~Lagu angin~ lalalala..

salam..

sure bosan ek tgk lagu kat bwh.. ahahhaha meh nok kabor bakpe owg post sinih.. ahahhahaa.. dah lebih kurg seminggu dok layan cite 'The Painter of Wind'..(tp abes2 gak.. sbb busy:P) best ke x? mmg best.. cite korea la.. cite skrg tp setting nye zaman dulu.. kisahnye psl sorg gadis umur 18 bercite2 nk jd pelukis diraja.. so terpakse menyamar jd lelaki sbb lelaki je leh jd pelukis diraja.. n dier bertemu la ngan sorg laki yg kemudiannye jd cikgu dier.. ade byk la suke duke.. xleh la nk cite sbb aku tgk pon baru sampai eps 8.. ahhahahahha.. aku xsure la nk kate creative ke mmg hampeh cite nih.. sbbnye bulih kate ape2 bulih jd dlm cite nih.. cnth nye disbbkan si gadis tu menyamar jd laki.. so ade la romance ala jiwang gituu.. tp disbbkan dier nyamar jd laki.. so dier jd cenderung pd pompuan.. hahahha mmg sampai eps 8 tuh.. dier ade suke kat sorg pompuan nih.. hahahah sume org kate lesbian la.. ape la.. pastu cikgu dier lak.. konflik dalaman ke arah gay.. ahahha sbb dier suke kat kononnye 'bdk laki' td.. :P (sape yg tgk cite coffee prince kdrama gak.. tau la camne konflik dalamannye..:P)

nway psl cite tuh.. kalo nk tgk.. aku galakkan.. kalo xminat xyah tgk.. hihi senang cite.. btol x.. aku mmg hantu bab cite korea, jepun, anime, movie ormputeh.. ape2 la.. yg layann gitu.. cume tolak drama melayu ngan indon n seangkatan dgn nye.. ala type2 cite venezuela la.. :D

lagu kat bwh nih.. tertibe terase suke lak.. ini angkara aku dok sedut lagu dari kerol 6 la nih.. pastu dok melagho ngan dier psl lagu jiwang2.. sampai aku pon kne tempias.. so time jiwang2 gituu.. aku pon layann la lagu nih.. memule aku igtkan pompuan nyanyi cume suare dier besar ke ape.. bile tgk vclip nih.. lahhh laki ke yg nyanyi.. bile aku search2 google2 wiki2.. rupenye laki nih femes la gak kat korea n kat luar korea pon ade yg minat.. :P ape2 la.. aku jenis yg minat lagu.. bkn minat org.. kalo org, aku minat pelakon.. hehe (oh my takeshi kaneshiro:X)

oklahh wa chow dulu..(jeles ngan parents aku yg tgh dating tgk cite transporter 3.. hukhuk)

~Song of the wind ~Jo Sung Mo

Under that bright moon, you and I, are separated by so little

When I almost touch you, your gaze turns towards that hazy memory

If I live on, can I call on you again?

It’s hard to make a sound, my breathing will stop, I continue trying to call to you

It’s as if the wind has carried you here, fleeting like the twilight

Like a dream of childhood, like a young girl’s dream, this warm wind

Confidently, you lift your head to walk to the ends of the world.

It’s already passed by, this youthful dream, and we are far from one another

The decision to stop waiting, keeps you awake at nights

In the dark of night, you continue to paint

It’s as if the wind has carried you here, fleeting like the twilight

Like a dream of childhood, like a young girl’s dream, this warm wind

Confidently, you lift your head to walk to the ends of the world

It’s already passed by, this youthful dream, and we are far from one another

Life goes on as usual, seeking for you when you live like the wind

My heart, is like that wind

I am the only one at your side, you are the only one at mine, I wanted to use this to embrace you

My heart is being gently cleansed by the passing wind

On that blue mountain, you shine to illuminate the world

Confidently, you lift your head to walk to the ends of the world

In the dark night, shine on my fluttering heart

Na nararara…

Under the limpid moonlight, I call out your name

Wherever you go, remember to feel the wind’s longing.

Hari-hariku.. bahagie? hmm..

Ade a few ppl yg tag aku suh buat beberape soklan yg menarik.. tp sowi yek.. setiap kali nak jwb tag mengtag tu.. tenet prob la.. firefox prob la.. hukhuk dugaan sungguh.. hukhuk

nie aku nk cite kejadian pg td..
aku agak lmbt pg td.. sampai tmpt tunggu tekci tu 20 minit lmbt.. bile aku dongak je kepale nk fokus ke tmpt tekci dtg.. satu tekci lalu.. halamak~! geram.. geram.. geram.. sbb aku lmbt 5 saat.. ahahaha xpe.. aku tunggu lagi.. ok.. dpt la.. xdek la lame sgt kene tunggu mcm hari biase..:P
naik.. ckp nk g mane n dier kompemkan laluan mane aku nak.. tekci pon bergerak menuju destinasi.. huahuahua.. xlame lepas tu.. dier start berbual.. (cite biase:P)

si pemandu tekci: adek ni, nk g keje ke?
(hari ni aku pakai baju blouse labuh kaler kelabu, tudung kelabu bunge2 ngan jeans biru.. pastu pikul beg sandang bwk laptop kaler kelabu biru:P)
aku: aah
si pemandu tekci: keje kat situ ek? (sri hartamas)
aku: aah
(bkn aku xnk layan tp aku pnah jumpe pemandu tekci yg kalo kite layan lebih2 dier terlebih2 lak nnt:P)
si pemandu tekci: saye igtkan ari nie xkeje.. rupenye keje ye..
aku: ari ni keje, esok xkeje..
si pemandu tekci: oh.. kesiannye kene keje ari ni..
aku: ahahahaha dah nk buat mcm mane.. dah la ari ni tgh minggu.. nk baru masuk feel wiken tp jumaat kene keje..
si pemandu tekci: oh adek ni dah berumah tangge ke?
aku: oh belom lagik..
si pemandu tekci: oh saye igtkan dah kawen..
aku: alaa keje pon x sampai sethn pon lg..

--udah.. udah..

mmg byk bende aku dari dr pemandu tekci.. isk cite la.. bkn object ke ape.. mcm karenah.. nk cite mmg x abes..
aku nih nmpk mcm gaye dah kawen ke? kalo tnye bdk opis aku.. xyah ckp ar.. mmg on d dot diorg ckp aku tue.. yela.. yela.. aku ngaku tue.. :P aku brape x suke gaye matured.. huhu eh.. bkn x ngaku dah tue.. tue tu mmg dah tue.. tp bg aku aku nak main2.. so kalo gaye aku matured tp perangai nk main2.. haa.. tu x sesuwai la.. :D
ade gak aku jumpe pemandu tekci yg x byk ckp.. kekdg tu ade yg x ckp lgsg.. hahahha aku pon layan senyap je la.. tp kekdg dah la senyap.. radio pon x psg lgsg.. :-<>
kekdg ade yg ajak aku borak psl politik.. (yg nih paling byk laa setkt nih..) n kebykkan nye sokong pkr.. ahahhahaa aku x kesah.. (tmbh2 lak aku yg 'tumpang' dier.. mau dier tinggal aku kat tgh2 highway tu.. cemane la aku nk balik nnt..:P thn lori je la ahahah) kekdg ade gak yg dok membebel kat aku psl gelagat penumpang la.. psl jalan x elok la.. ahahhaha aku layan jek..
ade satu kali tu.. mmg teruk giler aku kne time tu.. bende yg dier ajak borak mmg teruk.. dier dah tue tp menurut dier (dier kate la.. aku xtau sesahih mane fakta dier x tau la) dier x kawen lg.. pastu de ke ptt dier cite kat aku ape dier nk buat kalo dpt isteri mude.. aduhai.. aku mmg xlayan.. tp ape aku nk buat kat blakang tu.. naseb baik la perjlnan aku tu x lame.. dlm 10 minit jek.. jln plak x jam.. last2 sampai gak aku.. mase tu aku xtau bende tu aku kene repot.. huhu selamat la pakcik tu ngan aku.. kalo x. huh.. sampai ke mahkamah kite jumpe.. hehe

eh oklaa.. pnjg la plak.. nnt aku cite lain lak ek.. aku mmg rase pengalaman bertekci ni bende yg berharge.. bkn sbb pakcik td.. isk (aku xnk ckp kaum or agame mane.. sbb aku rase sume akan dijudge gak nnt [-(..) tp pengalaman sume nih mmg susah nk jumpe n x same ngan pengalaman yg org cite.. heheh okla nk layann smbg buat keje opis lak.. nih melagho kjp.. (pdhal nk bulih siap satu entry nih.. berjam2.. hahahahaa)

mata ne~! :-"
ws

For someone - maybe you or dont read!

hari-hari ade je bende baru.. sama ada psl keje ataupon frenship ataupon family.. tp sape kate x bosan? bkn bosan.. ermm it's not a right word.. oh.. mksd saye xdek peningkatan.. ermm cnth nye kalo maen game.. kite nmpk la point terkumpul.. btol x? tp dlm hidop kite sehari2.. kite nmpk ke point kite yg terkumpul tu? nop.. kite x nmpk.. so kite tau ke? nop.. kite x tau.. n seyes, kalo kite tau mknenye either kite syok sndr ataupon kite benci diri sndr.. believe me(hehe i think it wont convince ppl if we say believe me~!)

ekceli nk write abt what we think abt our parents.. this is respon to one of frens.. yup mayb i'm not brave enuf to say this directly to her face but somehow i feel like writing this so that saye akan pk dlm2 psl nih.. yup, it may sounds like i'm selfish but i think ppl r quite jual ikan.. sbb nye? kite xkan pk psl org 24 hrs.. kalo ade org ckp ade mknenye dier hipokrit..

baik, kembali pd bende yg saye nk pk.. hehe sesetgh dr kite punye parents yg kekdg kite x brape berkenan ngan perangai diorg (kalo gune perkataan x suke.. xelok lak hihi) tp kekdg saye pk balik.. mcm la parents kite berkenan ngan perangai kite.. ye dak? ape yg menyebabkan parents kite still x give up ngan kite.. still nk perbetolkan kite.. sbb diorg syg kite? knape diorg syg kite? sbb kite nih darah daging diorg? ade gak yg buang anak.. ade gak yg g letak parents kat umah kebajikan.. sbb diorg nk suruh kite jage diorg mase dier x larat nnt? ade gak parents yg lg kaye dr anak2 (huahuahua cnth nye saye la..:P)

saye try xnak tulih ape yg parents buat baik n bestnye diorg.. sbb saye pon x berkluarge lg.. saye x pnah merasai mcm mane ade anak n such.. saye pnah tulih psl saye ade tgk satu cite psl parents rase lega n gembire bile anak2 diorg buat hal n bg peluang utk parents tu bimbang psl anak2 diorg.. sesetgh org xkn phm cite ni.. tp ekteli ape yg nk disampaikan adalah.. parents yg busy mcm mane pon kalo xdek bende utk difikirkan psl anak2 diorg.. diorg akan rase sunyi.. n rase mcm x diperlukan.. kalolah ade parents yg pk sebalik nye.. pk yg better anak2 jgn buat hal lgsg.. sbb diorg xnak lgsg pk psl anak2 diorg.. saye rase better diorg amik robot je la sbg anak.. sng cite.. even nk kate bela binatang pon akan timbul masalah.. x pon main game simulation..(cnth nye pet society hehe) yup, xkan ade masalah.. cume bg pakaian selengkapnye, bg mkn, sediekan tmpt n mandikan dier.. so besarlah dier jd bende utk kite main2.. (bak kate gamerz, x challenging lgsg:P) bkn nk suruh buat hal pd parents.. tp tgk, bile kite buat hal or timbul masalah, diorg akan try selesaikan masalah tu.. mayb ade yg xkan tp sometimes it gives them satisfaction..

huahuahua oklah.. nk masuk kol 9 dah.. waktu opis~! hihi.. kalo x pueh hati ngan my xplanation.. komen je la.. as i said b4.. ape yg ditulih di sini semate2 my stand.. bkn fact utk menjustifykan sesuatu.. hihi

sore ja'~! mata ne~!

Saje bile dok wat keje copy+paste~!

Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.


Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Pelik ke nape saye letak lagu ni? ermm hehe td copy n paste script.. then kat playlist lagu kuar lagu nih.. tertibe rase nk menghayati lirik dier.. xsalah kan? s long s u take what is good from it.. bak kate sorg kwn saye.. amik yg jernih.. air keruh mcm milo jom kite minum ahahhaa.. no hidden meaning ek.. if u wanna hear about how my everyday's life..u better dont.. y? ermm because it somewhat busy n boring actually.. sometimes i cant even see my improvement n that what has been stressing me out.. huhuhu.. but just like what nickelback told me (?) there's gotta be somebody for me out there~! lalalalaa.. xdek ape2 la.. i know i'm not alone(really contradicting what i wrote in my blog.. hahaha) altho i cant see them.. but i really want to believe that.. if not, i dont know where else i should go.. huhuhuu

k lah.. smbg keje ek.. pd yg satu generasi yg saye ngna thn ni baru start keje, keje elok2 jgn jadi mcm saye yg keje x tentu hala.. pd yg tgh blaja lg, blaja elok2 jgn jd mcm saye gak.. pd dah berthn2 keje, keje elok2 gak supaye saye bulih amik cnth dr anda hhiihihii..

bye~! selamat berjuang~!

tensi.. tensi.. pls go away~!

actually i wanna write about my first-time-celeb-eid'ul-adha-in-4-years.. but came back to office with unfinished works really get to my head.. at some point 2day, i realize that sometimes u'll b drifted away after u decided something or misunderstood something.. but it only takes a glance to realize that it actually a mirage~!..
In this project, i've work on it for about 4 months.. and it actually just my misunderstood that it actually doesn't work!!! (i mean not because the script is wrong but how i understand it is a bit different to how it is supposed to be) how frustrating~!..
huhu.. tensi..
huhu.. tensi..
huhu.. tensi..
huhu.. tensi..

i really wanna go to dayah's wedding~! huhu.. but i think i have to sacrifice that plus my sunday.. (nk tmbh geleng kepale lagik x to my clumsiness? hehe) i left my paperwork in my bro's car when we just came back from holiday~! (also sandal that i just bought!!)
:-<
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sabo je la.. (nk tmbh geleng kepale lg x?) my laptop is overflowed with trojans and virus when i scanned last time.. y? because my anti-virus(bitdefender~!!! recommended by the company where i bought that laptop) doesn't wanna do the scheduled scan.. yesterday i already scanned my 2.5" hard-disk.. all the trojans and virusses found have been either deleted or healed.. but when i scanned the HD this morning.. again, i found about 200+ trojans and virusses.. waaaa :((
my windows (xp pro) in my laptop has gone crazy (bcoz i scanned the laptop not in safe mode) the system is a bit disturbed.. but becoz it is xp (now i acknowledge vista huahuahua) it still run like nothing happened.. hahahahhaa (n i cant even open task manager:(( )
ok2.. enuf enuf..

lets get back to work~!! pls make du'a for me~!

sore ja'~! mata ne~!

Yup~ this is me

as i write this entry, i feel really tired.. not physically but mentally.. really~! sometimes uninviting headaches playing in my head.. to certain ppl.. here is my message..

It's not that i dont want to contact u guys.. but my life rite now really straining me doing so.. wake up at 6.30am.. subuh, then tidy up my room and after that have a shower.. then 830am start my journey to office (by taxi) reach office normally at 930am.. then start working.. with the workload n boss normally goes back a bit late ;))) dinner at 7pm.. after that continue work for a bit.. 8pm out to catch taxi for my journey to go home.. normally reach home 9-10pm.. yes~! this is my life..

i'm not that lucky to start everything from above 0.. yup~! i start from -ve.. i wont say believe me, but.. nah i dont know.. i still have my belief.. n i'm still conscious about it.. really, i wont say believe me, but one day i'll continue my journey.. yes, it's not easy here.. i'm struggling here.. pls dont say things like i dont want to be friend with u.. it hurts me as much as i have no one to confide about this rite now..

pls, all i ask is be usnuzon wif me.. n trust me, it wont hurt even a bit on ur side..
thnx for everything~! really, very2 much.. n really2 luv ya all~!

Apa maksud kejadian aneh??

Seperti biasa.. rutin harian saya, baca paper psl berita hari ni.. dah tiba2 hati saya terasa serba tak kena bila baca berita ini... saya pernah merasa makan sepinggan.. hati teringin sangat mencium pipi dan dahi mama n papa.. adakah bila saya berbuat demikian (mungkin buat dlm mase sehari kot duhh~!) maka lepas ni saya akan mendapat kemalangan... sedih saya tgk n mendgr persepsi silap manusia skrg.. makan sepinggan itu sunnah.. cium pipi dan dahi parents itu dapat pahala, besar ganjarannya.. tapi pabila menyesal yang menyusul selepas itu.. apakah yang tinggal? tidak, saya tak kata pahala akan ditarik balik.. tidak sama sekali hal itu akan berlaku.. tapi cuba bayangkan perasaan yang telah pergi..

si suami: pertama kali saya merasa makan sepinggan dgn ahli keluarga saya.. wahh nikmat skali.. terasa hubungan kami sgt rapat.. seolah2 kami berada dlm dunia kami sendiri..

si anak: dah lama x cium pipi ngan dahi mama n papa, sayang sgt mama n papa.. naseb baik la sempat ckp hari tu.. kalau tak, pasti saya akan menyesal sampai bila2..

tapi apa yang 'mereka' khabarkan?

Berkongsi makan sepinggan bersama suami dan anak-anak buat pertama kali seolah-olah menjadi petanda Lans Koperal Rohana Ahmad, 26, akan kehilangan orang yang disayanginya.

inikah cara org malaysia berfikir skrg? siapakah yg memulakan pemikiran sebegitu? cuba tenung dlm diri kita.. tak usah menunding jari ke arah org lain.. cuba buka cara berfikir kita sendiri.. cuba fikir dari sudut lain.. adakah kita akan terkongkong dalam cara pemikiran sebegitu? adakah kita akan terikat, dirantai oleh pemikiran yang boleh saya katakan sempit dan kolot itu?

kalau saya seorang yg berfikiran terbuka tapi org lain masih di takuk lama.. tak guna jugak kan..

ya betul, tapi biarlah kita yang membentuk masyarakat bukannya masyarakat yang membentuk kita.. =D so ape kate anda? sudi berubah? ataupun anda sudah berada di zon selamat anda? comfort zone? selesakah anda? hehe.. it wont cost u a cent to think for a second..

daa.. mata ne~!(see ya next time~!)

Manusia zaman sekarang~!

Salamz..

Kenape mak nyah tidak dibantu?

Sebelum anda terus membaca entry ini, sila layari berita di atas.. hehe saje nk promote bace berite semase.. pagi2 masuk opis.. 'on' computer.. duduk.. lepaskan mengah dulu.. baru start bukak ape yg patut.. hehe biase la.. rutin hari2 bekerja.. =P then bukak laman utusan n berite harian.. pastu opismate panggil brekpes.. biase la.. pekena capati mamak bestari pepagi kalo sempat.. wpon dah pukul 930 time tu.. (masuk opis kol 930am) brekpes penting utk kehidupan seharian.. hehehe (saje je jek:P)

lepas penuh perut isi ngan capati n secawan nescafe tarik.. masuk opis n start buat keje.. sambil2 buat keje.. bace la paper hari ni.. mate tertibe menjurus (mmg kene berguru balik ngan mak aku nih.. bahase melayu hancuss) ke arah satu tajuk berite yg aku anggap menarik.. (mayb sesetgh org perasan dah tukar penggunaan kata diri.. dari saye kpd aku.. hehe ntah la.. sbb pembace blog ni pon dah mcm2 haha..) tajuk berite tu adalah spt di atas..

pelik kan? mebi sesetgh org kate x pelik.. sbb tu adalah salah satu care sesetgh org pk utk menyelesaikan masalah yg berkaitan.. huhu tapi sbenarnye.. cube fikir kejap.. ke manekah bende ni tuju? ni bukan nk fire sesiape tapi cueb kite fikir dari sudut pndgan lain.. nanti tidak lama lagi, akan ade community yg memperagungkan mereka (skrg dah ade community ini tp masih secara tidak terang-terangan.. mungkin sestgh akan mengatakan bahawa sudah nature diorg mcm tu.. tapi betul ke tu nature diorg.. nature kite sudah ditetapkan dan kite sendiri yang decide adakah akan menerima nature itu ataupun cuba menukarnye.. sepatutnye pihak yang terlibat memikirkan cara bagaimana hendak memperbetulkan balik apa yang tersempang.. bukannye menerima yang tidak betul dan cuba memperbetulkan persepsi org lain terhadap bende yang kita 'rasa' betul.. hahhahhaa.. xmo lak org kate emo lelebih.. :P

nway.. ni lah salah satu care pemikiran diri yg baru sbelah kaki menjejak dunia nyata.. mata pon baru bukak separuh.. mungkin org kate naive.. mungkin org kate emo.. tp bg aku sume tu perlu utk sampai ke arah cara pk yg sepatutnye n kematangan akal.. betol x? mane ade org yg berkepompong dlm dunie sndr pastu kate dier sudah matang akal n pemikiran.. itu name nye egoist n narcissist (excessive self-love)..

hehe.. serius ek entry ni? well.. i'm not kind of person yg suke tulih diary.. i like to show what i believe in and what i see in psychological way.. but i dont like ppl who just follow the majority way of thinking.. that's not unique.. (if everyone is unique then they are not unique anymore.. hehe) oklahh.. kalo ade sesape nk cdgkan saye buat entry psl something.. or nk tnye saye pendpt psl something (i'm not a notorious person or someone that general ppl should listen to.. tapi aku suke bertukar pendpt psl care pemikiran psl sesuatu bende.. hehe)

oklah.. (dah la wat entry ni kat opis.. mentang2 la bosses xdek..sukati jek) see u next time.. hehe (sori dah laem x update blog.. byk je bende berlaku tp masa tidak mengizinkan.. isk salahkan mase lak.. sbenarnye saye yg tidak mengizinkan mase.. hmm?? ape2 lah.. hehe)

bye mata ne~! see ya next time~!
wassalam..~!

I'm the lucky one~!

Salaamz~!

i dont have that much free time to update my blog.. but there's someone that i want to show her my greatest appreciation.. mama, i know that i'm not a good daughter.. but truly u're my greatest treasure.. love u, mama~!

I'm the lucky one~! by Anuar Zain

Ku persembahkan satu cita ku..
Setulus hati hanyalah untukmu
dan ku lakukan semampu aku tuk menyayangimu
hingga kau merasa jadi pujaan ku
meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tapi tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan kupastikan..i'm the lucky one..
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya....

jiwaku ini yg tak tersentuh
kini terasa sejak bersamammu
berikan hangat hinggaku x mampu berjauh drmu
kerna kau yg bisa buatku bahagia

meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tp tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan ku pastikan i'm the lucky one
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

caramu membuatku x berdaya
hatiku pun ribut terjaga
kau ubah hidupku ini jadi sempurna

meski bercinta kadang tak indah
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What about now?

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

 Hi~! yeah.. it's been a long time.. 5 months.. sorry! nah~! i dont wanna ask for forgiveness.. y? i dont know.. really~ i dont know.. i've been straining myself from writing here... why? well, u can say my heart was broken.. 

for those who know what happened to me 5 months ago.. i know that you feel like u dont know me anymore.. but i'm not strong.. u guys keep telling me to face the problems.. but i'm not that strong.. all i can do is take a small step one by one..  to you mayb it is a really small step.. but for me, it took a lot more.. please dont expect ppl are like you.. i dont wanna blame you that i've becoming like this.. but here i am, the result from what happened.. (yeah, exactly sounds like i'm blaming you guys~ sorry!) 

i dont wanna let my efforts wasted like this.. but to pick up what've left.. it's not gonna b the same.. mayb i sounds like i feel like i'm the pitiful one here.. n seems like i dont care about you at all.. but this is me, result from what happened.. 

i'm still searching~.. searching for a brave me, useful and honest... i'm not going to ask you to trust me anymore.. it hurts you n me.. but it's not like i want this to happen.. however, as you guys always say.. maybe this is the best for me.. 

Setiap kali - Devotees

Setiap kali mendapat nikmat
jarang kusedari itu pemberian-Mu
terkadang rasa itu kerana
segala usaha dan penat lelahku sahaja

setiap kali ditimpa musibah
kumengeluh risau bertambah gelisah
hingga terlupa pada-Mu Allah
tempat kembali segala masalah

oh Tuhan Yang Maha Penyayang (...maha penyayang..)
leraikanlah aku dari keluh kesah (..uuu..)
yang membelenggu jiwa dan fikiran (..dan fikiran...)
ditambah dengan hasutan syaitan (..uuu..., haaa)

kurniakanlah kepadaku ketabahan (..ketabahan..)
singkapkanku hikmah segala ketentuan (..uu…)
Moga sinar-Mu berikanku pedoman (…pedoman..)
Hanya pada-Mu segala ketetapan (…haa…)

(backup)
oh tuhan yang maha penyayang
leraikanlah aku dari keluh kesah
yang membelenggu jiwa dan fikiran
ditambah dengan hasutan syaitan
durjana yang sentiasa mengarahku
kepada kemurkaanmu
kurniakanlah kepadaku ketabahan
tunjukkan ku hikmah segala ketentuan
Moga sinar-Mu berikanku pedoman
Hanya pada-Mu segala ketetapan
Ya Allah kau redhailah diri ini


seandainya diri ini
mampu meraih cinta keredhaan-Mu
seandainya akulah insan yang terpilih
pimpini hidupku

change of mood..

ermm... if you notice, i've just changed my music playlist.. well.. the songs in there are the songs that i'm currently listening to.. really like those songs in there.. hope you like them, too.. hihi enjoy the songs and don't forget to take 'pengajaran' from those songs k.. hihi

uhibbukunna fillah..

wassalam

i don't know

Where's the edge of the world? I feel like running toward the end of the world.. I've never cried this hard before.. yup.. hahaa hari ini dalam sejarah.. well, i just want keep a written history about 2day.. as i said b4.. one of my hard-work results was out 2day.. it took me more than 24 hours to gather up courage to open the result.. and i put a lot of effort into it.. well.. it's not that i blame qadar about this.. but now i dont know what to do anymore.. if i'm not in my final year, i know that i still have some chances.. but now? what should i do? what do i have to do?

i still feel the headache from crying so hard just now, but i've calmed down.. thinking hard what should i do.. but i really don't know.. nor i have anyone to pour out all these frustration.. i'm begging to Allah SWT everyday but i restrained myself.. because i'm afraid. afraid of going overboard.. i dont know.. this feeling of dont know really.. huhuhu =((

wassalam

Cuak..

One of my hard-work result was out yesterday.. this you can say that determine my study here.. till now i can't find the courage to open it.. it is just a click away.. waaaaaaaaaaa do you ever feel like that? whenever i think about it, my whole body starts aching.. i feel the pain like i think my fingernails are being pulled out.. i cant even feel what's in my mouth.. i dont even know what my expression is.. feel like my heartbeats are beating uncontrollable..
i want to know.. i dont want to know.. really, ignorance is a bliss.. i want to know.. i dont want to know.. i have to know.. i need to know but i'm scared.. i know that it's all been written.. and the ink is already dried up.. but.. i dont know anymore.. huhu Yana said that there's nothing that we can do.. the result is already out and all we have to do is look and believe it.. waaaaaaaaaa i dont know anymore.. waaaaaaaaaaa =((

what should i do? should i just open it? or should i just wait till my emaan is at the peak? yeah.. i'm such a weak person.. i even dont have the courage to see what's in front of me.. huhuhuuu

Ya Allah Ya Rabbal 'alamin.. please give me courage..

sometimes, i feel like i want to run away from reality.. but that's weak.. i want to become strong.. if i look back my life so far.. u can say that i got whatever i want.. my education is not so bad so far.. but now, i think this time i have to face His test in education.. waaaaaaaaa what should i do? yeah.. i think i've been living in a box.. afraid to face what's outside.. huhuu.. i guess i'll open the result after i pray dhuhr.. huhu

wslm

One of my fav songs

Salam..

Hui hui hui every1.. here is one of my fav songs.. i only play this song when i feel so melancholic.. hahahaaa.. reminding about these a few days that i got left to be with every1 i love here.. i might never see every1 that i love after this.. this thought makes me feel that i'm really alone.. i cant think of any other friends that i have.. well there're a lot to count actually.. it's just i'm not that confident to contact them.. hahahhaa well enjoy the song..





So I'm going to go see you right now, that's what I've decided
I want to have you listen to this song, that I have in my pocket

Quietly, I turned up the volume, to make sure that it was there

Oh good-bye days, right now I've got the feeling that things are going to change; so long to everything up until yesterday
An uncool kindness is at my side
~With you

I pass one ear phone over to you
And this moment slowly streams over to you

Can you really love me? Even though I sometimes lose my way

Oh good-bye days, right now things inside my heart have begun to change, alright
An uncool kindness is at my side
~With you

If possible, I'd like to not have sad feelings
But they'll come to me, won't they?
In those times, it would be good, if only I could say
"Yeah, hello! My friend", with a smile

When we both are humming the same song, I wish for you to be by my side
I'm glad that we were able to meet each other, with such an uncool kindness

... Good-bye days

Friends..

Just now, we had a small (?) party for Husna, Ecot, Tiah and Inayah.. their birthdays are in this month (seldom get celebrated because the month of exam hahah) it's quite havoc..

when i looked at their faces.. I had this feeling.. feeling of 'ah! this is my friends' .. you know that we are always alone.. (alone and lonely is different =P) in the road of our life.. we'll stumble upon some people that we claim them as our friends.. but we'd never know.. we might never met them after this.. as i was thinking like this, i cherished the moment.. the moment that i might never see them after this.. 'eh! mayb i can get friends like them when i go back to malaysia'.. this kind of thought always being played in my head.. but i can't imagine the moment without my current friends' faces.. i just don't know.. because i don't know the future..

there are a few of them that i get to see them every day.. but sometimes i notice that i've place some kind of boundaries between us.. there are a few that i see them everyday but i feel so inferior because they know my weaknesses.. there are a few that i can't see them every day but get really close when we meet.. but i've never tried to contact them when i can't meet them.. there are a few that i really want to meet them although i dont have free time at that time.. but because of i'm afraid that i might become nuisance to others so i refrain myself.. there are a few who look like they really respect me but i feel really depressed about it because i know that i don't deserve their respect.. one day, someone said to me that i'm nice to everyone and it was easy to befriend with me.. and also i dont need to put a lot of effort to get a lot of friends and attention.. hahaa.. i just laughed at that time.. but in my heart, i was crying.. i dont know why.. mayb because i've put a lot of efforts but others can't see them.. it seems wasted.. but it doesnt..

i only have 2 months to collect as much as possible memories in this circle.. i dont know if i'll meet people like them in the future.. i dont dare to think and every night i beg Allah SWT.. i've lose my confidence.. it all has been flushed down to the drain since that incident.. i dont even want to remember it.. it's not only painful but also leaves a scar.. that's why i said i'm fine without friends.. hahahhaa i guess i'm really lonely..

i wanna start anew.. i've so many plans... but.. i dont dare to plan to get many friends... because i'm the worst friend.. i'm scared..

wslm

life changing

haiyaaaa!!! we meet again! ^_^ hahahhaaa.. bukn face-to-face pon.. yesterday I applied for a job.. ermm it's about programming.. and i really like it a lot.. i mean yeahh coz I met the job requirement.. hihi.. ermm recently i'm reading a novel.. an english novel.. titled sophie's world.. you can say the novel is a beginner's manual about philosophy.. ok back to the job.. b4 i can get short-listed to job-seekers who can apply for the job, there's something that i ahve to do, which is answering a question beforehand.. and the question is "why do you want to work in our company?" well.. it's very simple and general question but i spent almost half an hour thinking what to answer.. yeah.. of course i dont know about the company so i cant say that "I think i can contribute a lot in your company because blah blah blah.." i never heard this company before.. and this is the first time i heard about this company and it's in the job-seeker's site... hahhahaa also i dont want to write something that i will forget about it later.. mayb it's something that will determine whether i will get the job or not.. or mayb it's something that will make people laugh at me.. yeah of course.. i'm applying to be a programmer.. not a lecturer or a philosopher.. there's a big gap.. people said that just write something that will please the reader but for me.. nope.. at least let it be something that about your true self.. mayb it sounds like lame or out-dated or naive.. but a single and small step may change your life forever.. recently i faced it... mayb we think that "owh, it's just a simple and insignificant decision, it wont affect my life.. " but later you will say "why didnt i take the other option? it's just a simple desicion.. blah blah.." yeah.. you will regret it.. ah no! i'm not saying that we should stop making a simple decision and lets keep worrying about the decision that we have to make.. no.. i'm just saying that if we make fun of/take things lightly about making a decision that may seems small and simple.. it will comes back to us.. hahahahaaa... okeh jauh benor.. saye nk tulih psl job td tu.. ok back to the job earlier.. then i wrote about a relationship between employee and employer.. oppss.. bukn yg mcm dlm drama tu.. ermm what i mean is.. between employer/company and employee, there's something we call trust.. the company trust their employee with the job or works which have the company's little (?) secret and in return, the employee can trust their company to take care of them.. then blah blah (i wrote in there la) at last i said (i mean wrote) i believe that i can trust the company to the point that i want to work in their company... haha it's very simple.. well it's not that i already got the job.. hihi.. if i get the job, i'll let you know k! ^_^

yesterday, i went to plattfield for a lil' jogging.. well this is for the first time haha.. yeah betul.. coz i just walked in plattfield before.. wahh.. haha.. really feel refreshed.. but i saw something i should see yesterday.. haahahaa lets not talk about it.. i feel 'tercemar'.. haha i want to go jogging like that again.. mayb 2day but when i remember about yesterday.. huhu.. hahahaa.. oklaahh.. ermm gonna continue my work.. hihi.. see ya next time =P
wassalam

With awareness, there is bitterness

With or without we realize, we're some kind of worst human of all. Why? Because we are not consistent in what we are doing. When the season comes, we go with it and when the season is gone our passionate also gone with the wind. Who decide the season? Human. We care less for the minor stuff like fashion, artist, art, culture etc etc. But as for our brotherhood? Why can't we be honest with ourselves? I'm also among those worst people. In my browser's bookmarks, there's a site that I can count with my finger how many times I open the site this month. When I realize it, I feel really bad and regret it a lot. When people are talking about Palestine, we busy ourselves with reading all those info and latest news about Palestine but when the the season cold (or cool? =P i think it's the same unliterally) down, we also cold down with the season. Why? Is it because of the feeling of wanting to show off that we care for our brothers and sisters that we take notice about them? What are our real intention really? I am not that good to preach people about what we should do or what should we avoid. We always hear people around us say (mayb that including us.. who knows) that we are not that good to tell others to do good deeds and leave what are haram for us to do, so we decide to live a life that simpler and common. What should we say to them? Should we leave it like that? Or should we meddle around with their life and future?

I've said this many times before. Human, all are selfish. Why? Because we are alone. We are alone in the life hereafter. People won't care about us or we don't have time/'power' to care about others. So what's the point of meddling around with others life and future? But

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, jika kamu menolong (agama) Allah, nescaya Dia menolong kamu dan menetapkan tapak kakimu" 47:7

Allah said this in al-Quran. Allah doesn't want the result, He wants the process. He knows the result and we should care less about the result because it's already written and the ink's already dried up. The philosophers since 500 B.M have been discussing about death and life but none of them can be so sure about their theories. Because none of them have been dead and revived. So they can't tell what is life and what is death. It's possible that we die within these a few seconds. Allah can do it. It's logic, we don't need scientific explanation. But what matter is what will happen after we died. Just like the story of Cinderella. We heard the story when she had to go through all the sad things just to be together with the prince and it was (or should i say 'is'? people still believe it and don't want to let it go) a happy ending. But who could guess what happen after their marriage? Is there any story about it? Can the king and queen accept her? Can Cinderella and the prince adapt their life to each other? We can't be sure. Why? Because they're still alive. Live in our belief. So where should we face our trust and belief? We all know the answer. The philosophers said that to all the questions, actually we already know the answer, thats why the questions exist. Lets think by ourselves. Do you ever heard that thinking also counted as an ibadah to Allah SWT? Yup. Hehe.

Maybe the flow of my blog entries is quite messed up, but I want to write about what we are thinking everyday. We aren't thinking in flow, am i right? Lets be someone who is better than yesterday =P