Tuesday, March 28, 2006


triffle yg best.. mase besday kak mum!!

MPI..

Assalamualaikum wrt...
Yo!!!.. ehehhehhehe how r u guys? hope u r in d best of health n eman... :D dis week.. starting 26th of march.. we r having MPI(minggu penghayatan Islam).. well i dont know whether they already change the exact meaning.. coz i dont like it.. we dont need a specific week to 'menghayati' Islam.. we practice it everyday.. we juz can make it like.. ermm 'menggandakan' something like dat..uhuhuuh xpe la.. juz first step.. i really hope they will change it some day... d majlis perasmian.. i didnt go.. coz i went to tamrin nisa'.. then..d next activity is kuiz..well acteli we also got usrah at dat time.. but i'mone of d exco(MCOT) they ask me to make some sandwiches.. n i havnt done much around dis time.. except provide cartoon for d bulletin..

at first.. i thout i can make them earlier.. pass them to someone.. n i can go to usrah withoutany worries.. but then.. dont hav much time.. i started boil eggs at 430.. n we planned to go at 5.. uhuhuhhuuh terpakse la.. x pela.. we hav another one on thursday.. but d problem is.. i heard of it after someone ask me.. some kinda nk celebrate besday la.. n i said yes.. uhuhuhuhuuhu.. really xdek mase r skrg nih.. really fortunate i dont hav much subject dis sem.. not like last sem.. uhuhhuuh..

my bro r going to korea dis 3rd of april.. n i will be at london at dat time.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. owh.. my second bro will be going back for gewd dis thursday.. i really jealous of him.. from form 1 he entered sekolah agama.. then can fly to jepun..(acteli i really want to go to jepun).. then even b4going back to mesia.. he already got a job.. uhuhuhu he'll be working at Melaka.. hmm.. my first bro at selangor.. then my second bro at melaka.. then i'll go to johor la.. ehehehh then.. my little bro go to perak or perlis.. then my little imouto can stay at Kelantan(coz she nvr go study out of kelantan b4).. then.. i'll send my youngest ottoto.. to sabah or sarawak.. ahahahah my parents dont want any of their children go there.. ahahahhhaha isk mengarut jek..

i hav to post back my ticket to lee's travel.. coz MAS change their flight schedule.. they dont hav any flight to manchester anymore.. we hav to go to london's airport first b4 direct flight go to mesia..uhuhhuu leceh giler.. xpe la..
wokeh la.. feel sleepy.. going to bed after dis..nite!!!! salamz..

Friday, March 24, 2006

unpredictable weather...

hi every1.. uhuhuuhuh
starting 2day.. i'll write in bold char.. coz of my new design of blog... uhuhuuhuh i luv it.. well.. i took about 5 hours editing my blog.. i planned it b4.. but dont hav time lorr.. uhuhuhuuh those who came to my room these few days will know how my life rite now.. uhuhuuh really2 bersepah!!! my sleep also not 'teratur'.. uhuhuhu really x aman..

2day i need to send a report.. will meet my groupmates at 12.. but er i am.. sitting in my room like dont care..no lah!!!! i'm giving d report last blow.. ahahahah.. i'm d compiler for dis week.. uhuhuhuuh.. really cant understand my groupmates.. they r really strict.. how shld i say dis.. ermm "lepak ar.. x yah le tension2 sgt.. we r doing it in our won way.." ermm ahahahaha i cant say it straight to their faces.. coz sometimes i messed up.. :P so kinda shameful of me la if i say dat to them.. uhuhuuhu

other ppl may see me as dont hav prob.. welli can say dat 'mayb' i dont hav d very same prob as d others.. erm also 'mayb' my probs are not as big as d others.. but i'm doing my best.. but sometimes i messed up.. there's one thing i wanna achieve rite now.. i wanna be consistent.. i wanna be istiqamah in wut i did(only guwd thing la..:D) but its very hard.. i dont know bout d others.. but for ppl who always say dat.. but not doing it.. dont say it then.. its very hard!!!! well.. i'm not upset to any1.. uhhuhu juz to me.. :p

owh.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..i'm late rite now.. got meeting wit my groupmates at 12.. got to go now.. uhuhuuh buhbyee.. c ya!!! jzkk..:D

Thursday, March 23, 2006

HIJJAZ - BELAIAN IBU

TERTANAM NALURI KEIBUAN
AMAT MENDALAM DI JIWA INSAN
YG MENDAMBAKAN KEBAHAGIAAN
OH IBU...
DI BAHUMU TERGALAS
BEBAN PERJALANANNMU PENUH RINTANGAN
KAU TITIPKAN KASIH SAYANG
SEJUJUR PENGORBANAN
TAK KU NAFIKAN
DI SAAT KITA BERJAUHAN
RASA INGINKU BERLARI
MENDAKAPIMU PENUH GIRANG
BAK SI KECIL KEHILANGAN
KAU INSAN PENYAYANG
BETAPA KU MERINDU
LEMBUT NYA BELAIAN IBU
MEMBUATKU TERLENAKU
PASTIKAN DIKAU AMAN
DIKURNIA SEJAHTERA
TAK KU LUPAKAN
DI WAJAH MU BEROLAK TENANG
SEBAK DI DADA KAU RAHSIAKAN
KU PASTIKAN
DIKAU AMAN DIKURNIA SEJAHTERA
TAK KU LUPAKAN
DI SAAT KITA BERJAUHAN
RASA INGINKU BERLARI MENDAKAPIMU
PENUH GIRANG
BAK SI KECIL KEHILANGAN
TIADA AKU TANPA IBU
HANYA KAU SATU DI DUNIA
BERTAKHTA DIKAU DI JIWAKU
KAULAH IBU YANG TERCINTA
KAU INSAN PENGASIH
BETAPAKU MENGHARAP
HADIRNYA RESTUMU IBU
MEMBAWAKU KE SYURGA
BERSEMI BELAIAN KASIH SAYANG
YANG BERPANJANGAN
DARIMU INSAN YANG MENDOAKAN
KEBAHAGIAAN ANAK-ANAKMU OH IBU

^-^ how can i forget someone who carry me around for 9 months without saying i'm a nuisance.. never abandoned me.. never forget me even a day.. never ignore me even one day.. looking me with such a pair of loving eyes.. my heart aches everytime i remember those days that i took my ways instead of ways u prefer.. those days that i showed bad expressions.. but u never turn ur back on me.. owh..how i wish i'll always b by ur side.. give all my love to u.. touch ur hand.. n tell u how much i luv u.. mama.. I LUV U!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

salamz...

Assalamualaikum wrt..

phew.. after those a few days.. ermm i juz came back from ireland.. uhhuhuhuh that was my first time there.. well.. i'm not that kinda 'suke berjln2'.. ehehehhe but bcoz of some reason..

i dont know if my family will read dis blog.. but ermm.. i dont think so..:p for those who r near me.. know wut i've been up to these days.. ok.. lately(since last sem i think) i follow a jemaah.. well its not a bad thing.. but it consumes my time+money+energy.. eheheh well.. i knda like it.. xdek org pakse.. but i havnt tell my family.. its not dat i dont wanna tell them.. n its not dat my family object dis thing.. but i get dis kinda feeling dat they cant accept it easily.. my family nvr get involve in dis thing.. well its not dat my family is more into academic stuff.. well i can say dat.. but my family is normal family.. dat hope grad successfully.. then get a good profession.. then get married.. buy a good house.. then live 'happily'.. n thats it.. sometimes.. go to 'ceramah agama'.. but no care for other ppl.. i get this feeling dat.. if i tell them.. jwpnnye? nape susah2 nk g dakwah kat org? ustaz ramai... lagi pun bukn nye cukup ilmu nk g ckp2 ngan org.. biar la org lain yg buat keje tu.. i cant b upset bcoz of wut thery say.. 'mangse keadaan'.. :(( kinda sad rite? first thing i wanna do when i go back to m'sia.. tell them.. n hope they will support me.. n 2gether wit me in dis kinda field.. ehehehhehe

wanna tell u something.. this thing really bugs me a lot.. i hav 2 friends(A n B).. they r very good fren to each other.. wit me..so-so la.. eheheheh A is kinda 'hanyut' la.. dont wanna say bad things bout her.. i thnk bcoz of upbringing.. kitorg kwn baik tu boleh la kate kwn baik.. xdek la gduh2 or buat bodo jek kalo jumpe tepi jln.. then B is someone who i always see.. i seldom see A.. one day.. B tell me.. ayat dier camnii.. kalo bgtau dlm bahase melayu lagik best bunyik dier..:p "Sheila, kitorg(kwn2 diorg la) selalu pelik camne la ko leh kwn ngan A.. cam jauh beza giler".. saye pon pelik la.. ape yg x leh kwn nye.. saye pon tanye balik.. "asal? ape yg pelik nye? x leh ke?".. dier pon jwb.."xdek la.. ko kan baik.. A tu kan cam tu.. cam pelik la camne korg leh jadik baik..C(kwn diorg gak la) pon ade pnah bgtau bende nih".. org baik hanya leh kwn ngan org baik jek ke? org baik x leh kwn ngan org 'x baik' ke? well.. its ok.. but sometimes make me think.. dats wut ppl see me outside? its not dat i dont like ppl see me as 'org baik' but.. i only did(at d moment) wut ppl should do.. ape yg org 'x baik' tu buat sampai normal ppl(i think i ca generalise like dat) been saperated from them? juz something to ponder..uhuhuhuhu:(

i got lab at 11.. (really hav so many things to write..) but i think its enuf for now.. huuhuhuhuhuh.. *in dilemma rite now.. God, plz give me guidance..
salamz..

Thursday, March 09, 2006

long tyme no c..

Assalamualaikum wrt..
Yo!!! long time no c man.. ermm almost a month i didnt write soemthing in dis blog... ahahahahah well.. i can say dat i dont hav time to write up all dat happen to me these days.. ahahha.. last nite we(me, along, kak mum, nawar, inayah, zatil, ain, am, kak, asyif, kak zai, kak jah) celebrated kak mum's besday.. acteli her ebsday is on 6th of march... but we juz wanted to get on her... well.. at some points it didnt turned out so well as planned.. but i think dats ok.. i always remember dis phrase.. any relationship.. after 'gaduh-gaduh'.. u will become closer.. i think its all apply to any kind of relationship.. including children-parents.. :p..

rite now.. i hav sooo many prob.. but i hav been taught since m small.. solve ur own prob.. dont ever try to depend on others.. well.. uhuhuuhuhu dats wut m doing.. i only depends on Him only.. always remember wut kak mums told me.. whenever m sad.. or tired(mentally) or weak.. i'll remind myself.. dat.. we always ask Him for us to be strong.. give us guidance in solving our prob n obstacles.. but He nvr give those in straight way... we nvr receive 'letter' or guidebook showing how to solve our prob from Him.. but by giving us prob n obstacles itself.. is one way of making us strong.. we try to solve d probs.. He will always help us.. sometimes i despise myself.. i always choose wuts He doesnt want us to choose.. i realize dat.. but..uhuhuuhu its really hard to change.. plus its change from bad to good.. uhuhuuhuhu..

dis weekend.. i'll b away for study circle.. well its kinda big one.. a combined one.. ppl always said.. if we wanna change.. be it a bit by a bit.. but b consistent.. huhuhuhuuh.. but be consistent is something hard.. uhhhuuh..