exam dah abes.. merdeka!!!

yo!.. ehehhehehe my last paper was dis morning.. n it was quite shocking.. coz i didnt expect dat i can answer it.. acteli i dont like d subject.. dat i had dis morning.. isk.. dat's it..i dont wanna talk bout it.. uhuhuhuuh
for those who follow my updated entry.. well arigatou ghozaimasta'.. u must be feel quite weird after yesterday's entry rite? well.. jitsu-ai nvr tell others bout my prob.. i'll make it clear here.. i think i can solve my own prob.. i'm not saying dat d others cant solve their own prob..but it's juz d matter of my principle.. if they ask for help.. i'll help them.. if they didnt say anything.. i wont make they do dat.. i believe everything a person do or did.. they hav their own reason n i cant interfere wit dat..

isk.. acteli i wanna explain bout yesterday's entry but then.. i think there's nothing to say anymore.. i dont care bout wut ppl say.. sometimes i juz cant stand wit ppl dat care too much bout wut d others think or say bout themselves.. i know dat we live in community.. so as one of them.. we hav to act like one.. but it doesnt mean dat we hav to satisfy them.. d only one who can satisfy someone is her/himself..

after d last paper dis morning.. i went to syud's room.. acteli i juz wanna take those cds she borrowd.. coz she said she cant open d cd.. hmmm wut's wrong ek? then.. acteli she juz got something from back home.. n guess wut? ppl at home sent her about 5 packets of bihun.. waaaaaa.. n she has about 7 in total... she gave me one.. n i already cooked it juz now.. ahahhahahah lame x makan bihun.. uhuhuhuhu.. hmm.. i guess nothing to talk bout for now.. huh.. dis monday i'll start class for 2nd sem.. uhuhuhuuh.. so malas n depressing.. we juz finishd our exam so kambe-stekudasai... uhuuhuhu wokeh la.. see ya around k.. byee

huhuhuhu.. exam

yo!!! mina-san.. genki? ehehheheh how's ur life so far? ermm good? ehehhee well.. acteli i dont really hav something to write ere.. but juz feel like it.. ahahahhaha mezrashi nee.. ahahhahah well yesterday i baked bun.. or i think it acteli pau.. hmm.. not bad.. i've been wanting to eat some acteli n cant find one ere.. so i juz make one.. ahahahhah n i plan to make some tonite too.. ahahahhaha... isk.. i think i laugh too much these days... n i think those smiles are not from my heart.. hmmm i tried so hard acteli.. to live a normal life.. but i think this is not a normal life.. hmm.. none of ppl around me knows bout dis.. except myLord.. ahh dont wanna think bout it rite now

jitsu-a.. i think i'm not a realible person.. i know dat for someone to declare it seems stupid.. but honto-wa.. i really think dat.. i hav a long list bout wut i wanna do.. but the list is juz getting longer.. i hav a long list bout wut to get or find.. but nvr try to reduce the amount of it.. huhuhuhuuhuh.. baka da ne.. watashi.. sometimes.. when i think of a bad situation.. i always think of running away.. altho in reality it's one of our own choice.. but when i think back.. i'll regret it in d future.. u know rite, i like animes.. i watchd a lot.. many kind of it.. sometimes i learned something from them.. n sometimes.. it's juz wasting my time but i enjoy it.. tanoshi!! ppl always said.. altho in those animes.. running away from our problems.. wont solve it.. it juz make it worse.. i trained myself, u know.. pathetic am i? :( i try very hard to face any prob i hav.. get thru it.. but acteli i'm not facing it.. i juz pretend it.. y? well.. i cant.. ppl always said.. be optomistic..but it's easy said than done..

wut ever we do.. wutever we choose.. wutever we decide.. will create out line, isnt it? dat's y when i hav to face any prob.. i get scared.. if i choose a wrong path.. then i'll stray from d right path.. but wut's a right path? wut's good for me.. wuts give me an eternal happiness.. hmm.. it's really direct rite? i live everyday watching ppl around me.. get influenced.. learnd from mistake.. get back to my foot.. then dat's it.. d meaning in it? nai!!! huh.. wut am i writing? i've nvr been like dis b4.. b4, i nvr tell my prob to other ppl.. i always keep to myself.. y? coz i feel i cant tell.. it's not dat i cant trust ppl.. but i feel dat it's my own prob so juz keep away from it, k.. but when my frens got one.. i really wanna help them.. y? i dont know.. i juz feel like it.. in anime(i told u, i'm easily influenced)they always said dat juz do wut u feel rite.. i hav a lot to write.. but i think it's enuf..(i told u, i nvr told anyone bout my prob..dis is weird for myself)wokeh got ot go.. byee.. mata ne

Wut's next??

hi there.. first thing.. i havnt write anyhting for these past few days.. sori bout dat.. how should i put this.. i havnt contact my frens.. well mayb it's natural for u guys but i juz realize dat i havnt talk to ppl other than my housemates n my coursemates.. huh.. wut a bad fren i am.. i havnt talk to dayah after eid.. i havnt talk to ehsan for a few months already.. syud lak.. after eid.. we juz sms each other n in ym only... uhuhuhuuhuh.. i really dont know wut happen to me.. mayb u can say bcoz of exam.. but i think it's juz an excuse.. huh.. wut am i writing?? ok i admit.. i'm not in gud mood rite now.. bcoz of d paper i got 2day.. it was realllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy suck!! after i sat for d paper.. something juz popped up in my head.. wut acteli am i doing? wut acteli i learned in d classes?? it's juz dont feel rite.. u know.. when u wanna match ur clothes... the color juz dont feel rite.. these feelings juz dont leave me alone.. after d paper today(it's not today acteli.. it's yesterday now..ehehehe) i went back home...feel really hungry.. but no one cook yet.. so i cooked something simple.. juz spagetti.. then hav some.. then went to bed.. ahahhahha u know it's juz 6 pm at dat time.. i felt so empty..

i read firah's blog juz now.. well it's kinda habit u know.. read others blog when u wanna write ur own.. hehehehhehe ok kan firah? ahahahhah.. well i havnt read hers for a few weeks already i think.. then in her blog.. she wrote something n it really struck me.. huh.. it makes me think d same way.. dat i nvr think dat way b4.. huh.. really... nanyi tendayo..watashi..??? i really hate dis.. i dont like dis kind of life.. dis is not life dat i desire.. dis is not d path i wanna draw for my history.. how shld i put this...??? it's like u get lost somewhere u know.. when u choose a way.. it's juz dont feel rite.. n u dont know wut to do.. u dont wanna stay put.. coz u know if u dont do anything.. nothing will come ur way.. no one can save u.. but if u do something..it's juz dont feel rite..owh God.. plz help mee...

when i get irritated.. or upset.. i cook.. rite now.. i really wanna make something.. n i wanna make bread.. ehehehehhe pelik kan? ade ke nk buat roti lak.. ermmm not plain bread.. i wanna make meat bun.. i cant buy it here.. but i wanna eat meat bun.. it's frustrated rite? it's feel like u're really hungry.. then there's food in front of u but u cant eat it.. acteli i know how to make meat bun.. but i know it's not as delicious as in d store.. well it's enuf rite? ppl always say dat wutever come from our hand is delicious.. well mayb it's not applied to all but it's at least applied to me.. i'm not saying dat wutever i cook is delicious but.. i will eat wutever i cook.. ehehehe altho it's not as delicious as in d store but it's delicious for me.. uhuhuhuuuh.. sounds depressing rite? huhuhuhuh.. i wanna sleep rite now.. but cant sleep.. owh sorry.. u read my blog..wanna find any interesting event but all u read is my small-matter-thingy.. ahahhaha warukattana.. ja' see ya around next time.. eheheh mata ne

u will see wut u believe...

hi there.. ehehhehheehe after dis we're(plus my housemates...) going to mariam's house.. ehehehe for iftar.. ermmm acteli i dont hav or more to dont feel to write anything.. but then i juz finish read firah's blog.. ermm i'm acteli speechless after read it.. i cant believe wut i read.. uhuhuhuhu n i also cant believe firah's like dat... i know dat i know firah not too long ago for me to say dat i understand her well.. but from my instinct.. ermmmm she's not a person dat selfish(well dat's wut i can understand from her blog) hermm.. for ppl who havnt read her blog..it's not dat i wanna badmouth her or something like dat.. but it's commonly happened to ppl around our age acteli... hermmm.. ppl always say dat they wanna do wut they desired.. they wanna be free from all their prob n live happily.. but wut's happy life acteli.. i think it's very subjective... som ppl may say being rich is happy life.. other ppl also say power's d factor to happy life.. n everyone's ideal life is not d same.. so it's impossible to satisfy everyone..

well acteli i'm in hurry.. ermmm i'll talk bout it later.. ehehehehe.. wahh i really miss my home..my mom.. my dad.. my bros n sis.. uhuuh n also my meow2.. uhuhuhuhuhu.. i hav been awy for too long.... my bro told me dat.. our house's not like b4.. i know dat but i cant imagine it.. ahahahhahha.. waaa sooo many thing i wanna write in dis blog.. coz soooo many thing happened in dis a few days.. ahahahhahahha.. wokeh got to go.. ahahahhha really hungry rite now... n thank u am.. :D

my fav group- at d moment la---> Kat-Tun!!!!!!!

Kizuna(bond) --->kat-tun

dis is my fav song at d moment.. ahahahah ac teli they sing it in their languange..but i only found d lyric in english..well at least i can understand it.. ehehehh enjoy it!!


No matter how much we consider the future,
No one can see the truth.
Something is blocking my blank mind,
It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

In time that flows, I try not to lose anything.
Passing by, we collided - true emotion
permeated my heart, into warm desires
The miracle I requested came about by chance.

Even when things couldn't stand still, amidst the pain,
I saw the light, because we were bound together.
It's okay if you lied, and it's okay to cry
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

uhuhuhuhuuuhh.. the group who sing dis song is in d pic above.. ehehehhe alaaa.. it juz a boyband group who's famous among girlz... eheheheh

New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2006..waaa!!

konichiwa'.. sawadikap!! ehehhheh domo!!.. eheheheh i'm verrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyy sleeeeeeeeepy rite now.. so i think mayb i'll take some rest n update dis boring blog.. ahahhahah.. but dis yr ermm.. i dont feel anything bout it.. coz when 2005 b4.. i feel like wow!!! but when 2006 comes.. hermmm feel like abit boring.. mayb coz i'm worried bout exam..(in d middle of january) eheheheh n i hav to take 7 papers.. waaaa.... n i'm a bit lazy dis time... i dont know y.. hermmm... mayb coz i'm staying in house?? coz b4.. i lived in hall.. n there was ade suasane study from others... ehehheh.. when i ask d others.. ade yg 3 papers only.. 5 papers.. n mine is paling byk papers.. waaaa uhuhuuuhhuuh.. i think i can put more effort on subj other than maths.. coz my strong point is from maths.. but guess wut?? maths dis sem is sooooooooooooooo hard.. plus we dont hav maths next sem... waaaaaaaaaaa how i;m going to survive????? uhuhuhuhuhuh ermmm... wut to do??? put those things aside.. eheheheh ahaa.. these a few days.. i build a habit.. waking late in d morning...waarrgghhhhh!!! i really hate dis.. coz i'm a morning person.. once i wake up.. i wont sleep after dat.. so i dont sleep in d evening.. n i like to study at nite.. so i'll sleep late... but wake up so alte in d morning.. waa.... i really hate it.... hmm.. mayb coz i didnt turn on d alarm.. n also i change my sleep position(it's one of my habit.. eheheh i really like change any position in my room..including my sleep position..:p) coz my alarm is really near to my next dooor's bed.. juz a wall between them.. so i think it's really annoying if i dont turn it off on time.. ehehhehe hm... y? coz i dont like to bother d others for such things as alarm.. loud music.. n things like dat.. coz i expect d same things from them.. it's natural like dat, isn't it?? ehehehehhe

one thing is always on my mind in these a few days.. i like to experience something.. ermmm like when i was in form 4 or 5(high school) i was wondering how is it to be a college stud or univ.. something like dat.. ermm now i already experienced high school.. college.. univ.. so i'm wondering bout d feeling being an employee??? ermmm i havnt think how i wanna be.. ermm i mean.. i'm engineering stud.. particular in mechatronic engineering.. i can go to electronic field.. or mechanical.. or i can be a lecturer.. bout dat part i havnt decide yet.. coz i think i'm suitable to be office-gal.. i know bout it.. coz my bro's working wit proton.. ermm but i like doing calculation n practical works.. so it's more to laboratory or industrial thingy.. ermm but d other hand.. my parents really want me to take lacturer at d end... hmmm.. hah!! mayb i'll juz do wut i can or wut i hav to do.. n think bout those thing when d time comes.. ehehhehe..

wokeh la.. i think i can study a bit more after dis.. take a rest.. watch anime a few episodes.. then sleep.. ehehehe dat's my routine.. mata neh.. ja ne