I'm manga maniac????

First of all I wanna say that I’m not kind of ‘jiwang’.. so don’t misunderstood me when I talk like this.. eheehhehe I’m reading ayashi no ceres nye manga.. well 50% of da story is about ceres(goddess) and another half is about love.. ehehehehe so ‘….’ Speechless.. but wut I wanna say is this manga got sooooooooooooooooooo many heartstopping part.. where ‘she’ start to love someone.. when she lose her koibito in a blink of eyes.. when she is lonely.. well the author is so clever ‘play’ wit the characters.. yesterday I stopped where her koibito saw his rival hugs her.. then I cant move on.. I don’t hav the gut to read wut happen afterward.. I told myself so many times.. that’s everything is gonna be okay.. their love is stronger.. then I took one whole day to comfort myself… so dat I can go on reading this manga.. then I continue read it today.. and then now I hav to stop.. waaaaa….:(( bcoz she lost her koibito in a second.. in front of her eyes.. they juz comforting each others heart before that.. waaaa sedih gile.. can u imagine or feel the feeling of losing someone u love so much in front of ur own eyes in a blink of eyes… they juz started to live for each other.. and also that they seems to suffer so much bcoz of another one.. huh.. I got to ‘stop’ my heart first b4 I can continue read this manga.. pity the girl.. she rejected other guy(although that guy sacrifices so many times for her) although she also likes that guy.. waaaa wut will happen after this? Waaa serius x berani nk smbg tgk.. uhuhuhuhuh wokeh la got to go.. ja ne (hara hetta) :D