i hate being alone..

this is not just from my experiences.. things that i thought i will do also included.. ahhahahaaa.. such immature thing rite? :P

i hate being alone, coz when i'm alone i will eat unhealthy food, like instant noodle, keropok, too-much-msg potato chips etc etc.. it is not that i'm too lazy to cook but i think if i cook, it's not worth it if i'm to eat alone.. well, there's an option to buy a properly cooked meal from any kedai makan or restaurant, but well, either way.. i will eat alone.. dont pity me, coz this is my nature.. i've been like this for almost 2 years.. (well, something happened at that time)

i hate being alone, coz when i'm alone i wont do beneficial stuff, like improving my 3d drawing skill, or improving my programming skill or even improving my english.. huh*sigh* well those are the things that i've planned for half a year now.. but when i'm alone, those things seem like too far away... huhu to the point that i hate myself being like that.. huh..

i hate being alone, coz when i'm alone i miss someone.. altho i miss that person, i wont get in touch with that person.. i dont know why.. then, i fill in the void in my heart with browsing the forums or looking for someone to chat.. huh.. pitiful, rite? yup, i dont have a everyone-wants-to-b-like-me life.. ahahhahahaa

i write all this stuff, not to gain ur pity.. but bcoz i just realize something.. but by the time i realized that, it's already gone, like a flying bird.. i can only look and regret it while it's already far from my reach.. what can i do? i already did my best, but maybe my best doesnt reach someone's heart..

.:sorry coz havnt update my blog..xcukup jari tangan:.