i'm hurt~

Assalamualaikum wrt..

ari ni.. kali ni saye akan cite nape n ape jd.. kalo sbelum ni.. saye x kan share kalo saye ade prob.. tp kali saye dah x thn.. but one thing.. plz dont ask me bout this.. i mean.. plz dont remind me bout this.. in 2 or 3 days later.. i'll probably will forget bout this.. i'm like this..

saye antor email kat mcot.. niat saye.. saye nk fire org yg still beli brg yahudi.. tp in d same time.. xnk derma utk palestine.. (mungkin terpengaruh ngan hafizbarnye blog kot..) kalo nk tau ape yg saye tulih.. bukak la mcot nye website.. saye cumenk tlg promote mende tu.. tp ade org kate saye marah2.. buatkan org makin x nk beli.. kalo x nk beli.. sudah.. thats fine wit me.. tp care tu dah salah.. mcm la salahkan org minum arak.. kebun anggur yg kene bakar.. (btol ke analogy tu?) bile saye ade prob.. kekdg saye nangis.. (kalo korg prasan.. saye x pnah nangis depan org lain..) tp kali nih sampai saye xleh nangis.. coz i'm hurt... i;m hurt sooo much.. y? coz it'll affect other thing.. i really regret it.. soo much.. soo much that i cant talk bout this after this..

salah ke saye gune tande seru? lemah sgt ke org melayu sampai effect tande seru tu kuat sgt.. saye sdg tulih nih sambil terpsg lagu sedih.. kalo sblm ni saye jd sedih sbb lagu tu.. tp skrg ni saye rase lagu nih lgsg x sedih.. btol la.. Allah akan duge kite part yg kite care soo much.. i feel so bad.. i dont wanna go thru this thing.. but i remember one thing someone told me.. nih la salah satu care Allah nk jdkan kite 'kuat'..

serius.. saye x kuat.. saye lemah.. saye x nangis sbb i'm too weak.. i'm too weak to cry.. org ckp setiap org ade kelemahan n kuatnye.. tp ade ke org nk ngaku lemah dier? rite now i feel so sad coz.. i'm hurt so much.. ya Allah kuatkan la hatiku.. plz make it strong to face this terrible thing..

owh at last.. ngalir gak air mate saye.. mesti korg igt ape la saye.. x memerlukan comfort org lain... coz ppl u tend to hurt.. r ppl around u.. thnx for listening.. n thnx coz always b there for me.. kekdg saye lemas.. tp sbb saye kene teruskan idop... i'm pretending to b ok.. pathetic kan saye ni? patheticnye saye ni sampai saye rase kalo saye xdek la into sgt dlm mende ni.. everything will b ok.. T-T

jzkm n wassalam..