Christmas eve..

Salamz... uhuhuhuhuuh.. 2night is christmas nite.. juz watchd harry potter d first movie juz now.. ehehehhe but now feel sooooooooooooo sleeeeeeeeeeeppppy... pdhal dis morning i slept longer than usual.. ehhehe ah.. cant let myself be like dis.. uhuhuhuu i dont like when my daily thing like my eating schedule.. sleep schedule.. things like dat.. get 'terabur'<--dont know wut word in english.. ehehehhe but now feel like wanna write somethin n definitely not 'ilmiah' thing.. eheheh ape..rilek2.. last nite my mom called.. exactly i called her coz usually she's d one who calls..so dis time i called her first.. we talk many things as usual.. but then there's something dat not in our usual conversation.. they (my mom n dad) talk bout couple.. eheheheh mayb they suspect i hav bf or something like dat.. ermmm i dont know they object bout dis or not.. coz wit both of my bros.. they object my bros couple.. but when talk bout couple wit me.. seems like a bit different.. ermm x kan la kan.. ermm acteli i dont like couple.. it's not i object it.. but it seems dat there's other way.. ok after dis.. wutever i say(i mean write) here..is my own opinion.. it's not dat dont like d ppl who do dat k.. juz personal opinion.. no offend k..eheheheh :D i acteli dont like couple.. coz b4.. i thout couple is juz being wit d one we love.. rite? well.. it's basically rite.. but when they do or did all sorts of thing dat i really cant stand..ermm like holding hand.. n stuffs like dat...n i know it's 'normally' exceed dat limit.. i juz cannot 'like' couple... u know wut i mean.. well.. b4 i really dont mind.. i thout ppl wont go overboard bout dis.. but..(i really dont wanna say dis.. but..) well.. i believe ppl always think wut's d best for them.. n wont do anything dat will destroy themselves.. ppl called it crazy when they do.. but when emotion involved..(i think ppl called it emotion but i think it's juz lust<--i know it's juz bad of me..) ppl seems dat cant think well n do somthing dat they think will benefit them.. i know n mayb ppl will say dat i'm tooooo simple-minded.. well i take dat as compliment.. but wut i think is.. y do ppl let lust or so-called emotion control their mind? we juz need to think wisely.. we only hav one life.. n dats wut we're going to present to our Lord.. n dats life we need to carry on altho we alone..kite cacat ke.. our parents dead(na'uzubillah).. we're being captured.. we cant start our life over.. we juz need to continue.. juz y ppl always dont care wut happen to our dis only one life??? dis life.. we wont get any 2nd chance.. cam satu ayat yg always in my mind these afew days.. it's not sekadar yg kite mampu.. tp sehabis yg kite mampu.. heih..*sigh*..

one thing dat on my mind.. we're on our journey.. sometimes we forgot wut's our really objective.. ermm juz like.. when we go to city centre.. eheheheh it's alwys happens to girlz.. we acteli wanna buy ermm mayb stationery.. then we go to arndale.. ehehehe then.. along d way.. we may go to kedai kasut la.. then mayb go to arndale market la.. (if ade bujet la..:p) in d end sometimes.. we get to buy those stationery we need but also bought other thing.. but sometimes we forgot wut we're supposd to buy.. then.. bile sampai bilek ke.. kite tepuk kepla... "alaaaaa..... lupe nk beli tuuuutt...tuuuutt..."i believe some ppl may look at this matter as 'remeh jek..' tp acteli.. it's applied to our whole life.. huh.. i'm not juz say to others.. but also to me.. i always remind myself.. we acteli alone in dis world.. wut i mean is wut ever we do.. we gain pahale or dose for ourselves.. not for others except for a few things.. so wutever we do.. we hav to decide ourselves n receive any consequences..meaning being responsible toour action.. no one will cover it for us.. n only God wit us.. so juz believe in urself n God.. T-T when i talk bout dis.. i feel like i'm being selfish(sad n hurt).. see ya..