Numb - Linkin park

"Numb"

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

somehow.. other ppl might say that this kind of song is useless.. not kind of music u should hear.. well some part of it, i agree.. but what make me interested in this song is the music video.. try watch it.. when someone with faithless, this is how u'll become.. dont know where to turn to.. dont know where to hang on.. thus looking for something that u might regret later..

sometimes i also feel like that girl in the video.. feel out of place.. feel like nothing goes right.. but that kind of stand, i cant let it become one with me.. thus i throw it away and try to strengthen myself.. n thats one of the reasons why i choose this kind of life.. when i gain -1, i'll try to counter it with +1.. n i know that my number is far from zero and the -ve number is getting bigger..

A: why r u doing this?
me: well i have my own reasons..
A: to save the world?
me: .....
A: or just to save urself...?

wassalam