brighter day..

one day..
walking through another hard day
every step i take
heavier as ever

i look up to the sky
it is such a dark day..
i lose all the energy
to take another step forward..

u reach out ur hand
u smile for me
u wait till i stand up

suddenly
my legs feel lighter
the sky look so blue

it is just another bright day..

I Only Ask of God - Outlandish

kite baik ke jahat?

Assalamualaikum wrt..

i juz got back from leamington 5 juz now.. while on my way back.. i'm thinking bout wut ain said to me.. huhu i joined k jah n am's circle.. it's not my circle.. so ain said i'm a good person..(ermm kalo tulih dlm bashe inggeris.. hilang feel dier.. dier kate "waa.. baiknye sheila.." something like that..) it's not that i want to justify everything i did or do.. it's juz every single step that u take.. u hav reasons for it rite? i feel i'm not good enuf.. i feel that i really need to be reminded all the time.. that's y i choose to stay wit someone next yr.. but when someone said that sentence to me.. sometimes tergugat gak la.. our real intention will mixed up.. n sometimes will lost our way.. huhu i dont want that.. so plz dont praise me.. i dont deserve that.. i dont need that..

y ppl praise others? coz they only want to express their feelings clearly to others? or juz sbb nk amik hati org tu? sejauh manekah keikhlasan hati kite? same tinggikah keikhlasan hati kite spt Bilal yg suaranye dpt dinikmati oleh malaikat2? huhu..

"ketahuilah pada setiap jasad itu seketul daging. Andainya ia baik, baiklah seluruh jasad itu dan sekiranya ia rosak maka rosaklah seluruh jasad itu. Itulah hati"

wassalam

masa makin berkurang, kerja makin bertambah

assalamualaikum wrt..

i'm making 2 posts today..

i read an article in Berita Harian juz now..u can read it ere n this is only my opinion.. no influence from other source or any party..
"Sebenarnya, jihad mempertahankan negara boleh dilihat dalam pelbagai sudut. Setiap Muslim boleh digelar pejuang asalkan melakukan sesuatu usaha untuk kebaikan negara. Sesuatu yang dilakukan dengan satu semangat yang kental dan ikhlas adalah satu jihad."

In the article, it said that we 'wajib' defending our country.. it makes me think.. who put us in that situation? i mean other than Allah SWT, who else can say we 'wajib' or 'haram' or 'harus' etc etc.. siape kite nk menjatuhkan hukum ke atas sesuatu.. i know ade berbagai care nk menjatuhkan hukum.. cam ijma' ulamak.. gune maqasid n stuff.. tp cube bygkan we live in US (i mean as US citizens) so kite wajib la memperthnkan US? altho they send their army to palestine? altho they help Israel? *sigh*
ade juge hukum hakam yg ditentukan oleh pemerintah.. tp kalo pemerintah yg x berlandaskan hukum yg Allah tetapkan? perlukah kite? saye tau saye jahil tp i'm learning n i'm responding..
wut i cant agree with the author is dier kate untuk kebaikan negare.. kalo lah dier berani nk mengishtiharkan negare yg wajib diperthnkan tu negare Islam.. iA anytime i'll be willing to go to jihad.. n as the author said jihad x semestinye berperang.. huh tertibe saye rase sgt emotional.. yup i'm very emotional in this matter.. coz ni lah lembah ternakan saye.. padang tanaman saye.. ni lah saham saye.. kalo saye salah.. i'm willing to take any comment/correction or anything.. but something has to be done..

hehe wokeh la.. got work to do.. wassalam

merengek saje~

Assalamualaikum wrt..

hehe.. dlm previous entry.. nmpk kan saye bengang giler.. hehe x dek ape2 tu.. saye dah ok dah.. sometimes bile saye x rase marah i tell myself to suppress my anger kalo saye marah.. kan kite tau marah tu adalah salah satu care syaitan nk membisik dlm hati kite.. syaitan tunggu peluang nk bisik kat hati kite.. so i always tell myself.. i should be composed n calm down.. tp bile saye dlm keadaan marah or bengang.. i forget all that.. it's juz i know but i cant.. huhu.. ni la bukti lemahnye kite as manusia kan.. hati kite.. kite x semestinye dpt control..

last nite yana came to our house.. yana selalu gak ar bace blog saye.. so dier tau ar psl entry yg saye tgh marah2 tu.. yana xtau org umah ni x bace blog saye.. pastue mase tgh borak2 tu terkantoi ar.. ape lagi.. lepas tu k asyif bace ar (dier jumpe blog saye dr yana nye blog..cehh) pastue k mum lak bace.. (pengaruh k asyif) pastue k zai.. ermm lepas tu sume org tau!!! waaaaaaaa... saye tulih sume tu sbb saye tau org umah ni mmg x bace blog.. waaaa huhuhuhuhuuu.. i didnt mean that.. ye la... mmg la saye yg tulih tp saye kan dlm keadaan marah.. the next day lepas saye marah tu saye dah ok balik dah.. bile saye pk balik saye rase nyesal la.. but at that time i didnt know wut to do.. i didnt know how to calm down.. i'm not sure whether this is hadith or not.. yg kate kalo kamu berdiri ketike tgh marah, make duduk lah.. n so on.. so dah byk kali saye duduk.. siap tido lagi bile duduk x berjaye.. i took a shower.. i pray.. (ermm mayb doa saye x termakbul mase tu :((..)

saye xtau ape org lain pk mase bace blog saye tu.. but i believe ppl around me know me better.. hehe nway thnx to every1.. my housemates yg bace blog saye tu.. gave me hugz.. comfort me n stuffs tp mase tu saye dah ok.. dah terlebih ok dah.. hehe nway jzkk

well this is juz curahan hati saye yg x seberape nie.. saye xdek la baik sgt.. saye x dek la best pon dibawak berkwn.. so terime lah saye seade nye.. iA saye akan terime org lain seadenye..

wassalam

sometimes wut u give, u wont get it back~

assalamualaikum wrt..

wut will i write below is juz for my satisfaction n tidak ditujukan kpd mane2 pihak.. so dont misunderstand or making assumption..
saye penat.. balik ke rumah to get some rest.. mase mule2 masuk umah rase best coz my stuff arrived earlier... so i took my stuff n went upstairs to my room.. waaa cant wait to reach my sweet room.. i reached at my door.. the door was opened.. i had a bad feeling bout that.. so i opened my room.. i was speechless.. this is not how i left my room 2 days ago.. ade a few selimut on my bed.. a few pillows that r not supposed to be there.. alas carpet dilipat pdhal septtnye terbentang kat atas carpet.. ade a few sampah n carpet kotor.. perfume bilek x dipasang.. tingkap tak dibukak.. heater terpasang.. my cd jatuh.. ade org gune shampoo (kitorg stuju x share) n byk lagi kalo saye nk buat list.. bukn saye saje nk carik salah tp nie lah dugaan.. Allah akan duga kite ngan apa yg paling kite care.. all the stuff tu ok lagi.. tp bile saye tgk comp saye switched off~ saye dah sampai x leh layan k zai.. biasenye saye akan berborak biase tp saye senyap jek.. i cant say any words coz it will explodes me.. boleh kalo nk gune bilek saye.. tp tinggalkan brg saye yg digunekan tu dlm keadaan asal.. bile saye switched on balik my comp.. there's something wrong wit my comp.. lagi la saye (.....) internet connection teruk giler.. n i hav to restarted my comp TWICE!!..
pokok2 kat bilek saye layu.. sbb x bukak tingkap n sbb bukak heater.. bile saye g toilet.. ade alas kaki yg tgh dijemur tp heater x bukak lak.. tingkap x bukak lak.. camne nk kering kalo cam tu..

i took a shower to cool my head down.. n when k asyif opened the door without knocked it first, i juz blew up! sorry k asyif.. kalo saye ckp ngan sesape skrg nie saye akan tension..

i'll pray after this.. i dont hav anyone but Allah~

What is rest-time?

Assalamualaikum wrt..

Setelah sekian lame.. barulah dapat update blog.. hehehe~ well it's not that i dont hav any to write about.. but coz too much things happened that i dont know wut should i write.. hahha such an obvious reason..
i read inayah's blog juz now.. well ermm more to- updating myself bout my frens.. hahah jahat kan saye.. bile ade mase free baru la nk amik tau psl kwn sekeliling.. keh keh keh.. dlm blog inayah tu.. she wrote something bout a blog that she used to read.. one thing came to my mind.. hafizbar's blog!! so i open the blog.. ermm the latest entry ;-

"adakah anda di luar sana peka, bahawa salah satu iklan yg rasa2 lucu kat dlm TV skarang (org pakai sut kuning mcm bodoh) menggunakan lagu GEREJA dalam iklan tersebut... Iklan tersebut telah mempengaruhi masyarakat kita dengan menyanyikan lagu tersebut secara tidak sedar kerana cuba mengikut rentak lagu GEREJA tersebut... dipetik " KU KAN MENGIKUT MU, KEMANA SAJA KAU PERGI" or dlm bahasa INGGERIS "I'm gonna follow him" "HIM" merujuk kepada ISA @ JESUS... Hal ini sedikit sebanyak telah memesongkan akidah umat Islam secara halus melalui pengaruh Iklan dan lagu tersebut.. Ramai yang tidak sedar akan hal ini dan mengatakan iklan tersebut best atau pun lucu... tapi sebenarnya itulah stategi org kafir utk mhancurkan agama ISLAM... semoga kita sedar dan dpt menghindari hal ini secara lebih tegas!"

hmm.. i havnt seen the adv.. but one thing i can say.. lemah sgt kah iman muslims kat malaysia sampai sebegitu sekali.. satu hal kalo btol la mende tu terjadi n kalo btol la itu realitinye.. kite xdek mase rehat pon.. satu hal lagi i heard bout the holy water tu.. but from source that i really trust.. it's juz rumour n really ridiculous.. so x kan la mende tu akan effect our iman? helooo!!! hina sgtkah iman kite sampai buleh dipermainkan sebegitu sekali.. cehh.. it's juz the same thing bout rumours yg 'akum' tu..

i know it's not my place to comment something that i even havnt seen it yet.. tp mende2 macam nie kan kite x leh lepas pndg.. iA we'll 2gether go thru this thing n Allah is always wit us.. juz pray n run towards the red-line k!! hehe wassalam

one of my worst days!!

18/01/07 - this is actually the entry for 18/01 but that day i was too depressed to write it up in this blog.. so i juz wrote it in notepad n save it... soo troublesome to edit it into the rite date so i juz leave it like this.. huhu~

2day was a bad day.. my 'last-hope' paper ruined!! almost got blow away in the middle of road.. lost my QnA paper in the middle of road.. got laughed at coz of that n coz of had to hide myself among cars in the middle of 'ribut taufan'.. almost missed the paper that i had to take 2day.. really hungry so bad that had to cook maggi coz cant wait for nasik to be properly cooked.. internet connection really slow coz of the 'ribut taufan'.. downloaded wrong file plus a big file n hard to download.. feel so down coz of that.. comp so slow coz edit a video for youtube.. but when i opened the youtube page(my account) it has been suspended.. so i lost all my video inside youtube.. cursed youtube n swear that wont create another account(well i'm sure i can do that or not..) need to study for 2morrow paper but feel so sleepy rite now.. open my blog-site but cant log in..(always like that) open ym.. got sooo many offline msg.. wanted to online but dont wish to b disturb so i just logged out back.. feel sooo pathetic rite now.. i just wanna live happily~ T-T

Renungan Hamba - Missile

Selalu ku sesali dosa
dan selalu ku ulang kembali
dan Kau masih memberi kebahagiaan
ku bukan hamba pilihan

Allah berfirman
"Wahai manusia!
Aku hairan pada orang yakin akan kematian
tapi dia hidup bersuka ria
Aku hairan pada orang yang yakin akan
pertanggungjawaban segala amal perbuatan di akhirat
tapi dia asyik mengumpul dan mengumpul harta benda

Aku hairan pada orang yang yakin kubur tapi dia tertawa terbahak-bahak

Aku hairan pd org yg yakin akan adanya alam akhirat tapi dia menjalani kehidupan dgn bersantai2
Aku hairan pada org yg yakin akan kehancuran dunia tapi ia menggantunginya
Aku hairan pada intellectual yang bodoh pada soal moral


Aku hairan pada org yg bersuci dgn air sementara hatinya masih tetap kotor
Aku hairan pada org yg sibuk mencari cacat dan aib org lain sementara ia tidak sedar sama sekali cacat yang pada dirinya sendiri
Aku hairan pada org yg yakin bhw Allah senantiasa mengawasi segala perilaku nya tapi ia berbuat durjana
Aku hairan pada org yg sedar akan kematiannya kemudian akan tinggal dalam kubur seorg diri
lalu..."

pastue saye dgr satu perkataan yg saye x paham.. then i stopped.. give up!!! i repeated a few times in order to get wut the word is.. huhu.. i understand but i cant write it in my own words.. x original la..

bile saye jumpe lirik dier yg sbenar... i'll post it ere k!!

wslm

Do we hav any say?

Surat untuk mama

Assalamualaikum wrt..

Mama ape khabar? sihat? ermm kakla (refer to me laaa...) x bape sihat skrg nie.. ade batuk2 sket.. sori lame x call.. kerja harian membantutkan niat di hati agar sentiasa berhubung..
i didnt tell u in the phone last time, *cough* *cough* tapi batuk nie dah berpanjangan selama beberapa hari dah.. i juz dont wanna make things complicated.. as u know my body is quite strong.. saye jarang demam n bleh dikatekan kuat gak la.. berbndg other girls.. remember that time u complimented me on how strong i am when i could carry those big pots in front of our house.. do u know how happy i am when u acknowledged me like that.. mase tu saye fikir saye buleh senangkan dan gembirekan mama so that u can work happily..
*cough* do u know y i suddenly write this letter to u? coz i know u rn't going to read this letter... n coz i really miss u but i cant say those words.. setiap kali saye batuk saye terigt mama.. kenape ek? saye terigt waktu mama excited bile juz 2 of us were going to buy some stuffs for me.. at first i didnt know how much that moment really meant to u.. till i saw u happily choosing stuffs for me.. u nvr stop smiling.. till u forget papa was waiting for us in the car.. when i recalled that moment.. my heart aches~ i cant stop my tears from flowing..
mama, i think i'm juz like u.. we cant nvr express our feeling by words.. but i understand.. ermm mayb juz a lil' of ur feeling.. by watching u everyday when i hav that chance.. kakla xtau nape but i feel i would do anything juz to make u smile in the end.. kadang2 ur children(i dont know how to address them *lol*) says that i'm ur n papa's golden daughter.. n do u know y they didnt mean it in bad way? sbb mama looks so innocent when u want to cherish me.. mama x pnah ckp mama sayang kakla n mama x pnah ckp mama rindu kakla tapi the feeling u give me is more than enuf.. dan kakla harap kakla dapat emit those feeling to u so that my feeling conveyed to u.. u feel that rite?
i'm bad with words but i'm good with comp so i'll write it in this blog.. kakla sayang sgt kat mama, kakla sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan mama di dunia n di akhirat n moge dgn kasih sayang yang kakla berikan ni cukup menceriakan hati dan meringankan beban di bahu mama.. i cant do much for u but this is wut i really wanna give u.. even thou u give me so much till today, i cant nvr repay back to u.. iA i'll make du'a to Allah SWT so that He will give u the greatest repayment iA..
wassalam*sob* *sob*

Spain~

Walking down a street..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

This evening i went to post office to post something..(mmg la.. xkan la g post office sbb nk makan ice cream..) on d way back i planned to shop at LIDL.. then outside LIDL.. i saw a dog..ermm quite big.. black and looked very frenly.. coz the dog didnt bark either move from the spot where it's standing.. tapi yg sedih nye.. anjing tu tgh sejuk.. the whole body menggeletar kesejukan sampaikan from far away u can see anjing tu menggeletar.. mase tu sedih sgt.. mmg la kalo kite pk.. x kan la the owner nk bwk masuk dlm LIDL kan.. the weather's very cold outside.. sampaikan almost every time i breathing.. asap kuar dr my nose.. uhuhuuhuhuh.. sdgkan anjing tu yg mmg x dek bulu.. ermm saye x sure la jenis ape anjing tu.. tp yg kaler itam n licin kulit dier.. x dek bulu tu.. when i finished buy wut i want.. saye pon kuar la.. n the dog was still there at that time.. bygkan.. ermm nak kate kejap jek saye masuk.. lame gak la n the queue was quite long at that time.. uhuhuuhuhuhuuu.. in my heart at that time.. pk fitrah Allah SWT jadikan anjing begitu setia pd tuannya.. pdhal tgk la camne tuan dier treat dier.. uhuhuuh tp pnah ke anjing tu komplain or merungut or x buat ape yg tuan dier suruh? it backfire to us rite? kite selalu jek merungut.. kekdg tu buat keje x ikhlas coz we dont get wut we want.. anjing tu nmpk cam bersyukur giler kat tuannye kan sampai dier sgt 'patuh' pd tuannye.. tp camne kite lak? cam tu ke kite nk tunjuk kite patuh? n we hav to remember xkan la kite nk rendahkan lagi level kite lagi teruk drpd anjing.. sesame la kite pk2 kan ekk..
nway i juz got back from andalusia, Spain.. n best sesgt!! i really recommend to those who havnt go there yet.. put it to ur top list k.. ehehheeeheee wokeh la jumpe lagi next tyme k.. wassalam mata nee~

Holiday!!

Assalamualaikum wrt..

2morrow.. i'm going to Spain.. 16 Dec till 20 Dec.. then to PMS 22 Dec till 26 Dec.. so there wont b any entry around that time.. ehehehhe.. well wanna wish u hav a good haliday k..

mayb some of u knew already.. ermm ahh nvrmind.. it's like this.. i knew a story.. (well u dont hav to know where i pick up that story..:D) it's about a girl and her strong personality.. the story began with her bestfriend became famous as a singer.. thus her friend(he) ermm lets call him Sho<-- almost the real name.. i forgot the real name actually.. so Sho became proud n dont wanna become fren wit her anymore.. plus he even insulted her a few times n did that in front of her n others as well.. so she swore that she will crushes him.. the only way is become more famous than him... i really like her personality.. coz she never give up.. really hard to give up.. a fast learner.. n always does things with her own way..(altho sometimes doesnt succeed)
she entered the world of celebrity but had a bad start.. one of the scene that really leaved big impression on me is when she had to try a scene with a top guy(guy yg pandai blakon n paling top ar kirenye) the scene needs her to 'bersimpuh' but at that time.. dier terseliuh kaki kat area ankle.. so it's impossible.. tp sepnjg dier blakon tu.. she nvr shows any expression yg tunjuk dier tgh sakit.. muke senyum jek(script kate kene senyum la..) n it was last for a very long time.. i mean almost an hour.. everyone surprised.. even the top guy.. but then to some point she sweating and looked really suffering.. so the producer had to stop the scene.. but she wont get up till the other person ade kat depan mate dier.. so that top guy pergi la dr situ... then she fainted.. wow.. at that moment.. i'm speechless.. pdhal mase tu.. dier bukn nye dijamin dpt blakon dlm scene tu.. it juz to prove something.. tp she was ok wit juz that..
another part.. she went to an audition wit her fren.. well it can b considered to b her close fren at that time.. under certain circumstances.. they(all the participants la..) had to blakon in a pair.. musuh ketat kwn dier tu kate not fair coz fortunately diorg dpt jd pair.. so kwn dier bg suggestion diorg akan terus blakon without preparation.. condition dier.. 2 org yg paired up tu adalah kwn baik.. both of them like a guy.. but si A went confess to that guy.. so si B ni sure la marah kat kwn dier tu altho kwn baik.. so diorg kene sediakan scene gaduh2.. org lain punye scene.. siap bertengkar hebat giler ar.. termasuk la musuh ketat kwn dier.. n musuh ketat dier sbenarnye actress yg hebat gak la.. guess wut camne diorg buat?! diorg diam berdiri.. then si B(kwn baik dier..) slapped her.. atas sbb si A(watak utama cite nie la..) g confessed tu.. so bile kene slap tu.. dier marah ar n nk slap si B gak.. tp B nangis.. A x jd marah but said sorry.. ermm org lain sure x terpk kan.. sbb diorg asal2nye best fren kan.. uhuhuhuuhuh.. kagum giler saye..
haaa... waaaaa wokeh la.. at first i juz wanna inform u bout Spain n PMS.. tp lebey2 lak.. ehehhe well c ya.. wassalam

Time is runnig out

Salam..

2day is another bad day.. i've thout bout this b4.. but really.. nvr got me this pathetic.. this is not some kind of trick to get some pity or attention.. but i know some day i will read all these entry back and realize where shld i put a stop or juz a comma..
i laid back for a second wit a thout in my mind..*wanna rest for a bit* so i went down to kitchen.. grabbed something to eat.. selongkar2 dapur sket.. went ere n there.. *still with THAT THOUT in my mind*.. then i went back to my desk.. then i looked at my watch.. wow!! guess wut? i'd been *resting* for about half an hour.. wow.. can u imagine.. i didnt even notice the time's slipping right under ur nose but wut u gain from dat? well mayb at the moment (mayb every that moment) u feel that half an hour is just *kacang jek*.. well if u use that half an hour smyg tahajud then make du'a.. that time is the most musjatab time ..
sat on the chair.. continuing wut i was doing earlier.. after an hour u cant put the data on ur head any more.. dizzy.. n my eyes seemed cant focus.. i did some stretching.. and start browsing youtube.. hmmm mayb some entertainment can 'cool down' my head.. browse~browse~.. found nothing but some already-watched videos.. so decided to do some reading.. glanced to the comp clock.. !?!?!.. i'd been browsing with nothing for a bout 45 minutes.. waaaa giler hape.. xkeje.. nk cool down.. tp membazir almost an hour? ahahahhahaa sometimes i ask myself.. wut m i doing? is this wut i want? *sigh*.. someone said to me.. if u keep sighing.. happiness will go away.. is it true? well it is true that sighing is not a good thing.. but i m not sure bout the happiness.. ahahaahhaa.. wut a crap.. the pic on the left.. i took it when we went to plattfield last spring.. so white~.. ehehehhee wokeh la.. uhuhuuh i took another half an hour to write this entry.. huhuhuhuhuuu i dont know any more bout wasting my time.. someone plz yell to me bout time management!!! wokeh la.. gonna stop ere.. i wish u do well in ur exam (thats coming SOON) huh*my heart is not ready yet~* mata ne~ wassalam.. :x uhibukunna fillah~

After a while~

Assalamualaikum wrt..

usually the distance btw my eyes n the screen is about a metre.. but now it's about half of that.. ermm it's freezing (well.. as always:D some ppl know y..) plus i'm hungry(normal for those who stay up late rite? u will hav a cup of drink n mayb biscuits bside u..) n my resdung came back.. then feeling out of order... y? ermm mayb it's time for once in a month... dunno coz it's quite crazy lately.. my winamp's playing the song dat i'm not really fond to.. y? coz i dont understand a bit.. wokeh STOPPPPP!! stop the nonsense..
these 2 days wit k asyif n k zai around r really fun.. really can feel the diff after they went back to usual weekday!! waaa.. next week i'm going to Spain.. n after that to PMS.. n this room will b occupied by Wani's parents.. so hav to do A BIT of cleaning..
huh!! WTH?? sound crazy rite? well i'm not in the normal state.. sometimes i treat blog as my diary.. well someone said to me.. y do u even bother to hide/b secretive bout ur diary coz u write so that others will read it rite? the same thing as suicide note.. u write so that ppl will know wut is the cause of ur death.. BUT if u really wanna die.. y do u even bother bout living ppl? will they b there for u after u die?? WTH?? ape saye ckp niee??? aaarggghhhhhh.... tensiii2.. astaghfirullah hal 'azim..
bile kite tensii or sedey ke or bengang.. sape yg popped up on ur mind that u'd really like that person to comfort u? hav u ever think bout it in calm state? wokeh2.. i REALLY2 need to stop.. kalo x.. byk merapu lagi.. wokeh la.. uhibukunna fillah
wassalam

Another fav song..

Ela Zawjaty (my wife) - Ahmed Bukhari

Salam.. i really like this song.. ere is the lyric.. ehehehhee

I Love U Just The Way U R ,, I Love U No Matter What U R ..

Whatever Happened ,, Whatever Will Happen It's U ,, U R My Sweet Heart ..

My Wife U R My Sweet Heart ..

U Belong To Me ,, So I Don't Fear Any Blamer Who Cares Only About Loathing Me ,, The Time Had Allow Us To Be Joined For Eternity ..

U Irrigated The Love In My Heart By Saying All The Right Things And Being All The Right Things ..

The Happiness Is Gone When Ur Gone ,, And The Life Is Clear When Ur Around ,, My Whole Day Is
Drudge Until The Moment I Come Back To Home ..

I Meet U And My Agony Will Be Washed Up When U Speak ..

I Just Hate Life When U Complain About It ,, So I Do My Best To Get U Whatever U Want ..

U R My Beatitude ,, So Please Enjoy The Warmth Of Love As Long As U Live .. Our Souls Have Been Joined Like Soil And Grass ..

Oh My Hope ,, And My Peace .. Oh My Joy ,, And My Soul .. Life Is Heaven No Matter How Difficult It Gets As Long As Ur Contented ..

wassalam..

Smbgn fron the previous post..

Salam..
:D nie smbgn dr cite psl kucin saye.. ermm sampai kat kucin2 tu lari dr saye kan.. ahahaha cube bygkan.. cam kucin liar lak.. then start from that day i chased after my cats.. everyday.. i wont give.. usually we feed them on the mornign n everning.. ahahah so dah saye ade kat umah tu.. i was the one who feed them EVERYDAY.. kalo x frenly ngan saye x tau la nk ckp ape.. mase tu ade sekor ibu ngan 2 anak dier n sekor adek betina.. (nk kate pompuan<-- utk org kan..) yg ibu tu sgt la x frenly.. xtau nape.. dier sanggup berlapar dr nk dtg dekat ngan saye.. lepas saye pergi jauh baru a dier pegi tmpt makan tu.. mane x tensii.. butout of that 4 cats i really like 2 of them.. yg adek betine tu.. ngana anak jantan dier.. yg ibu kucin tu sgt la liar.. tp sgt la gedik.. nape? dier suke sgt pegi jln2 kat umah org lain from the morning.. then came back at the everning.. the x lame lepas tu ade la 'jantan' lain yg dtg ikut dier.. huihhh tensii giler.. kalo dtg nk 'merisik' kucin2 betine kat situ.. kitorg x kesah.. well thats their nature rite.. tp masalahnye.. ermm igt x 2 ekor anak ibu kucin tu? bapak diorg adalah kucin siam.. so dpt la gene bulu lebat.. mmg lawa la.. yg dlm gmbr kat bwh tu.. yg kaler puteh tu.. comel kan.. kot2 nye kucin betine lain rase tu jenis ensem kot.. so ade la 2 3 ekor kucin BETINE 'dtg' nk merisik ugak.. huihh pdhal kucin jantan tu(yg bulu lebat tu..) xdek keje lain drpd makan tido kejar anak ayam katek then pegi kacau kucin lain.. xtau la bile dier g ngorat 'anak dare' org tu..
sooo bile ade kucin jantan ntah dtg dr mane.. n jugak kucin betine lain yg ntah dtg dr mane.. so umah kitorg jd tmpt berkumpulnye jaguh2 kucin n tmpt diorg menunjukkan taring n suare paling kuat.. huihh tensii giler.. bygkan hampir setiap mlm diorg bergaduh.. last2 ayah saye geram sgt.. (sbb ermm my dad, my mom n saye jenis yg kalo bising sket waktu mlm.. xleh tido.. adek2 saye yg lain n jugak my big bros bleh jek nyenyak..:D)last2 ayah saye g kasi le kucin2 tu kat org lain.. saye pon xtau kat mane.. time tu kucin2 tu still x frenly ngan org.. cube bygkan camne nk tangkap diorg tu.. huihh.. mmg rase cam kejar ayam lak.. ehehehheee ohh yg kasi kat org lain tu ibu kucin tu ngan anak dier yg sekor lagi.. bukn yg kaler puteh tu.. ermm saye dah lupe kaler ape.. sbb adek saye syg giler yg kaler puteh tu.. so tinggal la 2 ekor.. cam yg dlm gmbr in previous entry.. gmbr kat atas tu mase diorg dah frenly.. sbbnye saye la..ehehhehe akhirnye inilah hasil penat lelah ku.. frenly giler smpai kan mmg x leh nk buat keje la.. gmbr kat atas tu adalah mase saye tgh amik gmbr pokok bunge mak saye.. sbb tgh berbunge lawa giler..(one of hobbies saye adalah amik gmbr bunge yg tanam sendiri..:D) pastue kucin tu dr tmpt tido biase dier (ermm kat tepi pokok durian.. jauh gak la.. the other side of our house..n i was on the another side..:p) tp still bleh nmpk saye n dier pon berjln la ke arah saye.. comel kan.. pastue tgh saye amik gmbr,, saye nmpk dier berjln ke arah saye slow2 lalu kat tgh2 pokok2 yg my parents tanam.. cam scene dlm cite lak.. n watak utame nye adalah kucin tu.. :)) suke sgt gmbr tu.. waktu tu diorg mmg asyik dok merayap kat kaki jek.. adek saye bising sbb dier kate ayah kitorg x marah sbb saye yg buat kucin2 kitorg tu jd cam tu.. ahahhaahh ade gak gmbr2 yg kucin2 tu suke posing2.. ermm tau2 jek kot.. kucin yg kaler itam tu my best fren mase balik ari tu..best fren nye kitorg smpaikan dier suke tido atas katil saye.. (my parents x kasi kucin2 naik atas rumah..tmpt diorg adalah kat bwh..) tp kitorg suke bwk naik kucin senyap2.. :p jahat kan.. n sejak dier frenly ngan saye.. hampir setiap bulan tido atas katil saye.. n dier tau bile saye ade kat bilek.. n bile dier septtnye kuar(terutamenye bile my parents balik from somewhere..) huihh pnjg giler.. wokehla.. nk tido dah.. nite2 wassalam

One of my fav video..

When meow's calling my name..

Salam..
suddenly i wanna leave something on this page.. ehehhehee hek eleh.. xdek ar.. a few seconds a go.. dgr ade kucing mengeow.. ermm 2 weeks a go i saw a cute one running toward the house next door when i opned the back door.. ermmm b4 that saye dgr dier mengeow pastue nmpk dier dok berjln atas pagar bate blakang umah.. i mean ours la.. so saye igt mane tau kan dier jinak n tgh lapar lak tu.. tu yg dier dok merayau tu.. so i went down to the kitchen n opened the back door sesenyap yg mungkin.. ehehehhee but unfortunately it got scared n ran away.. waaaa but for a moment.. kucin tu xdek la besar sgt or xdek la kecik sgt.. sederhana jek.. kaler puteh or cream sket.. n mate dier sgt cantik.. cam biru hijau.. huihhh.. n sgt lincah.. uhuhuuhhu saye nk sgt pegang.. really miss my kucin2.. i dont know wut happen to my kucin back home.. uhuhuhu.. but ere is the pic of them.. comel kan? suke sgt.. mase saye balik summer lepas.. i arrived at home really late at nite.. i heard from my mom that we hav 6 cats.. but they said that 2 of them died(mati mase kecik.. sbb baru lahir n mak dier first time beranak..) so tinggal la 4 ekor.. a mother wit a lil' brother n 2 children.. ahahahhaa (pdhal 2 children dier tu same besar ngan adek mak kucin tu..) well cite nye pnjg apesal tinggal 2 jek.. tp saye nk cite gak.. mase saye memule sampai tu.. diorg nie (empat-empat ekor..) sgt la x frenly.. my mom said sbb nye ayah saye dah train diorg sejak kecik jgn frenly sgt ngan org.. ayah saye x suke kucin ngade2 dok merayap kat kaki.. so kalo nmpk diorg dok malas2 atas kerusi sure ayah saye halau.. ahahah tp yg sweet nye time makan.. diorg sure 'terliur' tgk kitorg makan..(lgpon kitorg suke makan kat bwh <--luar rumah) so diorg dok la satu tmpt ermm lebey kurg 3 meter dr kitorg.. ahahahha tp my dad org first kasi diorg makanan.. so lelame waktu makan jek diorg dtg rapat.. ahahhaatp mase saye balik tu diorg nmpk jek org.. sure lari nye.. mase tu cube bygkan ape saye rase.. sbb sbelum saye fly dulu.. kucin rapat giler ngan saye.. pastue balik2..(altho kucin lain dah.. yg lame dah mati dah..) tgk2 diorg lari dr saye..igt saye nie ape? makhluk asing..(mmg la bg diorg saye nie makhluk asing yg diorg x pnah nmpk sbelum ni..) :p eh dah lewat nie.. nk g masak la dulu.. nnt saye smbg ek cite saye.. mata ne.. wassalam..

My own wiken..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

yesterday waa... tanoshkatta!! arigatou ghazaimashta'.. altho it was diff as planned but really.. tanoshkatta'.. jitsu-a.. a few days a go.. i juz realized something.. hmm well it is kinda make me down n hurt at the same time.. but nothing to worry bout.. coz it's the truth anyway.. i cant do anything bout it n there's no way i can force it to go my way.. rite? but sometimes i kinda regret it.. cotto ne~ yea juz like i said in my previous entry b4.. we cant expect ppl are juz like us.. know wut we r thinking n know wut we want..
kekdg korg ade rase x perasaan.. bile korg pusing kiri kanan(not literally) u juz realize that nothing.. iA Allah SWT always on our side..~as long as we are one His side~ true isnt it? huh.. sadis btol la.. hmm oklaa mesti ade yg dah fenin2.. korg perasan kan saye jrg crite psl my prob or wut happen to me.. jrg tulis psl mende2 sedey berlaku kt saye.. ermm actually i dont want any pity or any feeling related to that.. thats why ppl around me thought i kinda dont hav big probs.. well it's ok wit me if u wanna think of me like that.. tp kekdg mende tu timbulkan mende lain lak.. when ppl think of u like that.. they will treat u like 'nothing'.. huh.. x pe la..
nk tulih something dlm blog nie sbb ade mende jd tp mengarut lak jadinye.. ahahahaha leks..leks.. nway.......hah.. i juz remember something.. last nite i dreamt bout something dat really shocking.. i nvr thout that i will dreamt bout tht.. ahahaha well mystery hidup.. wokeh la.. c ya around.. mata ne.. bye wassalam..:X

Angel's smile

When i look up, i see a gloomy, cloudy sky.
Today is another tiring uphill climb.

i get sick of it all..

But i just think of the girl that i love so much,
and i readjust the shoes that i've been walking on the heels of.

Her smile is a ray of light
that shines from in between the clouds
and warms up my entire heart.

She's my girl.

The angel's smile..

Everything around u..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

i went to class 2day.. n on d way back i need to buy milk.. so lined up to draw some cash.. while waiting.. i looked around, watching ppl with their own business.. i turned to my left watching a guard(at the tesco door) thinking wut if that guy is a Muslim coz he really looks like one.. at the moment i wanted to turn my head to my right..a guy wit a baby walked pass me(in front of me..) can u imagine dat? well i kinda shocked at the moment.. but wut is more 'frightening' is.. he said salam to me.. waaaaaaaa.. n then he walked to tesco.. for the moment i cldnt take my eyes from tht guy.. wut the hell?? lepas kasi salam.. masuk tesco??
well mase dier kasi salam tu.. dier senyum sket.. hmmm sabar2.. *sigh* well mayb some ppl(esp Muslims) dont aware bout boikot.. n i dont like to be prejudice.. hmm.. saba2.. uhuhuh dat make me think.. tht out there.. there r ppl who 2day they r Muslim.. n 2morrow they arent.. kinda sad huh?
haa.. 2day i kinda realized that i'm the type of ppl that can control my sleepiness.. ? ahahahhaa.. ermm camni.. i sleep whenever i wanna sleep.. kalo ngantuk.. i wont fall asleep without i realize it.. n kalo x ngantuk.. saye bleh tido.. ahahhaha kagum x? i juz knew bout that this morning.. ahahahhahaa coz mase tu terlintas kat kepale.. camne org leh tersengguk2 kalo dgr ceramah or lectures or mende2 yg buhsan..
Allah SWT jadikan manusia berbagai2... thats y wars happen.. also it's the reason for loven happiness.. rite? hahahahha nape saye ckp cam tu? hmm cube bygkan kalo kite sume same jek.. mmg la war x kan jadi.. sbb sume org tau ape each of us wants and sbb tu love ade sbb kalo same jek.. maknenye kite akan love everyone la kan? ehehehehee.. (suke sgt ckp psl mende2 kene pk nie..) tpkan pnah terpk x.. kekdg dlm kepale kite.. mase kite 'ditimpe' bencane or dugaan or kesusahan or ape2 la yg misfortunes.. kite akan terpk nape laa org lain x paham kite.. nape la org lain x same ngan kite.. nape la org lain bleh berbangge ngan diri sendiri n pndg remeh kat kite.. n bla bla bla(go on la..pnjg lg list dier..:P) btol kan? well its time to ponder bout us as well.. k lahh.. see ya next time
uhibbukunna fillah wassalam (perasan x saye x gune perkataan jepun kali nie.. ermm biase nye gune..:D)

a bright sunshine will always be there after a big storm..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

after a few tiring days.. ermm woke up a bit late 2day..mayb qada' mlm semlm yg tido x cukup.. ahahaha kite selalu nk qada' something yg sbelum nie kite rase kite septtnye dpt tp x dpt.. ahahaahhahaa.. well that's manusia namenye kan..
kat bilek saye ade a few pokok..(ehehehh saye mmg suke pokok..mayb sbb parents saye suke sgt tanam pokok kot.. dah jd habit..) ade la satu pokok nie.. saye beli thn lepas mase autumn kat lidl.. xtau nape.. mmg diorg jual mase autumn jek.. saye selalu jenguk kat lidl nk tgk pokok ape yg dijual.. ehehhehee then kat waktu autumn.. daun sume luruh.. ape tah lagi bunge.. tp last nite i juz noticed that there's a small flower bud.. hmmm quite suprised plus a lil' bit happy and also undescrible feeling.. how will that small flower live in this coming winter.. hmm rasenye dah masuk winter dah coz sejukkkk giler..
sometimes i hav a feeling that i cant be like that small flower.. mayb my existence is juz like that flower.. but that flower, no matter wut it will continue living rite.. n some day it will blooms.. but wut will i become? i thought at the first place.. that flower will get influenced by the surrounding, juz like me.. baka da ne atashi.. talking bout this.. juz make me down.. ahahhahaa
ahh sejak kebelakangan nie saye asyik dok ckp psl mende2 sedey jek.. kalo x sedey psl mende x happy or mengarut.. (same jek kan.. eheh) wokehs la.. ermmm nk wish buat bebaik dlm test or exam pd sesape yg ade test or exam dlm mase terdekat nie.. juz remember that Allah will always be on our side as long as u're on His side.. k
see ya around bye wassalam

Someone said..

Assalamualaikum wrt..
yo!(dgn gaye kak asyif..ahahaha) wut's up? genki kai? ermm xleh nk tido lagi.. tertibe terpop up kat fikiran bout something that has been said to me.. ermm dier ckp org yg percaye cinderella happy ever after.. after the story end adalah org yg x logical.. nape? sbb sbenarnye the real story began after that.. the real life of cinderella started after she got married.. coz b4 the marriage.. all the storyline was just a part of her life.. it was just an introduction.. kite xtau ape jd kat cinderella lepas tu kan? x sume bende kat dunie nie.. akan dpt happy ending..ever after.. even we do good thing.. even tho we are good ppl.. may prince tu ade affair..(sbb baru dpt tau perangai sbenar cinderella..:P) or diorg x dpt nk overcome the status barrier.. get real, man!!

satu lagi org tu kasi tau kat saye.. dier ckp camne nk overcome bad memory.. ahahaha yg tu saye malas nk cite sbb terlalu practical n terlalu theory.. ahahaha fenin2.. leks..leks.. wokeh la mata ne..

wassalam

lalala~ bout love..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

ehehehee.. saye baru je abes tgk a few minutes of first episode cite love revolution.. memule dier ade intro la psl love.. heroin dier ckp love nie cam tunggu taxi yg x dtg2.. dier kate.. tunggu2 pastue x dtg2 la taxi tu.. bile kite nmpk pastue kene libas ngan org lain.. when we took a break.. bile kite pndg balik tertibe tgk org lain dpt taxi tu.. when we start to give up n go on wit our life.. byk la plak taxi dtg.. n xtau la plak nk pilih mne satu.. eehhehe

saye tulih mende nie sbb mende nie buat saye berpk.. ahahahahhaha well.. cite tu psl sorg doktor yg dah tua.. tp x kawen2 lagi.. ahahahahhaa a perfect lesson for certain ppl kan.. ahahahah lawak jek..

well mata ne
wassalam

Setelah sekian lame..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

yerpp... setelah sekian lame x update blog.. make saye pon ade la mase n mood saye pon mmg rase nk tulih blog..
these a few days ade something happened.. sampai penin n ( rase cam buang mase pk lame2 psl mende remeh camni..) for certain ppl.. mayb diorg akan pk mende tu remeh.. tp sbenarnye hal xleh pndg remeh.. some ppl cant live if they leave it unsettled.. pelik kan manusia? betape varying nye.. sampai altho sesame jenis tp kite x semestinye paham sejenis kite tu.. sedey kan? tp tu la hukum alam.. bak kate sunnatullah.. eh pnjg le plak lecture saye..
that thing is.. frenship.. ahahhaha remeh kan? iskk..iskk.. as i said b4.. mende nie buknnye seremeh yg kite mayb assumed remeh selame ni.. sbelum nih saye slalu pk frenship nie remeh jek.. i mean we need less hours to maintain such relationship compared to other relationship.. bukannye saye nk kate frenship nih mende small matter..
kawan nie kekdg akan misunderstood kite.. kekdg aka terase ngan kite.. we hav to explain every lil' thing ngan diorg so that kite leh jage hati diorg.. tp certain ppl yg pndg frenship nih.. (relationship yg doesnt involve give n take) <-- this is juz my opinion.. as mende remeh.. diorg 'xdek mase' nk jage hati kite.. i mean when we misunderstood diorg.. they juz leave it as it is.. bile kite terase ngan diorg.. they dont hav time to care.. when we start acting cold.. they blame us.. huh.. *sigh*
kat sini saye bukn nak ckp psl fair n square.. tak... cam saye kate td.. saye pk frenship ni buknnye relationship yg involve give n take... org yg pndg remeh frneship nih.. adalah org yg x menghargai frenship tu.. i believe u guys heard this saying..(ermm xtau la saye dgr or bace kat mane..) "if u dont care bout something, someday it will leaves u".. cnth nye duit.. if dont care, lelame byk membazir.. miskin la kite.. kalo kite ade kanojo/kareshi(gf/bf) kalo kite x care pd diorg.. mmg x berthn la.. even to our God.. if we dont care to Him.. someday He will leaves u.. n if u reach to that point.. there's no turning back..
wokeh la.. dah cukup pnjg for the first update after so long.. ahahhah sori le.. hal2 mcm nie.. ngadu kat sini.. n saye tau saye jrg cite hal sbenarnye.. instead saye terus jek ckp ape yg saye rase/ impression to my life... aahhahaha sure fenin2... wokeh la.. c ya next entry.. mata ne~
wassalam

Artist : Daniel Lee Title : Mimpi

Inginku
Lukiskan nota-nota
Laguku mengikut rentak gitar

c/o
Dengarkan suara
Mimpiku
Bertemakan namamu
Senantiasa selalu, ooohh..
Selalu

Sedalam tinggi
Seluas jauh
Begitulah cita-citaku
Sekiranya kau ingin tahu
Selama ini
Hingga ke akhirnya
Suka duka
Senyum selalu
Kita bersama punya satu
Mimpi

Jauh, oooo yee..
Begitulah cita-citaku
Mimpi (6X)ooooooo
Realiti

i really like this song coz this sentences.. ehehehe 'Sedalam tinggi Seluas jauh Begitulah cita-citaku'... try listen to this song.. mab u'll like it~

Leaving on a jet plane~

Assalamualaikum wrt~

uhuhuhuhuhuhuhu... this tuesday i'm going 'back' to Manchester!!! feel sad a bit.. feel happy a bit.. ermmm n other feeling as well.. alaaaa blank la plak.. yupp! nothing to say.. ehehhehehe cume nk bgtau saye balik 12hb ni.. ehheheheheheee... mayb some pply will realize that i'll b a bit different from b4.. ermm but plz treat me as usual k.. hehehehehehe see ya!

Kisah sekor anak ayam..

Assalamualaikum wrt.. my mom suke bela ayam katek.. alaa ayam yg kecik2 comel2 tu.. ayam2 yg kat umah kitorg tu pelik sket.. kalo kecik2 lepas diorg bebas.. mak dier akan tinggalkan anak2 dier.. so my mom kurung la dulu buleh dlm 2 minggu pastue baru kasi bebas..

then nk dijadikan cite.. my dad suruh lepas anak ayam tu.. (sbb ade dlm 8 ekor anak ayam tu.. cam rase nyemak mak dier n sian lak..) pastue bebas la.. tp ade la sekor tu ade nyakit.. kaki dier kudung sbelah.. kitorg baru prasan pon lepas kitorg kasi lepas anak2 ayam tu.. ermm pastue x sampai seminggu mak diorg pon tinggallah anak2 ayam tu.. mak ayam tu pegi ikut bapak ayam.. yg dier rase lebih ensem drpd anak2 dier.. (mmg ptt la org dulu2 letak peribahase bapak ayam n ibu ayam kan..)

anak2 ayam tu xdek care lain.. diorg kene survive sendiri or ikut bapak lain.. (sbb biase nye lepas besar sket.. lepas mak diorg tinggalkan diorg.. diorg akan ikut bapak yg nyendeng kat mak diorg dulu..) memule diorg ikut la bapak sekor tu.. tp sbb diorg kecik n bapak tu mmg active.. diorg kene la survive sendirik.. tp sekor yg kudung tu.. mmg nmpk kesian giler ar.. bile kitorg prasan yg kaki dier kudung n kaki sbelah lagi tu cam lain mcm jek... kalo biase nye dier akan yg terblakang sekali.. kdg2 nmpk dier berenti skejap.. berehat nk kejar adek beradik dier yg lain.. tubuh dier pon nmpk kecik jek berbndg yg lain.. kitorg decide nk kurung dier kasi mkn.. cam x payah la dier pegi kejar adek beradik dier yg lain tu kan..

tp satu ayat yg 'melekat' dlm hati saye.. my mom n dad kate.."xpe la.. alaa.. anak ayam tu dah nk mati dah.." kekdg bile jadik cam tu.. either org akan kurung or bior dier cam tu jek.. sbb mind set diorg dah ade yg kate anak ayam tu akan mati 'x lame lagi'... most of the ppl la..

saye yg bg cdgn supaye kurung kasi makan.. tp bukan sbb dier nk mati.. saye nk dier idop.. tp kalo tgk from different point of view.. mmg kesian.. mcm la kes kite jumpe binatang yg hmpir mati kan.. kalo x leh nk selamatkan kite kene bunuh dier kan... so that kurg la kesakitan yg dier rase.. tp ntah la.. tiap2 hari saye jenguk anak ayam tu.. tiap kali saye jenguk.. saye teringt ayat tu.. sometimes when we cant justify our actions/choices.. we unintentionally create the reason behind it.. or more to excuses.. is it human nature or it i us who create the law?

@- -@
( _'_) !!really miss kite2!!

i'm here~

Assalamualaikum wrt..

sorry my fwenz.. for not updating this blog for quite a while.. eheheehhee hmmmmmmmmmm alaaaa blank la plak otak ni.. xpe2..
a few days ago.. i said something to my bro(2 yrs younger than me..) which make me wonder after that.. i said "better do things that u'll regret them now rather than u'll regret them later on" can i hold on to this kind of 'attitude'? mayb someone will say.. "if u know u're going to regret it.. so y do u even bother doing it?" i dont know.. frankly.. it's juz 'if only..'

ahahahhhahha some nonsense ha? :p i bought a new laptop.. n my lil sis bought the old one from me anly for rm2000.. ehehehhehee.. (that money i use to but this one..) then i went to pc fair twice..(here..) n reaalllllyyy addicted to comp stuff..

hmm.. my dad bought 2 bikes. one for my bro n one for him.. coz he sold the old one.. mayb skrg ni mase utk 'renew' everything? eehehehhehehe.. wokeh la.. i'll jot down something later k.. jzkk n wassalam

after some time~

Assalamualaikum wrt~~

:D after spent some time to rearrange my 'position'.. finally i got time to jot down something ere.. i'm taking driving lesson rite now.. so dont hav much time to contact others or go somewhere else.. after i got P.. i want to go to my bro's place.. shah alam.. n mayb to melaka also.. ehehehehhee..

i'm facing a few probs.. but my 'ego' or u can say maruah.. prevent me from say anything to others.. so plz dont push me.. i'm trying my best.. this is where i start.. i wanna b someone else.. everytime my 'iman' remind me wut shld i do.. or bout wut r the wrong deeds i've done.. my heart feel the pain.. but sometimes.. my hawa'/nafsu 'mengatasi' the heart n 'aqal.. says that do a few small things like that..wld b fine.. soo bad of me.. i know i shldnt do that.. i'm not in the position to say anything to others.. but wut's on my mind.. wut i saw/see.. i cant deny it.. that's the reality.. i cant turn my eyes away.. i sldnt!!

wut i believe.. isnt something i believe wit my head..or eyes.. but wut i believe by heart.. but ppl cant see that.. ppl always say.. everything shld b fine.. but how is it? u even dont know whether 2morrow will come or not.. u even say everything will b fine??

hav u ever feel.. that u want something.. but u even cant reach to it.. u even cant get closer to it.. it's very frustrating.. rite? i keep my feeling.. locked inside my heart.. coz i dont dare to express it.. i wont dare to feel it n even shape it.. my dream still in the dreamland.. i cant get it out from there.. jzkm n wassalam

i'm hurt~

Assalamualaikum wrt..

ari ni.. kali ni saye akan cite nape n ape jd.. kalo sbelum ni.. saye x kan share kalo saye ade prob.. tp kali saye dah x thn.. but one thing.. plz dont ask me bout this.. i mean.. plz dont remind me bout this.. in 2 or 3 days later.. i'll probably will forget bout this.. i'm like this..

saye antor email kat mcot.. niat saye.. saye nk fire org yg still beli brg yahudi.. tp in d same time.. xnk derma utk palestine.. (mungkin terpengaruh ngan hafizbarnye blog kot..) kalo nk tau ape yg saye tulih.. bukak la mcot nye website.. saye cumenk tlg promote mende tu.. tp ade org kate saye marah2.. buatkan org makin x nk beli.. kalo x nk beli.. sudah.. thats fine wit me.. tp care tu dah salah.. mcm la salahkan org minum arak.. kebun anggur yg kene bakar.. (btol ke analogy tu?) bile saye ade prob.. kekdg saye nangis.. (kalo korg prasan.. saye x pnah nangis depan org lain..) tp kali nih sampai saye xleh nangis.. coz i'm hurt... i;m hurt sooo much.. y? coz it'll affect other thing.. i really regret it.. soo much.. soo much that i cant talk bout this after this..

salah ke saye gune tande seru? lemah sgt ke org melayu sampai effect tande seru tu kuat sgt.. saye sdg tulih nih sambil terpsg lagu sedih.. kalo sblm ni saye jd sedih sbb lagu tu.. tp skrg ni saye rase lagu nih lgsg x sedih.. btol la.. Allah akan duge kite part yg kite care soo much.. i feel so bad.. i dont wanna go thru this thing.. but i remember one thing someone told me.. nih la salah satu care Allah nk jdkan kite 'kuat'..

serius.. saye x kuat.. saye lemah.. saye x nangis sbb i'm too weak.. i'm too weak to cry.. org ckp setiap org ade kelemahan n kuatnye.. tp ade ke org nk ngaku lemah dier? rite now i feel so sad coz.. i'm hurt so much.. ya Allah kuatkan la hatiku.. plz make it strong to face this terrible thing..

owh at last.. ngalir gak air mate saye.. mesti korg igt ape la saye.. x memerlukan comfort org lain... coz ppl u tend to hurt.. r ppl around u.. thnx for listening.. n thnx coz always b there for me.. kekdg saye lemas.. tp sbb saye kene teruskan idop... i'm pretending to b ok.. pathetic kan saye ni? patheticnye saye ni sampai saye rase kalo saye xdek la into sgt dlm mende ni.. everything will b ok.. T-T

jzkm n wassalam..

something written on ur face~

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bz wit exam n study.. so juz something i got from someone..

happiness is not something that follows u around.. also is not something u can win over a fight.. but happiness is always beside u.. u juz dont realise it.. we cant see our own happiness.. coz it's always near us.. that's y we need someone to show it to us.. show where is exactly the hapiness that always hiding behind our own shadow.. that's y u need to appreciate her/him.. it's not something that u found everyday, everywhere..

(isk..isk..isk..ipk.. sejak bile sheila jd jiwang cam ni nih..) ehehehhe well specially dedicated to 'someone'(someone who already found their sweetheart..keskeskes..)

wassalamz..

some sentences for u~

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i copy n paste this from jdorama.. titled dragon zakura.. really hav deep meaning!!

"You'll continue to lose all your life."

"Come down here ! We'll kill you !"

"Teachers are teachers and students are students. Hear to what people are saying until the end !!! You won't beat me to death ! I mean "lose" by the fact that you will be cheated.
If you continue like that, all your life, you will be cheated."

"We will be cheated ? Why ? By who?"

"Our society has rules. You must follow these rules and all these rules are written by intelligent people. And what does it mean ?
These rules are written by the most intelligent people and they make use of them. Since stupid people aren't able to understand these rules, they will be hidden things.
These rules will continue to serve these intelligent people. For example, taxes, salaries, insurances, allocations.. all these intelligent people will continue to make them incomprehensible.
And stupid people will only have to try to understand their meaning. You all think that thinking is bothering. So, all your life, you'll be cheated and you'll pay a lot ! Let's admit it..."

"But it can't be helped !"

"Intelligent people will take benefit of this situation, and stupid people will be cheated and lose. That's how our society works. So, if you don't want to be cheated, if you don't want to lose, study !"

n after a few conversations after that.. there're a few sentences that i like.. (note: Todai univ is one of the top univs in Japan.. ermm juz like cambridge la..perbandingan jek ek..;p)

"What do want with "Todai" ? It's enough with "Todai"."

"Do you hate Todai ?"

"Yeah, like everybody else here."

"Me too."

"Ah?"

"Those who are in admiration in front of the word "Todai" make me cast. Those who think there will be success, just because they entered Todai, those who feel small when they learn the guy who is in front of them is from Todai are meaningless."

"So, why do you tell us to go to Todai ?"

ahhhh... the conversations r too long.. toooooo lazy to copy n paste all those sentences.. eheheheh well i like the conv above coz.. i find the attitude is very brave.. very a few ppl like this.. if u hate something but u hav to overcome it.. most of us will find any other way to face it.. but this minority ppl face it directly.. well i agree that it's the most fastest way.. but do we hav the gut to face it directly? hmm.. juz wondering lorr.. wassalam

we r pathetic~

assalamualaikum wrt

time exist bcoz there's ending to it

we got sick bcoz we hav body

we live bcoz we'll die someday

we lie bcoz we'll b discovered

we do bad things bcoz we'll b punished

we do good deeds bcoz we'll b awarded

we happy bcoz we exist

we sad bcoz we r pathetic

sometimes we dont realize that we r running away from our probs n troubles.. facing them will make we lose something.. so y? coz we also will gain something..

someone special

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kali nih tukar style lak ek.. ehehehehee.. tulih dlm bahase melayu lak.. (bior pon tajuk dlm bahase english.. keskeskes..) ermmm ckp psl someone special nih.. tertibe saye terigt.. kate2 someone nih.. serious saye x igt sape.. ehehehehee dier kate kite selalu nk pose sebaik mungkin depan kite nye someone special tu.. selalu nk get the best impression.. selalu nk kasi mende terbaik..

setgh org kate mende tu x elok.. sbb cam hypocrite.. kite bleh ke jd hypocrite? ermm mayb korg x bape stuju gune perkataan tu.. berlakon la kite kate.. korg akan berlakon ke depan si die? ermm mayb berlakon pon exergerate gak.. ermm camni2.. cnth nye la care korg ckp antare kwn.. kalo lain2 kwn korg layan same ke? kalo korg comfortable ngan someone tu.. korg akan layan same ngan org yg korg baru jumpe ke? mayb some of us will say that they treat ppl equally.. (isk kate nk tukar style..keskeskes..) tp kalo tanye saye.. saye akan jwb naturally org mmg hypocrite.. mayb ade a few la yg x.. tp most of us yess.. termasuk la saye..

i cant treat ppl equally.. kekdg saye x brape nk layan certain ppl tp kekdg saye layan diorg gak.. so kekdg saye rase saye mmg sgt jahat ar.. sgt hypocrite n sgt selfish.. owh jauh nye melencong dr mende sbenar saye nk ckp keskeskes..

kekdg saye pk tau.. nape kite x leh jd diri kite yg sbenarnye depan 'org tu'? sbb kite takut org tu tau mende x elok psl diri kite? nnt last2 dier akan tau gak.. nnt dier x suke kite? bukn sume org perfect.. xkan la kite nk adjust diri kite so that kite sesuai ngan dier? tp we cant avoid that rite?

wokeh la.. cukup la saye membebel kali nih keskeskes..wassalam mata ne

teka-teki~

Assalamualaikum wrt..
i got this from email yg lan social forward kat mcot yahoo group.. uhuhuuhuuh.. i heard these Qs b4.. but forgot bout this.. ehehehhe.. ape yg paling menusuk ke hati saye(chewah ayat bunge2 cam inayah n ain..:p) adalah the first 2 Qs.. ehehehee

# Apa yang paling dekat dengan kita di dunia?
# Apa yang paling jauh dari kita di dunia?
# Apa yang paling besar di dunia?
# Apa yang paling berat di dunia?
# Apa yang paling ringan di dunia?
# Apa yang paling tajam di dunia?

Pada suatu hari,Imam Al-Ghazali berkumpul dengan murid-muridnya,lalu Imam Al-Ghazali bertanya;pertama:"Apa yang paling dekat dengan kita di dunia?" Murid-muridnya menjawab,"Orang tua,guru,kawan dan sahabatnya".Imam Al-Ghazali menjelaskan semua jawapan itu benar. Tetapi yang paling dekat dengan kita adalah MATI!!! Sebab itu sememangnya janji Allah SWT bahawa setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan mati.(Al-Imran:85)

Lalu Imam Al-Ghazali meneruskan pertanyaan yang kedua."Apa yang paling jauh dari kita di dunia?" Murid-muridnya menjawab,"Negara China,bulan,matahari dan bintang-bintang".Lalu Imam Al-Ghazali menjelaskan bahawa semua jawapan yang mereka berikan adalah benar.Tapi yang paling benar adalah MASA LALU.Walau dengan apacara sekali pun kita tidak dapat kembali ke masa lalu.Oleh sebab itu,kita harus menjaga hari ini dan hari-hari yang akan datang dengan perbuatan yang sesuai dengan ajaran Islam.

Lalu Imam Al-Ghazali meneruskan dengan pertanyaan yang ketiga."Apa yang paling besar di dunia ini?". Murid-murinya menjawab,"Gunung, bumi dan matahari"."Semua jawapan itu benar",kata Imam Al-Ghazali.Tapi yang paling besar daripada apa yang ada di dunia ini adalah NAFSU (Al-A'araf:179).Maka kita harus berhati-hati dengan nafsu kita,jangan sampai nafsu membawa kita ke neraka.

Pertanyaan keempat adalah,"Apa yang paling berat di dunia ini?".Ada yang menjawab,"Besi dan Gajah"."Semua jawapan adalah benar",kata Imam Al-Ghazali.Tapi yang paling tepat adalah MEMEGANG AMANAH (Al-Ahzab:72).Tumbuh-tumbuhan,binatang,gunung dan malaikat semua tidak mampu ketika Allah meminta mereka untuk menjadi khalifah(pemimpin di dunia ini).Tetapi manusia dengan sombongnya menyanggupi permintaan Allah SWT,sehungga banyak daripada manusia masuk ke neraka kerana tidak dapat memegang amanahnya. Pertanyaan yang kelima adalah ,"Apa yang paling ringan di dunia ini?". Murid-muridnya menjawab,"Kapas,angin,debu,dan daun-daunan"."Semua itu benar",kata Imam Al-Ghazali.Tapi yang paling ringan di dunia ini adalah MENINGGALKAN SOLAT. Gara-gara pekerjaan,kita meninggalkan solat.Gara-gara bermesyuarat,kita meninggalkan solat.

Dan pertanyaan keenam ialah,"Apa yang paling tajam di dunia ini?".Murid-muridnya menjawab dengan serentak,"Pedang"."Benar",kata Imam Al-Ghazali.Tapi yamg paling tajam adalah LIDAH MANUSIA - kerana melalui lidah,manusia selalunya menyakiti hati dan perasaan saudaranya sendiri.

bengang x bertempat~~

Assalamualaikum wrt~

u gusy must b pelik.. hairan b ajaib.. uhuhuhuuhuuhuu ape la berlaku kat sheila ni ek.. keskeskes.. well i juz read d latest entry from hafizbar's blog.. (i dont wanna link the blog from mine coz i dont know him.. dat's not my style!! kukukukukukukuu..) hmm he wrote bout he met a few ppl that juz diverted to Islam.. n how ppl around them dont 'take a good care' of them.. kuang3x.. ape yg saye rase berasap n bengang.. n rase bengang dier tu x bertempat is.. coz he despised n ejek ppl who got upset bout Rasulullah's cartoon.. uhuhuhuuhuhuu.. ppl like him that i despised most.. y? coz kite kene la ade rase sensitive toward our religion's issue.. uhuhuhuuh if he's sooooo cooooooool bout the cartoon but upset bout girlz who like cute stuff.. he's not a real man.. i reallyyyyyyy hate that kind of guy..

one more thing that make me x leh rase usnuzon toward that guy.. he said that he stay cool when the issue came up.. n 'sit' calmly as that issue got nothing to do wit him.. cess... ahhh.. malas dah nk kesah psl dis guy.. juz waste my time to care bout him.. i dont care if he despised n mocked girlz like his previous entry.. i dont feel anything coz he's not a girl.. but if he feel so cool toward the cartoon issue.. i feel like my blood fill up my head.. y? coz he's a muslim.. ahh buang karan jek tulih psl that kind of guy..

huh.. woii study la!!! asyik dok bace blog jek.. dah abes study ke? keskeskes.. jgn amik ati... (juz remind myself..tp kalo terase.. x jamin..kuang3x) ja ne.. mata ne

i lub u fillah..wassalam

ppl are subjective~

Assalamualaikum wrt~~

some ppl come to me(ermm either personally or virtually.. kuang3x) n asking me whether i'm ok or not.. hmm well.. Our Greatest Lord made human wit various personality.. n i know this is my personality.. i've nvr cry in front of someone else b4..(as long as i can remember~u know that.. i 'lost' my memories from 2 yrs ago.. eheheh.. the reason y i cant cry in front the others..is i'm not a person who let my feeling out for nothing.. well~ for nothing tu bunyik cam x btol lak.. saye jenis yg simpan jek my prob n feeling.. dont know y.. but that's my personality..

i know that mayb some ppl might find this unthinkable..but i cant trust other ppl easily.. wut i mean is.. i cant trust mt feeling to other ppl.. ( sesape jgn take heart ngan ayat saye ek.. ) i've think bout this b4.. ere in dis world.. mayb some ppl take this for granted.. but we ere.. is about surviving among other ppl.. ppl might take this easy.. but it's hard task to do.. we live among our frens.. some ppl live by adjusting to the surrounding.. including to the personalities of their frens.. some other ppl arent like that.. i'm not in the rite place to judge this is right.. that is wrong... but i juz cant stand ppl who trying to adjust other ppl to synchronize to their compability..

any ppl cant live wit others who they arent comfortable to be wit.. but it's not our place to shape how the other's life.. uhuhuhuuhuhuu.. (penat saye pk how to express in words..) that's y i said that survival skill is very important.. but till now we live happily without paying attention to that.. paying attention to the fact that we r taking things for granted.. including our surrounding..

i think i wanna say something else.. but how come melencong sgt nih.. i've always avoid myself t talk bout this.. uhuhuhuhuuh xpe la.. ermm a moment ago.. this analogy popped up in my head..

kite hidop nih.. ibarat belayar.. it's depends on us how n where to.. but there's always wind to b our guide.. but there're also obstacles like storm.. but sometimes.. we might realize that we r heading to wrong direction.. so we r trying to turn back so that we can follow the rite track.. but its that easy.. plus.. we r alone on our boat.. mayb ade mende lain tlg kite.. cam current laut.. tp ngan dugaan plus.. a lot of efforts are needed to turn back.. *sigh*

wassalam..

comel giler kan~~ ehehehehee..suke giler gambar nih!!

plzzz ignore this entry...

Assalamualaikum wrt..

first.. i wanna clearly state that PLZZZZZ IGNORE THIS ENTRY N IF U WANNA READ SOMETHING.. READ THE ONE B4 THIS..

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rite now really dont feel good.. dont know y.. someone said it's PMS but i know it's not(cam kak mum tulih we cant take it as an excuse) or mayb.. but i feel really depressed rite now.. juz for no reason.. tears came out.. n still come out rite now..

saye sengaje bukak lagu rock2.. supaye xdek lagu influence wut i feel rite now.. i juz dont feel rite.. i read somewhere.. kalo rase something dont feel rite.. or feel guilty.. tuh tande nye kite ade buat dose.. yessssss... mmg skrg saye baut byk sgt dose... tp kenape la saye xreti2 nk berenti n insaf????????????????????? nk tungggu ade balasan ke? nk tunggu sume bende x leh nk turn back ke??? every moment i spent.. i cant take it back.. n sume bende tu jd history.. we cant change history...

something is not rite!!!! who read dis.. plz dont ask me anything.. i'll respect u for that.. skrg nih saye rase hati saye nih.. cam kene ikat.. x tng.. ermm kene ikat tu analogy yg silap.. rase cam kene cucuk.. rase cam hati nih kene tarik2.. kenape?

nih tande org buat dose kan? saye kene taubat.. smyg byk2.. doa byk2.. but still.. it wont go away... feel like something is missing.. feel like i havnt complete something.. saye masih mencari2.. ape yg saye nak.. ape yg saye perlu.. saye dah buat ape yg ptt.. do i wanna lead my life this way? ni ke jln yg saye pilih?

Oh God.. plz forgive me.. plz forgive this little bad one..

longing for somethings..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

thnx to ppl who dont ask anything bout previous entry.. well i really need that ignorance.. ehehehehehe.. pelik kan? well.. saye mmg cam tu.. i dont want other ppl be bothered by my prob.. except the prob also affects others.. eheheheh peace brother!! eh.. peace sister!!(pelik lak bunyik nye..)

i've once told my frens(i remember 3 kot..:p) that humans all selfish.. wutever u deny it.. or how u're going to deny it.. plz read it to the end.. ehehehehehee.. (ade ke org bace ayat saye kat atas pastue terus x nk bace dah?..sukati ar) it happens to us.. no exceptional.. once there's ustazah who said that.. "ape kite nk kat dunie nih?.. kite nk bahagie.. kite nk idop sng.." well.. that's selfish.. i think selfish is we want something for ourselves..

ye la.. same la ngan org ckp.. kubur lain2.. or tempias kubur sbelah kene kat kite.. those all prove that we are selfish.. we be good to frens.. bcoz Allah suruh.. that's selfish.. coz we wanna be good side of Allah.. n including all we did n do.. we do good deeds.. coz we wanna be blessed.. we dont wanna do evil things bcoz we know we'll get the punishment sooner or later..

but sometimes ppl misunderstood this.. they thout they arent selfish..(we are selchicken..keskeskes..) y? coz they said that.. they did or do all those things with the other ppl in their mind.. no one is like that.. a person isnt selfish if he/she can gives up his/her life bcoz of someone else.. n i'll say that that person is crazy.. for someone who syahid.. they are also selfish.. coz they know they will get reward by doing so.. n they didnt do it bcoz of someone.. but bcoz of Islam..

well.. it's not that i'm convincing u guys to follow wut i believe.. but juz wanna throw out wut's on my mind..(bukn ke tu sbb org tulis blog? ke ade org tulis blog sbb nk makan? keskeskes.. ) ape2 pon kite kene amik dr al-Quran n Sunnah.. other's opinion.. u can reject it.. lenguh dah menaip.. wassalam..

suke giler gambar nih.. sbb tertangkap burung terbang.. keskeskes..

my bad...

Assalamualaikum wrt...

first of all.. i wanna say.. wutever i'm going to write ere.. should be kept to urself.. no Q.. dont spread it.. juz b natural k.. ehehehehhehe.. peace brother!!

i hate it when ppl expect me to be considerate to others.. while they're not..

i hate it when ppl ask me to keep secret.. while they're not..

i hate it when ppl ask me to be honest.. altho they're lying to themselves..

i hate it when ppl say they r humble.. while bragging bout themselves..

i hate it when ppl say we should be nice to the others.. while...(i juz cant bring myself to say that..uhuhuhuhu)

i think u already got the picture how i feel rite now.. i'm mad to someone.. cant tell u who.. b4 i always think how's an angry ppl feel.. n i always think bout how to calm down when i'm angry.. but when i become like that.. all things/methods that i can think about.. seems dont work.. uuhuhuhuhuhhuhu..

when someone ask u to do something.. plz say it clearly.. n dont add something that u dont usually do..ermm.. how should i explain it.. it's like.. when someone who cant keep secret..ask someone to keep a secret.. uhuhuhuuhu.. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.. cant get the rite mood to write something..:((

i'll write more next time.. c yaa..wassalam.. i lub u fillah

my review for a drama..

assalamualaikum wrt..

how r u guys? hope we r in kebestan iman.. ehehehhehe.. ermmm i found(not actually found but accidentally watched the first eps then.. keep going on..:D) a good drama.. well it's from korea.. ermm it's different from the other dramas.. coz first it's 52 eps.. ahahhaha byk giler kan.. kalo buat siri drama kat mesia.. about 4 bulan tu dok tyg cite tu jek.. it's about a very strong-willed girl.. survives as an orphan.. (well she's been adopted by a family..) it says that this is based on a true story.. where the girl was the first physician woman at that time..

in the drama.. makes me thinks that.. sometimes kindness can kill.. (b4 we only hear that curiosity can kills cat..) i dont know if we can apply that ere in our life.. kak asyif n am told me b4.. that in our world.. berhati-hati is a great deal.. there's a big gap btw to be careful n fear.. in doing somthing we're being b careful in preventing something bad.. but there're ppl who dont do it bcoz of fear.. uhuuhuuhuh.. we r not robot.. or dog.. doing something under anyone's command.. but Allah's only.. but He gave us nafsu.. let us decide by ourselves..

b4.. i always keep wondering.. y those good ppl(who r kafir..) or muslims who 'menyimpang'.. dont realize our responsibility.. n wut r the rite things.. n wut r the bad things.. but Allah says in His Kalam.. that to those ppl.. Allah put hijab in front of their eyes.. cover their ears.. the ayaat make me realize no one can give the permission for us to do anything even to lift our finger during tahiyyat.. but Allah s.w.t.. mende kecik cam tu pon Allah yg decide.. ape tah lagi mende jahat lain yg kite buat?? astaghfirullah hal 'azim..

i dont know how my drama review leh sampai cam ni skali.. xpe2.. well if u wanna something to watch.. i recommend this drama.. zaman i lub u.. u lub me.. dah lepas.. (skrg nih tgk cite org matured lak..)

i dont hav older sister.. i've been in hostel since form 4.. so i've survived so far.. by watching the others.. watching other older sisters.. watching frens.. learning from them.. ermm mayb u can say i've been influenced by surrounding all the way till 2day.. somethings that i cant find among them.. sometimes i found thru anime, manga, dramas, movies.. so when(if laa..) someone tell me to give up those things.. i find it very hard.. n for me now.. i cant.. so plz dont say directly to me.. to give up those things.. mayb i can do it one by one.. (kalo sekali gus.. same la ngan culture shock..:p)

dah nk masuk maghrib.. that's all for now.. (adeii sakit perut lak!!! makan nasik lemak sape ntah masak td..uhuhuuhuhu) i lub u fillah :x wassalam

me and myself..

Assalamualaikum wrt..

i got this sentences from one of my frens.. but really touches me!! she aims those sentences to herself but.. uhuhuhuuhuhhuu..

dah ikut usrah ke hulu ke hilir pun, balik-balik duk sibuk buang masa, gelak ketawa tak ingat dunia, cakap dan tengok dan buat benda lagha bukan sekali-sekala. dah bedah buku muntalaq tapi perangai dah ada sikit-sikit macam da'ie ke? tak berani nak kata. orang macam saya ni ke nak tegakkan Islam? Quran berapa kali sehari saya buka dan baca dan cuba faham? ke berapa hari sekali? pakai pakaian lawa-lawa sebab imej Islam ke sebab memang nak melawa? ilmu dah banyak mana? insaf, insaf konon, pastu esok lusa buat lagi. da'ie? da'ie?? da'ie??? boleh la nak gelakkan diri sendiri. masih bergelumang dengan jahiliyah, nak jadi da'ie. jahiliyah macam chewing gum lekat kat kaki sendiri tak buang-buang lagi. buang karan naqib, naqibah je ada la kalau ilmu yang dicurah tak sampai ke hati.

muliakah hidupku ini?

i know that.. changing is not a very easy thing.. yet i say those words.. say that i wanna change.. but deep inside..i dont know whether i really change or juz me that hiding behind my own words... ppl around me may say that i'm different from b4.. yeah!! *smirk* it's not my place to judge whether i've change.. nor ppl around me..

also i dont wanna being hypocrite.. nor a survival among croc n tiger.. nor juz escapisme(is this a rite spell?)when i look back to wut i've done.. soo many things that i did.. but give a very little effect to the others.. then u may say that.. i've done wut i can.. but do we know wut's our limit? can we see the limit like we see our exam result? this is not an exam like our univ give us..

*hati tgh sakit skrg.. so xleh tulih lebih2.. kang ade korg dgr salah sorg kwn korg dimasukkan ke hospital sakit jiwe lak.. ehehehhehehe c ya.. wassalam