Uselessness

Assalamualaikum wrt..

There's a story about a child that has been abondoned by his parents because of of his sickness. It's said that he will die in a few days. So as not afraid to his own death he's going on a journey, then he hears a story about a guy that dare to kill just for money. So, the child looks for the guy because he never believes that there's that kind of human who is will coldly kill others just for sake of money. Then he meet that guy. At first, that guy wants to kill the child but the child just doesnt fear him, even he cares for that evil guy. So, with full of curiosity and cant-believe feeling the evil guy seems cant bring himself to kill that child. The child gives the evil guy food and warmness till one day the child almost dies. The cold-hearted guy just dont know what to do, but just wishes and prays so that the poor child can live longer, and his pray is heard then the child lives.

But still, the evil guy cant believe himself, he never pray before but at the moment he couldnt do anything but prayed. The poor child believe that the evil guy saved him so he says to the evil guy that he will follow that guy everywhere and will do anything that that guy asks him to do. Then the evil guy doesnt say anything but just let the child does whatever he wants. So they go on a journey. One day, they arrive at the evil guy's friend's house. The evil guy's friend is not such a bad guy, but in a way an accomplice. His friend is very shock to the fact that the evil guy saved the child's life(well, in a way laa hmm not exactly saved the child but lets leave it like that). So, the evil guy's friend asks the evil guy what he intends to do with the child because the child will only slow down his journey and is actually a hindrance to his making-money-while-travel life. The evil guy cant answer that question because he also amazes at himself that he's willing to take care of that child this far. The child overheard the conversation and feel depresses because he thought that he has some kind of usefulness toward the evil guy. Then after a little thinking, the child decides to go steal a diamond to prove that he can be somewhat useful to his savior.

Then, i dont want to continue.. well the story after that is not important. What i'm trying to say, people need to be useful. We, human cant live without being useful for others. Not that i say we have to depend on others to live but we needs others to live. Someone came to me and said that they are useless. At that moment, i cant say anything. Why? Because i cant be any use to them. I cant get it out of my head, and i started crying. It's just like you have a cat and everyday live happily with the cat. But one day the cat stop looking at you and then starts distance itself from you. You still can live after that but you will feel useless toward the cat. "oh! The cat still can live without me. I'm the one who cant be happy without it. Why didnt i cherish it sooner? Why didnt i become useful toward it? I wish i realize this sooner' yeah! that kind of thought will flying all over you.

Haha what kind of entry is this? well i just to get rid of this uneasiness. Human are such fragile creature, right?

wassalam