.. i know dat.. i dont know how long i'll be living.. i dont know wuts my last thing dat i'll be doing b4 i die... dat's all in Allah's hand... i know i hav works to do.. my head keep telling me dat i hav to do dat..i hav to do this.. but i dont know wuts make me dis bad... i always ask Allah for strength.. but myself, i nvr try to use d 'strength dat HE gave me..i really hope He wont stop giving me d strength.. uhuhuhhuhuhu *really feel so low of myself*
i spent about 45 pnds only for ink for printer only in dis month.. n i only got 1/2 of d allowance dat i supposd to get.. huhuhuuhuh.. i hav to watch carefully to my budget.. i havnt shop for clothes for a long time.. well dat's not in my interest acteli.. d last cloth i bought is when i'm in ds2.. from lele.. d4 dat is in ebay 2 month ago.. ahahahhaa.. not a girly type am i?? ahahhaha well i dont care.. these days.. i like to ware 4 layers of clothes.. first layer is sleeveless shirt.. then long-sleeve shirt then.. a not-too-thick sweater wit hook.. then my long black coat.. wear it either wit my denim jeans or denim skirt.. ahahhaha i think i wear dat kind of fashion about 4 times a week.. ahahhahahah realy comfortable dat now's still so cold outside.. ;p
dat's all for now.. jazakillah..
Sunday, February 12, 2006
my turning point...
Assalamualaykum wrt..
it's really hard if u wanna change.. altho u wanna change from bad to good.. but it's really hard.. dat's d situation i'm in rite now.. i know how bad i was b4.. n i think i am rite now.. there're so many things i wanna do n leave.. but wit i am rite now.. it's a miracle!! i wanna b good.. i already got d hidayah.. so i'll use all my strength to change.. huh.. all i do is talking rite? i wont change juz by dat.. huhuhuhuh..
i went to liverpool yesterday n juz got back dis afternoon.. we(me plus kak asyif, am, nawar, zatil, ain, along, inayah) stayed at cik yah's house.. we had usrah.. ate 2gether.. n salat 2gether.. i really long for dat kind of environment among my frens.. but i know.. it's quite hard.. but it's not impossible for it to happen rite?.. uhuhhuuhu.. i started to study 40 hadith.. i feel like really poor.. coz i know nothing.. i barely remember sentences in al-Quran.. n i know very few hadiths.. how can i live with dis very lil' knowledge?? in one of a book i read recently.. Imam Ghazali said dat.. u cant go amar makruf nahi mungkar till u 1. berlemah lembut dgn ape yg hendak diseru n dicegah.. 2. berilmu dgn ape yg ingin diseru n dicegah.. 3. adil dgn ape yg ingin diseru n dicegah.. hmm... n i rite now? hav no right to tell ppl wut's wrong n wuts rite.. but dat's my objective in life.. d me rite now's d worst.. i know dat.. i really wanna change dat.. all i can do are learn everthing dat i need to know n ask for Allah's guidance.. it'll be fine.. "Allah will help those who's helping Allah in Islam.." i'll always hold to dat words.. Allah's words are always true..
insyaAllah.. for those who always stay by my side.. i'm very grateful to u.. n only Allah can reward u.. tq.. muaahsss
it's really hard if u wanna change.. altho u wanna change from bad to good.. but it's really hard.. dat's d situation i'm in rite now.. i know how bad i was b4.. n i think i am rite now.. there're so many things i wanna do n leave.. but wit i am rite now.. it's a miracle!! i wanna b good.. i already got d hidayah.. so i'll use all my strength to change.. huh.. all i do is talking rite? i wont change juz by dat.. huhuhuhuh..
i went to liverpool yesterday n juz got back dis afternoon.. we(me plus kak asyif, am, nawar, zatil, ain, along, inayah) stayed at cik yah's house.. we had usrah.. ate 2gether.. n salat 2gether.. i really long for dat kind of environment among my frens.. but i know.. it's quite hard.. but it's not impossible for it to happen rite?.. uhuhhuuhu.. i started to study 40 hadith.. i feel like really poor.. coz i know nothing.. i barely remember sentences in al-Quran.. n i know very few hadiths.. how can i live with dis very lil' knowledge?? in one of a book i read recently.. Imam Ghazali said dat.. u cant go amar makruf nahi mungkar till u 1. berlemah lembut dgn ape yg hendak diseru n dicegah.. 2. berilmu dgn ape yg ingin diseru n dicegah.. 3. adil dgn ape yg ingin diseru n dicegah.. hmm... n i rite now? hav no right to tell ppl wut's wrong n wuts rite.. but dat's my objective in life.. d me rite now's d worst.. i know dat.. i really wanna change dat.. all i can do are learn everthing dat i need to know n ask for Allah's guidance.. it'll be fine.. "Allah will help those who's helping Allah in Islam.." i'll always hold to dat words.. Allah's words are always true..
insyaAllah.. for those who always stay by my side.. i'm very grateful to u.. n only Allah can reward u.. tq.. muaahsss
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
these days...
Assalamualaikum wrt..
i dont know wut happen to me these days.. juz feel like i'va waste so many time n cant get enuf of it??? astaghfirullah hal 'azim.. y hav i been so ungrateful??? feel so shame of myself n sooo guilty.. oh God.. plz forgive me.. i juz got back from ds2.. basically it's a big usrah(circle).. given by ustaz.. well.. acteli it was a big shock for me.. after heard all those things there.. y? ermm.. coz i juz knew something dat i should know..but nvr realize it b4.. how foolish i am.. D Mercifull God gave me more than enuf time to enjoy my time.. but...
i really grateful to God.. dat i've been sent here.. coz i can learn all these.. n i really wanna change my life.. so dat i can give my 100% to da'wah.. my rezki is in Allah's hand.. He will give whenever He wants.. n take it back whenever He wants.. mayb some ppl will say dat it's extreme dat i've enter dis kind of world.. b4 i wld say like dat to those ppl.. but now i really regretted it.. i'm really sorry..
as u heard n saw(mayb).. karikatur dat insulted Rasulullah had been published.. i really shocked heard dat.. i nvr see d karikatur.. now dis kind of attack they wanna give us? r u really dat desperate? N as u know.. dis is also God's test.. He's testing our iman.. even if there's a tiny dot in our heart.. it will be hard to weep it away.. but Allah loves us.. even we dont do wut He says.. He still gives us rezki.. still let we live in His world.. but still.. there're ppl who juz 'dont wanna' realize this thing.. juz take for granted all these things.. how can u do dat??? Rasulullah begged Allah to put all his ummat's sin on his shoulder.. but Allah rejected d request.. do u know y Rasulullah did dat? Coz he loves us.. even our parents or lovers.. anyone.. wont do things like dat.. even Rasulullah nvr meet us.. even there're ppl who ignore insult-Rasulullah-thing in his ummat.. Subhanallah.. Rasulullah lived his life to deliver kalimatullah to us.. n we live..even born in Islam.. bcoz of Rasulullah.. we even didnt grateful to him n Allah??? wut kind of human we wld be?
i juz cant be silent bout dis.. i want ppl to realize.. Allah's watching us.. He knows everything.. even when we're alone.. we know dat.. we always say dat.. but we nvr realize wut's d meaning of it.. it means dat.. we cant lie.. we cant pretend to b good.. we hav to do wut He says.. wutever in our hearts He knows everything.. owh.. God.. i always ask for strength.. i always ask for guide... but i'll nvr get them if U doesnt help me.. plzzz help me go thru dis life.. i'll do my job while i'm in Ur world.. juz help me.. i cant askhelp from anything else.. coz U're d only one whose Mighty..U're d only one who hav everything.. plzzz help me.. plzz dont turn Ur back on me..
i dont know wut happen to me these days.. juz feel like i'va waste so many time n cant get enuf of it??? astaghfirullah hal 'azim.. y hav i been so ungrateful??? feel so shame of myself n sooo guilty.. oh God.. plz forgive me.. i juz got back from ds2.. basically it's a big usrah(circle).. given by ustaz.. well.. acteli it was a big shock for me.. after heard all those things there.. y? ermm.. coz i juz knew something dat i should know..but nvr realize it b4.. how foolish i am.. D Mercifull God gave me more than enuf time to enjoy my time.. but...
i really grateful to God.. dat i've been sent here.. coz i can learn all these.. n i really wanna change my life.. so dat i can give my 100% to da'wah.. my rezki is in Allah's hand.. He will give whenever He wants.. n take it back whenever He wants.. mayb some ppl will say dat it's extreme dat i've enter dis kind of world.. b4 i wld say like dat to those ppl.. but now i really regretted it.. i'm really sorry..
as u heard n saw(mayb).. karikatur dat insulted Rasulullah had been published.. i really shocked heard dat.. i nvr see d karikatur.. now dis kind of attack they wanna give us? r u really dat desperate? N as u know.. dis is also God's test.. He's testing our iman.. even if there's a tiny dot in our heart.. it will be hard to weep it away.. but Allah loves us.. even we dont do wut He says.. He still gives us rezki.. still let we live in His world.. but still.. there're ppl who juz 'dont wanna' realize this thing.. juz take for granted all these things.. how can u do dat??? Rasulullah begged Allah to put all his ummat's sin on his shoulder.. but Allah rejected d request.. do u know y Rasulullah did dat? Coz he loves us.. even our parents or lovers.. anyone.. wont do things like dat.. even Rasulullah nvr meet us.. even there're ppl who ignore insult-Rasulullah-thing in his ummat.. Subhanallah.. Rasulullah lived his life to deliver kalimatullah to us.. n we live..even born in Islam.. bcoz of Rasulullah.. we even didnt grateful to him n Allah??? wut kind of human we wld be?
i juz cant be silent bout dis.. i want ppl to realize.. Allah's watching us.. He knows everything.. even when we're alone.. we know dat.. we always say dat.. but we nvr realize wut's d meaning of it.. it means dat.. we cant lie.. we cant pretend to b good.. we hav to do wut He says.. wutever in our hearts He knows everything.. owh.. God.. i always ask for strength.. i always ask for guide... but i'll nvr get them if U doesnt help me.. plzzz help me go thru dis life.. i'll do my job while i'm in Ur world.. juz help me.. i cant askhelp from anything else.. coz U're d only one whose Mighty..U're d only one who hav everything.. plzzz help me.. plzz dont turn Ur back on me..
Saturday, January 28, 2006
exam dah abes.. merdeka!!!
yo!.. ehehhehehe my last paper was dis morning.. n it was quite shocking.. coz i didnt expect dat i can answer it.. acteli i dont like d subject.. dat i had dis morning.. isk.. dat's it..i dont wanna talk bout it.. uhuhuhuuh
for those who follow my updated entry.. well arigatou ghozaimasta'.. u must be feel quite weird after yesterday's entry rite? well.. jitsu-ai nvr tell others bout my prob.. i'll make it clear here.. i think i can solve my own prob.. i'm not saying dat d others cant solve their own prob..but it's juz d matter of my principle.. if they ask for help.. i'll help them.. if they didnt say anything.. i wont make they do dat.. i believe everything a person do or did.. they hav their own reason n i cant interfere wit dat..
isk.. acteli i wanna explain bout yesterday's entry but then.. i think there's nothing to say anymore.. i dont care bout wut ppl say.. sometimes i juz cant stand wit ppl dat care too much bout wut d others think or say bout themselves.. i know dat we live in community.. so as one of them.. we hav to act like one.. but it doesnt mean dat we hav to satisfy them.. d only one who can satisfy someone is her/himself..
after d last paper dis morning.. i went to syud's room.. acteli i juz wanna take those cds she borrowd.. coz she said she cant open d cd.. hmmm wut's wrong ek? then.. acteli she juz got something from back home.. n guess wut? ppl at home sent her about 5 packets of bihun.. waaaaaa.. n she has about 7 in total... she gave me one.. n i already cooked it juz now.. ahahhahahah lame x makan bihun.. uhuhuhuhu.. hmm.. i guess nothing to talk bout for now.. huh.. dis monday i'll start class for 2nd sem.. uhuhuhuuh.. so malas n depressing.. we juz finishd our exam so kambe-stekudasai... uhuuhuhu wokeh la.. see ya around k.. byee
for those who follow my updated entry.. well arigatou ghozaimasta'.. u must be feel quite weird after yesterday's entry rite? well.. jitsu-ai nvr tell others bout my prob.. i'll make it clear here.. i think i can solve my own prob.. i'm not saying dat d others cant solve their own prob..but it's juz d matter of my principle.. if they ask for help.. i'll help them.. if they didnt say anything.. i wont make they do dat.. i believe everything a person do or did.. they hav their own reason n i cant interfere wit dat..
isk.. acteli i wanna explain bout yesterday's entry but then.. i think there's nothing to say anymore.. i dont care bout wut ppl say.. sometimes i juz cant stand wit ppl dat care too much bout wut d others think or say bout themselves.. i know dat we live in community.. so as one of them.. we hav to act like one.. but it doesnt mean dat we hav to satisfy them.. d only one who can satisfy someone is her/himself..
after d last paper dis morning.. i went to syud's room.. acteli i juz wanna take those cds she borrowd.. coz she said she cant open d cd.. hmmm wut's wrong ek? then.. acteli she juz got something from back home.. n guess wut? ppl at home sent her about 5 packets of bihun.. waaaaaa.. n she has about 7 in total... she gave me one.. n i already cooked it juz now.. ahahhahahah lame x makan bihun.. uhuhuhuhu.. hmm.. i guess nothing to talk bout for now.. huh.. dis monday i'll start class for 2nd sem.. uhuhuhuuh.. so malas n depressing.. we juz finishd our exam so kambe-stekudasai... uhuuhuhu wokeh la.. see ya around k.. byee
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