Something around you~

Assalamualaikum wrt..

Just now i suddenly have an urge to open my friendster page, and i did. With the song 'Sunnah orang berjuang' from Hijjaz, i checked my sibling's friendster. To say that i'm immune to the reality in Malaysia, that's not even close and i'm grateful for that. Because if i'm really immune to the reality then the ghazwul fikr is successful.

While looking at the pictures, i compared my life with theirs. Yup! I'm not being fair. But it makes me think back why i'm doing this. If i live my life like theirs, then i can be 'happy' like them. Urghhh!! Suddenly i dont have 'the heart' to write about this. It's not that i dont want to. But i dont ppl to think that i'm just stating a list of excuses to why i became like this. Yesterday, my friends said something like their friends feel like they're being used. In my inner-self, i dont know why, but i pity them. Why? Well, at first before i knew this path, i befriended with everyone regardless of what intention i or they have. Be because of study, or because of i was in the same class before or whatever. And after i'm in this path, i see everything as what Allah wants me to do. So, to my friends before, i just cant switch my intention just like that. And i'm supposed to do that, but i'm not. Yup! I'm being disobedient to the extent that i cant say anything to my usrati. =((

Well, i have to go now. I'm having usrah perdana, held by MCOT at McDougle. Please pray that Allah always with us, inchaAllah.

wslm wrt