jambu n nescafe ais.

Satu minuman xleh tinggal selain teh o ais, adalah nescafe ais.

hasrat hati nk membasmi lemak cam susah je. ahahha so dlm kol 215 turun g ajidon, niat nk g beli jambu (utk thn lapar xmo mkn) n nescafe ais (utk thn ngantok sbb kije bertimbun)
lalu depan 7e yg ade sorg budak tu terlebih frenly sampaikan kecoh satu 7e tu kalo kitorg borak dlm tu.

heh heh.

then sampai kat depan kedai mann yg jual masakan kampung. sedap tp xlalu mkn for various reasons. ahahaa dont ask~!
mate tertgk this one guy yg ngah mkn sorg. n at the same time dier pon looking at me.

hmmm first impression, "nape dier wat rambut dier cam tu ek? ahahha sbb that guy bdn besar, wearing white shirt, have 'clean' face tp rambut mcm 'ali' =))

then, terus pndg tmpt lain. coz anyone yg pnah lepak ajidon mmg tahu ar. guys kat area tu mmg perasan. :)) (in my opinion la:P) then saw a football match maybe siaran ulangan, seville lawan something.

ahhaha not sure. terus g tmpt jambu, "nak jambu 2 hengget" terus order sdgkan akak tu ngah makan nasik. tersengih2 jap. :P pastu g kat tmpt air, tunggu dier masukkan duit dlm plastik, jap lg nk bank kot. "nak order, nak nescafe ais bungkus ek."

the air guy tu angkat kepale dier then, "nescafe ais ek." pastu g kat jambu lak. uisshh dier baru nk cedok jambu tu.
jeling-jeling kat tmpt air tu, dah nk siap, ngah bungkus so g byr kat air dulu. hulur rm1.80 tepat2 n laki air td sambut. siap urusan beli air, g kat jambu lak, still x siap lg. tunggu kejap then siap, hulur 2 hengget n done.

mase nk kembali ke opis, ade one girl nih ngadap tv n mkn sorg. wearing quite modern n sexy attire. plus quite a beauty and she is the reason why i have this urge to write this entry.

haha.

bcoz nmpk mcm moden n 'high class' tp dier mkn nasik gune tgn n agak canggung. :P tp x same kan sexy |= high class. dier nmpk lembut tp agak pelik mkn nasik gune tgn. mebi dier baru nk try-try idop ngan mkn nasik gune tgn.

as for a certain reason (some of us know) 2 3 hari ni asik dgr lagu hidup ini memang susah by yassin. quite unique but nope bkn nk ckp psl ni.

haha.

some of us kate kite kene tgk hidop ngan optimis but how optimis we can be.

if la kan.
remember this is an if~!

kite dimasukkan dalam satu hospital and the hospital bed yg kite dpt tu is the last one. then the doctor said that we have no hope (penyakit kronik la. nauzubillah) then xlame lepas tu there's one small girl, about 9-10 yrs old kene masuk hospital but no bed for her.

r u willing to give up ur bed to her? upon hearing that u have no hope?

dont answer, dont think coz first thing that pops up in our mind is our stand.

xpercaye?

makin kite pk, makin kurg kepercayaan kite terhdp decision kite tu.

xpercaye?

cnth la kan kite decide nk give up the bed coz we have already give up on the hope to survive, then after some thinking kite decide xnk give up. n believe me kite akan pk about that girl for a longest time.

kite bulih pupuk (wow!) stand kite. how to do it, depends on us. no one can do it for us.
for the giving up issue, well, for me we can be optimistic but for certain extend. blaja sume ni dalam kelas sebenarnye n rasenye i cant graduate that class with my current way of thinking.

haha.
no joke.

k lah. back to work. got a warning from rogue actually. but stuck!

what i feel rite now..

Untitled - (how could this happen to me) - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
WHY in here tonight
And I can’t STAND the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t STAND the pain


*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Bad day...

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on

Stand in the line just ahead of the law
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day

The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on
You had a bad day

You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day

The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out
Wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well oh that
Strong
Well I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day

The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

ruin..

"how come i never saw you drawing before?" her question breaks the silence. At the same time my hand stops for a few seconds before continues stroking the plain canvas.

"it just i never draw in front of you" i reply, calmly.

"nope, you hid it from me" sound harsh but very confident on her side. I look at her for a moment and she looks serious. I continue what i've been doing.

"does it look like that?" i'm not avoiding her question, but i just don't want to answer it.

"it looks like i know you, but at the same time i think i dont know you," her statement really throw me off sometimes.

"that sounds complicated but i think i'm a simple person. aahahahhaa," i cant let her in further more than this. She knows something.

"come one, tell me. Tell me what you've been kept to yourself. i know something is going on." i cant despise her pushy attitude. I gave her a smile.

"u wont get away from this. you know what i'm talking about." i look into her eyes.

'can i trust this person? will she turn her back from me like those people in the past? i hid it pretty well in the past, but in the same time i know that sooner or later something bounds to happen, someone will found out about it'

3 hours fun vs 2 days pain

salam..
aduss aduss.. badan still sakit lagi sbenarnye.. tp best~! akun nisah plan, kalo xdek plan lain mmg nk jadikan aktiviti tersebut sebagai aktiviti mingguan.. ahahhahaa my mom siap gelak lagi bile aku cite psl sakit badan ni n punca-puncanye.. :P

rugi rasenye x snap gmbr ari tu.. :p

sbenarnye aku nk dedicate satu entry untuk badminton ari tu.. ahahhahaa tp ari ni.. aku terbace satu blog nih yg menyebabkan aku xdek selera nk cite psl badminton tu... isk.. kaler ijau coklat.. kuning sume kuar.. :-< tahan je la..

penyebab aku x selera tu adalah psl blogger2 politik yg dok bertekak kat komen blog2 penyokong fanatik politik... haishh..
"xyah la amik port psl diorg"
- kekdg sedih gak tgk diorg cenggini.. ade yg cite psl ayah halau anak kuar umah sbb berlainan parti politik.. pelik kan? sampai cenggitu skali.. penat isteri dier dok ngandungkan anak tu lebih 9 bulan.. pastu bg mkn sampai umur agak2 20 thn.. last2 sbb parti politik nye psl, halau mcm tu je.. [-(

oklaa.. xmo ckp dah.. sakit kepale jd nye.. :P

k lah.. syaa ade dok lalu-lalu kat blakang.. ciaos..

maaf..

salam semua..

maaf psl kejadian semlm.. hakhakhak.. emo lak.. biase la.. yela, dah kejap org kate aku xdek gaye kelantan langsung.. sekjap kate xsuke kelantanese.. pastu kejap repot psl kelantan.. kejap kutuk kelantan.. kejap kate kelantan best.. aku pon dah pening.. tu yg meletup semlm tuh.. harharhar..

ape2 pon.. aku sedar mane aku asal.. org kutuk kelantan, aku sakit.. org puji kelantan, aku anggap tu unik je.. hehe
sori ek sume.. mmg blog tmpt aku emo.. :P

tq sume..

hati aku geram..

salam..

dlm sekelip mate mood aku berubah.. bg org lain mmg la bende tu xdek mende.. tp dah mmg bende tu ditujukan kat kelantaneses and i'm one of them.. *sigh*

aku ngah kusyuk wat keje.. kekdg ade gak layan sifooDotCom.. tertibe si pakcik anarm bg link nih..

http://justkhai.com/blog/budak-kelantan-boleh-jalan-la/

xsuruh bace n x larang kalo nk bace.. sile kan.. its just ayat dier wat aku sakit ati.. mmg la ayat2 dier x ditujukan pd 100% kelantanese n maybe it's just i read it too deep.. but

"...ramai juga rakyat Kelantan yang berjaya di Kelantan dan tetap berjaya di luar Kelantan. Itu kerana mentaliti mereka bukan sekadar di bawah tempurung Kelantan sahaja. Yang lainnya, masalah mereka cuma satu. Semangat ke’negerian yang melampau-lampau. Kalau dah jumpa kawan senegeri,..."

what the??? boleh x treat kitorg mcm any other states.. aku xdek ar sokong bende yg jd yg mmg digembar gemburkan sedasat2 nye kat blog tu or any news.. mmg aku pon x suke bende2 ganas mcm tu.. tp you dont have the right to label us like that.. i wont say it's not fair but pls ar.. bilang dose sendiri dulu sebelom dok kire dose org lain.. aku xnak defend org2 yg bakar kete polis tu.. aku xnk defend mat2 n minah2 maksiat yg berlambak kat luar sane.. sbb aku rase same je.. mat n minah kelate ke.. mat n minah n 9 ke.. kl ke.. sume same..

tapi korg x prasan ke.. bile tau seseorg tu asal negeri klate.. terus persepsi berubah.. knape? knape perlu ubah persepsi? sbb pernah blaku sbelom ni? dah tu x pk perasaan org klate tu? nak suh kitorg terime hakikat? hello~!!!!! dah awal2 dah bunuh mindset n persepsi diri pastu suh kitorg berubah n suh kitorg terime hakikat?

isk emo sungguh aku.. knape aku emo? sbelom ni aku xdek ar nk ngaku kuat klate mcm bosz.. (bkn nk naikkan name bosz ek) tp at least aku sedar aku asal mane.. aku sedar ape mknn peberet aku.. bile dgr a group of kelantanese ckp klate pahtu kate semangat kenegerian kuat? hello~! sbenarnye sbb ko x phm la ko kate kuat semangat kenegerian.. cet

huh.. boss suh wat keje baru.. hukhuk tension~!!!

sabo.. sabo..

Teka-teki..

salam..

ahahaha.. boring2 ni..nk bg a few teka tekis that i found in a web.. forgot already.. ahahahh

1. pokoknya di atas bukit daunnya di dlm air. Apakah dia?

2. Amin dan Aminah mendapat anak. Kenapa mereka menamakan anak mereka Afifah ?

3. buah apa yg kita langkah dulu sebelum makan ?

4. lepas satu hilang, satu lagi hilang. Akhirnya tinggal ibu yg malang. Apakah itu?

5. andaikan anda seorang konduktor bas. Bas itu pergi ke satu stesen, 5 org diambil. Di stesen kedua, 2 org turun dan 7 org naik.di stesen ketiga, 3 org turun dan 8 org naik. Soalannya, berapakah umur konduktor bas itu ?

ahahahahaa.. jwb jgn x jwb.. :P
gudluck~!

..lets get stronger..

BBQ..

kredit to katak.... n k nis (kat blog k nis yg aku jumpe gmbr nih.. tp katak yg design harharhar)

..new layout..

salam..

harharhar.. a new layout.. hehe :P saje tukar new layout.. puncanye? kat opis ade kene maintain a few client blogs.. gune blogspot gak.. so dpt tau ade certain bende baru.. ahahha i like it.. so i decide to use the ready-made template..

hope u enjoy ur stay.. n hehe peace!

I dont wanna cry - Mariah Carey

Once again we sit in silence
After all is said and done
Only emptiness inside us
Baby, look what we've become
We can make a million promises
But we still won't change
It isn't right to stay together
When you only bring each other pain

[Chorus]
I don't wanna cry
Don't wanna cry
Nothing in the world
Could take us back
To where we used to be
Though I've give you my heart and soul
I must find a way of letting go
'Cause baby, I don't wanna cry

Too far apart to
Bridge the distance
But something keeps us
Hanging on and on
Pretending not to know the difference
Denying what we had is gone
Every moment we're together
It's just breaking me down
I know we swore it was forever
But it hurts too much
To stay around

[Chorus]

All the magic's gone
There's just a shadow
Of a memory
Something just went wrong
We can't go on make-believing

[Chorus]

it happens again..

hahahaa.. so it happens again. Baka dana omaiwa~! I trusted that person.. but this is what i get? mayb i'm not worthy of that person.. yup that's it.. if not, why i get treated like this?

jika x menjwb, dikatekan sombong..
jika menjwb, dikatekan kerek..
jika senyap, dikatekan menjauhkan diri..
jika berkata2, ade saja yg x kena..

i'm tired of this.. jahat kan? ye, i'm the evil one.. yup, i'm the devil here.. all the wrong things are because of me.. it was 100% my fault.. so i'm sorry.. but what is it? what is my fault? my rudeness? what? where? when?

huh.. sori mmg emo..

tidak berckp bkn bererti mengaku salah.. tidak meminta maaf bkn bererti kerek.. tidak sensitif bkn bererti aku salah~!..

jika ditipu sekali.. bererti aku yg malang, tp jika ia berlaku 2 kali.. ia bererti aku yg bodoh.. TT-TT hidup aku dah mcm robot.. perasaan dah makin hilang.. tiada teman berkongsi rahsie.. tiada teman mengadu duka.. i dont care whatever ppl thought abt me.. bcoz i'm tired of it.. i care about ppl, but in the end..

manusia belajar dari kesilapan.. disbbkan itulah i'm what i am now..

i hate being alone..

this is not just from my experiences.. things that i thought i will do also included.. ahhahahaaa.. such immature thing rite? :P

i hate being alone, coz when i'm alone i will eat unhealthy food, like instant noodle, keropok, too-much-msg potato chips etc etc.. it is not that i'm too lazy to cook but i think if i cook, it's not worth it if i'm to eat alone.. well, there's an option to buy a properly cooked meal from any kedai makan or restaurant, but well, either way.. i will eat alone.. dont pity me, coz this is my nature.. i've been like this for almost 2 years.. (well, something happened at that time)

i hate being alone, coz when i'm alone i wont do beneficial stuff, like improving my 3d drawing skill, or improving my programming skill or even improving my english.. huh*sigh* well those are the things that i've planned for half a year now.. but when i'm alone, those things seem like too far away... huhu to the point that i hate myself being like that.. huh..

i hate being alone, coz when i'm alone i miss someone.. altho i miss that person, i wont get in touch with that person.. i dont know why.. then, i fill in the void in my heart with browsing the forums or looking for someone to chat.. huh.. pitiful, rite? yup, i dont have a everyone-wants-to-b-like-me life.. ahahhahahaa

i write all this stuff, not to gain ur pity.. but bcoz i just realize something.. but by the time i realized that, it's already gone, like a flying bird.. i can only look and regret it while it's already far from my reach.. what can i do? i already did my best, but maybe my best doesnt reach someone's heart..

.:sorry coz havnt update my blog..xcukup jari tangan:.

tag.. tagging.. tagged..

salam..
:-< kene tag ngan katak n anarm la plak.. setelah berhari2 dah diorg tag nih.. baru lah aku nk wat ahahahhaa.. sowi la ekk.. playlist yg aku letak ni ikut mood.. skrg ngah ngantuk n nk wat keje.. xmo tensyen and kiri kanan depan blakang agak kelam sikit.. cuace kat luar lak mendung ala-ala guruh gitu.. so terhasillah playlist yg main pakat letak jek.. ahahahhaa aci kan?

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Once completed, tag 5 other people (including me!)

DON’T CHEAT!

Opening Credits:
seribu tahun - imran ajmain (wahh ade berazam nk idop seribu thn =p~)

Waking Up:
silly lily - bunkface (cess..)

First Day At School:
1,2,3,4 - plain white t's (btol3x... g sekolah kene blaja mengire)

Puppy Love:
sober - pink(erkk furst menonggeng)

Fight Song:
1000 miles - venessa carlton(yeah~! perjlnan masih jauh)

Breaking Up:
mengapa - nicky astria(setiap perpisahan itu ade reason nye :-")

Prom:
semangat yg hilang - xpdc (wahh kembalikan semangatku~!)

Life is Good:
ikenai taiyou - orange range(yup~! life is good eventho u're my ikenai taiyou :">)

Driving:
kalis rindu - elyana (kalis peluru abes sampai drift pon abes rosak pintu kete.. :-< duit lg)

Flashback:
i will survive - gloria gaynor(yup~! :->)

True Love:
somewhere only we know - keane (=p~ sape ek?)

Wedding:
time is running out - muse(erk.. no comment)

Moment of Triumph:
inconsolable - backstreet boys(....)

Death Scene:
my immortal - evanescence(erkk.. opsss.. setiap manusia akana mati akhirnye..;;))

Funeral Song:
cinta tiga segi - hazwan(erk.. dah la pencipte lagu pon had already embraced by death)

End Credits:
when you're gone (...hehe..)

tag 5 person:
-katak
-anarm
-akira
-ichidakuchiki
-mclelun

friends actually let friends do lots of stupid things.
-ye ke? ahahahahhaaa agak la jugak.. :P

boys vs girls

through a day, i listened to radio fly fm.. well, not thru streaming (my opismates hate streaming but.. :p) d songs in fly fm are really suited me well.. because there are old but evergreen songs and also new songs..

for the evening topic, they chose something that i really rarely thought that a guy would do.. that is, a high heel race(game).. ahahhahaa.. there are 2 dj, a guy and a girl (i didnt take note about their names ahahhaa) the girl complained about everyday is a hard day because of high heel but still wearing it everyday..

so, that guy said that why women always do things that they will complain about them later on.. the so-called arguement go on then it is decided that the guy will wear high heel to go to the studio 2morrow.. ahhahahhahaa

ahahahha :P

Jack and Fiza~! versi gambar..

sakit di hati siapa tahu?

salam..

aku lembap ke wat keje? aku tangguh ke wat keje? aku dok main2 ke? mmg la org len ptt amik tau psl keje org lain.. tp xyah ar pressure mcm tu skali.. it wont hurt to have a little empathy..

aku, kalo tulih entry mmg time aku emo jek.. sbb time tu la aku ade bende nk tulih.. psl bende2 hepi? sbb org len dah tulih.. g yumcha ke picnic ke.. dlm blog org len dah ade.. n describe mmg detail so bg aku cite dier tulih tuh mmg dah menggmbrkan perasaan org yg berade di tmpt kejadian.. huh! asal tukar topik nih?? yg skrg ni aku bengang giler!!! sakit hati sume ade.. sampaikan sume idea dah jammed kat dlm kepale otak..

dlm hati dah abes maki hamun.. betape lemah nye iman.. nasib baik x kuar kat mulut jek.. aku xtau org lain.. tp kalo aku kosentret btol2.. bulih sampai thp aku xsedar aku kurg bernafas.. sampai sakit keliling kapale n ubun2.. xtau la kalo ade org len pressure dier psl keje ke ape.. n bukn skali2 nk kate jgn pressure aku.. kekdg pressure tu mmg bagus.. baik bla bla bla.. tp sampaikan aku nk rehat kejap pon siap lontarkan warning kat aku..

huh! tension nye aku!!! tau la keje ko wat tu ko dah prektis berthn2.. aku nih baru 7 bln dok familiar ngan keje nih.. n i'm trying my hardest to get this job done, as my career life depends on it.. aku dah lemah kaki tgn nk lepaskan sakit hati ni kat ne.. sori la terpkse bace bende2 ngarut nih.. kesimpulannye aku mmg sakit hati.. td lepas solat asar td lega sket.. termenung aku kejap.*sigh*

wslm~!

Jack and Fiza~!

salam..

yup couple baru.. hasil org tgh migha n anys ahaks.. tp aku lupe lak bwk gmbr diorg.. ari tu kitorg tngkap gmbr diorg.. diorg excited giler.. migha n anys, pls remind me about i need to bring the phone cable to d office.. ahahaaa baru terigt smlm sbenarnye..

k lah.. tu je.. ahahaa bkn ape.. nk suh igt gak.. 2 3 hari ni slalu lupe bende.. nntkan yek gmbr2 kontroversi ituew~!

adios~!

berikanlah aku kekuatan..

kenapa cara fikir aku berbeza dgn org lain? kenapa apa yang aku mahu berbeza dari org lain? kenapa mereka ingin menekan perasaan mereka ke atas aku walau aku tidak mahu? kenapa perasaan memberontak ini tidak boleh diluahkan kepada mereka? kenapa mereka tidak memahami aku? kenapa harus aku yang terseksa? kenapa keluhan ini masih tidak difahami? kenapa mereka berpaling dari aku setelah memerangkap aku dgn jaring ugutan dan tanggungjawab? kenapa..

aku sudah tidak mampu melawan lagi.. sama seperti setelah berlari 10 kilometer.. terkulai layu.. bukan fizikal badan tapi mental dan emosi.. aku sudah penat lari.. lari dari masalah, itu bukan penyelesaian yang sebenar.. aku mahukan kekuatan, aku mahu menghadapi masalah ini tapi dinding ini terlalu tinggi untuk ku tempuhi.. gunung ini terlalu melangit untuk ku daki.. bolehkah aku punya perasaan sebegini? adakah aku dibenarkan menfizikalkan kehendak aku? atau adakah aku bebas untuk punya kehendak sendiri?

..aku sudah tidak tahu.. aku sudah tidak mampu membezakan ape itu kehendak ataupun apa itu keperluan.. kerana aku sudah terpenjara, tangan aku diikat, kaki aku sudah dikunci.. sekeliling aku hanya ada dinding konkrit yang aku tidak tahu adakah aku dibenarkan untuk memanjatnya?

apakah yang manusia lain lakukan di luar sana? jika mereka tempuhi halangan yang sama sepertiku, apakah yang mereka lakukan? adakah mereka berjaya? ataupun akhirnya mereka terkulai layu disertakan dgn rantai besi kerana percubaan untuk melepaskan diri..