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assalamualaikum..

^_^

sori sbb sepatutnya dah lama tulih psl ni.. jeng jeng jeng..



then... tuuutt... tuttt..


mmg best \(^_^)/





cam tak ada apa kat gmbr tu? :-"



Ini lah kesimpulannye ^_^

frame gmbr tu dihadiahkan oleh setariberi aka yatie sempena dpt jwb dgn betul quiz teka lirik lagu dier.. gmbr tu gak hadiah dari dier tp memori kitorg ber4 membuat lawatan tanpa kepengetahuan boss ke opis pf ahaks..

cawan yg tak berbasuh(baru lepas gune tau) tu pon hadiah dari setari lepas dpt jwb quiz dier yg ke2.

utk pengetahuan korg bertige, hari2 bosses terpakse tgk gmbr tu.. ahahhaha sbb bile nk jwb tepon, dier kene dok kat tmpt aku ^_^

don't look down on people

Salam n salam syawal..

Terus saja ke point yang ingin disampaikan. Tidak guna berselindung. Dalam seminggu dua ni ada satu perkara sering bermain di kepala ni. Aduhh~!

Ada satu golongan manusia di atas muka bumi ni suka memandang rendah kpd org lain. Believe me.. we might be one of them. Mungkin pada anggapan org lain, mereka tidaklah sebegitu tapi kita hidup bermasyarakat, oleh itu fikirlah perasaan orang lain juga. Kalau tidak suka.. gunung, hutan, padang pasir dan laut luas tidak berpenghuni.




Sedih tgk orang mcm ni. I'm not going to state the characteristics of this people coz it might differ from what u think. Tapi one thing i can say. This people should change. You still have friends now but sooner or later, they all will gone and at that point dont blame others.

daa~!

What will happen to Kartika now?

Salam n salam syawal..

belom start keje lagi but just like the other morning weekday, i start my day with newspaper reading.. with earthquake bare its fang to us, with political issue about BN candidates, and so on.. but one news caught me sleeping.. NGO bekerjasama dgn Sister In Islam nak buat rayuan ke court so that the punishment is cancelled. i could care less about their opinion but what i dissapointed in them is among them, there r societies that have a bit of respect from me from what they've been striving for.

From my p.o.v, Kartika deserved the punishment and altho ppl said why her and why now? there's always first time in everything, rite? why her? cuba bygkan kalau pakcik 50-an yg jumpe tepi jln kne tangkap atas kesalahan yg same, all those ppl yg try nak 'selamatkan' Kartika xkan berjuang habes-habesan mcm skrg. why? well, because she is young, woman and on top of all, a model. duhh!!

Have you ever heard a story regarding the sin of 'minum arak' from anbiya' stories.. Ada seorang lelaki ni sejak kecil lagi tekun beribadat kpd Allah SWT dan tidak pernah melakukan dosa besar. Then, the syaiton wanted to ermm.. like usual la.. then the syaiton got an idea. then, the syaiton menyamar jadi seorg lelaki dan turut beribadat di dlm masjid yg sama dgn lelaki tersebut. Syaiton itu lebih tekun beribadat berbndg lelaki td, tidak makan dan tidak tidur. Maka lelaki td berasa sgt tertarik dan bertnyekan bagaimana dier boleh beribadat spt lelaki itu (syaiton). Maka syaiton itu pon berkongsi pengalaman dier. Dier kate lelaki itu hendaklah merasai membuat dosa dan bertaubat. Maka lelaki td yg sgt eager n beribadat spt lelaki itu (syaiton) tanpa berfikir pnjg terus bersetuju.

lelaki syaiton: Apa kata anda membunuh org?

mangsa: itu dosa sgt besar. tak mahulah

lelaki syaiton: apa kata zina?

mangsa: tak mahulah.

lelaki syaiton: kalau begitu, minum araklah.

mangsa: bolehlah, lagipun tidak melibatkan org lain.

Maka lelaki itu pun meminum la air kencing syaiton itu (erk.. simbolik la) maka mabuklah lelaki td. Dlm kemabukan itu, lalulah seorg perempuan. Dgn bisikan syaiton itu, terjadilah satu zina. Apabila lelaki td tersedar dari kemabukan, dier sgt terkejut dgn kelakuannya. Untuk menutup kesalahan dier dan agar tidak diketahui org, dgn bisikan syaiton itu juga, dier pon bunuhlah perempuan td.

Kesimpulan? fikirlah sndr. Kesimpulan yg diberikan oleh org lain, kite xkan hargai. Ada aqal, ada hati yg Allah bg. So here i just wanna highlight how big the sin is. We might thought it has been a small sin and can be forgiven once we 'bertaubat'. But do we know whether Allah receives our taubat? And while knowing this, all those NGO (and ada muslims juga terlibat.. looking nice and all with 'muke suci kengkunun) ask for the punishment to be cancelled. Fear and talking about human's right. Duhh!! Kalau tnye saye, itu tandanya dier pentingkan dunia berbndg akhirat. Kalau saya berada di tmpt Kartika, saya akan minta hukuman tu kat dunia lagi. Sbb hukuman kat dunia oleh pemerintah dgn sebetulnya, nnt kat akhirat kite dah xkene. and hukuman kat akhirat lagi dahsyat dan lagi menakutkan dari 6 sebatan yg sememangnya xsakit pon.

This is my sheilaisme, what about yours?

wassalam..

Thanks to those ppl called women

Hi and assalamualaikum.. dan selamat sejahtera..

when a blogger decides to write an entry whenever he/she feels like, his/her blog will be like mine.. no consistency no followers no frequent updates. ahahahaa but i cant help it. too many things on my mind so too many things to write but not suitable with the readers and limited time. n the list goes on.. haha

this time i think i have to speak up.. well, maybe the person i 'fired' might not (or i think wont read) my blog but at least i show my 'sheilaisme'.. hehe

while blogwalking, i found this blog. everything is normal but there's something that not quite to my understanding. so i decided to write about it in my blog. i wont put his link up (the blogger is male) as i dont want his ..isme influences ppl more than it is.

so this is the screenshot of the part that i really not agree..



"The fact that she is a woman..."

i wondering if there's sound of male chauvinist there.. i've been controlling my anger for about 2 hours now so i hope no reader will say that i'm in the state of excessive emotional while commenting about this.

to ppl who agree with him, or the writer himself read about this, let me say something. the fact that you separate human to trust as man and woman, shows that you are blind. or are you saying that men are entities that can be trusted as long as they existed as men? well, i fully know about the less trusted woman as she can be trusted only 1/3 of her. but the way it said are not nice. for everyone, the existence of a woman and a man is needed, not a third of her. or are you saying that u only trust a third of what your mother says?

lets think about it. where we put our ..isme and how we act should be screened first. pakat cedok je nnt padahlah akhirnya.
if there's something i should know, let me know. if there's something i dont understand, teach me.
psst: i pity his wife (or future-to-be wife). he doesnt trust her just becoz she is a woman. haha

wassalam..

lawak.. lawak.. tp entertaining..

it's about laugh..

salam n salam ramadhan..

penat? letih? tension? sakit hati? jiwa kosong? lek lek..

ari ni keje sangat banyak, tapi mate sangat ngantok.. one of my jobs (shh jgn bitau org lain. still pnc) kene browse bloggers and get their emails.
browse punye browse. susah gak la. coz need to get suitable bloggers la..

then i found bloggers column in thestar. and sometimes they post jokes and funny quote..

n nak sharing is caring lah.. muge2 ketensyenanmu itu berkurangan lah..

^_^

Son: Dad, what’s the difference between ‘CONFIDENT’ and ‘CONFIDENTIAL’?

Dad: You are my son. I’m CONFIDENT about that. Your best friend is also my son. Now that’s CONFIDENTIAL.

^_^

What’s the difference between stress, tension and panic?

Stress is when your wife is pregnant.

Tension is when your girlfriend is pregnant.

Panic is when both your wife and girlfriend are pregnant.

^_^

ehehhehee chow cin cau..

lets aim for it..

salam dan salam ramadhan..

hari ni (kirenye sabtu la.. malas nk letak kire hari hehe) sepatutnya i went shopping with my sister. (sis, sorry! really, i mean it) but becoz of i slept late last nite and sometimes woke up randomly after dat, and then betul2 woke up at 12 in the afternoon. i got a really bad headache. one thing i really proud about myself is i rarely got sick. but once something happened, it will be a really bad one.

so i calculate in my head, while it hurt so much.

1 hour = 'morning' shower n getting ready
1 hour = estimated time to reach at her house.

actually we decided to go shopping at pkns at shah alam. after all, it is because i only have one baju kurung for hari raya while she's got 3. i'm really a bad sister. huhu so if there's nothing wrong i'll drive to shah alam tomorrow (oh, i wanna try nkve coz i've never go to shah alam via nkve) i didnt tell her but i think she doesnt have anything planned this weekend. ermmm, kalau tak, i'll just head to my bro's house. at seksyen 13 shah alam. i think so, near stadium.

oh, actually bukan nk cerita pasal ni. ehehee biasala..

i'm sure semua orang ada wishlist masing2. and here's mine. well, this is just a short-term one.

1. master designing and web programming skill
- well, i just dont have mood and time for it. but this one is kinda ultimate one hehe..

2. open a small shop
- can be any kind of shop but i really want a book shop or cafe. (maybe i'm much more infatuated with japanese culture than i thought i am)

3. tabika/tadika
- originally this is one of my friend's wish. i kinda stole it from her. haha.. coz i really like the idea.

4. my own brand for clothes
- i dont know how to explain it well, but for a long time i wish to become a fashion designer. oh, it's not like we normally see in the tv. but i want to design shirt, pants, dress and so on just for daily wear. ahaahha actually coz i find it hard to satisfy myself with the fashion trend nowadays. maybe sometimes u guys see my dressing kinda odd or out of trend. ahahahha there's nothing i can do about it. i'm cmfortable with them. so i want people like me, found their comfort in my design.

5. travelling
- kadang2 rasa nak go travelling ngan a few of my frens for a few weeks. ermm almost impossible kan. ahahhha nah.. cancel la yg nih..

6.....

ape lagi ek? tadi bilang rasa nya lebih sepuluh.. ermm nanti laa.. hihi
... wahh ujan tiba2 kat luar. jenguk luar tingkap.. agak lebat juga. angin kuat. but i like the smell of rain. comforting and and and... apa ek.. can describe it ^_^
sometimes i wonder how can such a wonderful thing exists. kan? but that shows how powerful our God is. and how caring He is, toward us. believe me, when u have the chance, bila hujan dan angin kuat. jenguk tingkap and smell the rain. sometimes we ought to stop thinking about world and find comfort in Him.
hihi..

a pick up line

salam n salam ramadhan mubarak.. ^_^

tak plan pon nk tulis entry hari ni tp one thing on my mind that whatever i do, i cant get rid of it. so here it is.

yesterday, i was on my way to office, like usual. radio: hitz fm, oso like usual. d opic on dat morning was, they (i mean the djs) invited 3 boys (ermm about 11-13 yrs old.. i'm not sure) and chat with them. on whatever topics. then a question.
"ok, do u have someone u like?"

"ehehehehee"

"ok, do u like ...... ?" i forgot d girl's name. but her name was brought up in their conversation earlier.

"...."

"if u dont wanna answer, it's fine but i wanna give u a test. if within 5 seconds u smile, i'll take dat u like her"

..n not even 2 seconds, d boy laughing.. (haha pity him)

"ok, then what is d best pick up line u can think of?" (i'm not sure this is the exact question but nearly true.

"hi, i have money for two nasik lemak. so do u wanna go eat with me?"

d(^_^)b

i was laughing so much, dat i think d guy in d car next to me noticed. hahahaa. so funny. it's quite refreshing. they just pick out random boys and put them on air. well, dats i love jj and ian~! haha~! good job guys!!

ban on MLTR

Salam n salam mubarak~!

Suddenly, i have this urge to write on this issue. Ermm, actually it's not a 'suddenly case..', sorry! while browsing on news to read, i found the news about banning MLTR in holding a concert at Genting Highland. First of all, I'm proud to say and very agree about this country's religion is Islam n no other else. And secondly, i wont 'allied' with any political party or person and this opinion is my own. No influence by other 'external' wind or fire. 

As you know, the government has allowed MLTR to hold their concert at Genting Highland and Nasrudin Hassan Tantawi (youth Chief from PAS) stated his opinion and dare the government, saying that he will hold a demonstration if the concert is still in plan. Well, i agree about ban thingy but not agree with the youth chief from PAS. 

Why? well, we are in the holy month and i think we deserve some respect here. You can read many articles about this, whether to agree with the banning or agree with the concert. There's a comment saying like, "..If you don't like Muslims to attend, teach them and persuade them not to go..". Well, at some point, i agree about it. But most of all, 'preventing is better than healing, right? People tend to 'mempolitikkan' those kind of issue and thus, there's a spark of disaster. 

While saying that, i cannot agree with the youth chief from PAS, because one more demo? i'm sure there's more than one option to prevent any negative 'wind or fire' from distrupting our Muslim life. Believe me, there're more destruction than you think they are. Wise leaders use their brain rather than their physicals. 

And to non-Muslims who are saying that Muslims should respect them, well, all we've been giving all this time is respect and space. Are they not to your taste?

One more thing to think about, what's going on about Katrika's issue? Yeah, i know about lashing woman in public shows some kind of harsh treatment or discrimination but please ah, must we make it a political issue? And is it really a discrimination? Someone said, "If Kartika's a male,will SIS n JAG come forward n defend her/him? Isn't that gender discrimination".. well, i cant agree more about that. 

sore ja~! mata ne~!

welcome~! ya Ramadhan mubarak~!

Salam mina-san..

gokigen yoo'~!

Ramadhan datang kembali, alhamdulillah. Sementelah itu diri ini ingin menyusan sepuluh jari (ayat biase) memohon maaf, agar kita sama-sama dapat ketemu Ramadhan ini dengan hati yang tenang dan redha.

ya ya ya~! muge2 kite sume will become better person after Ramadhan key~!

sore jaa~!

hate

when i'm at the bottom of d world's hell
i don't know anything
i don't feel anything
i don't care
because i don't want to

when i'm in the worst situation
i hate everything
i hate people around me
because they don't care
i hate my life
because it makes me miserable
i hate the world
because i'm in it
but the most
i hate myself
because i can't see

i didn't care when i should
i didn't believe when i'm supposed to
i didn't say what and when i should
i didn't do what i preach

so i can't blame others
so who should i blame?
the easiest to blame is others, rite?
i'm not at wrong
i'm right
i'm always right
even though i know i'm wrong
i'll always say i'm right
because ignorance is a bliss.

pssttt: entri ini tiada kaitan dgn mood. mood aku ok je hihi

gadoh

nk tgk cite ni~!



lalala~! (conflict identity tetibe rase)

pengajaran. hukhuk.

salam

venue: opis (pf la)
time: tgk bile entri ni dipublish hihi
mood: erkk bile nk siap ni.

huhu. skrg still kat opis. hukhuk yeah~! look at d time. sbb? sdg mengtransferkan brg2 dari my 250GB external hard disk into this pc (pc opis) :p coz ade prob.

tu la. lenkali partition kan hard disk tu. kan sng kalo nak reformat lenkali.

hukhuk. baik2. then 2morrow another 50GB to b transferred. ermm kire2. hari rabu la bulih refromat hard disk tu. hukhuk. naseb baik x byk data affected. huhu.

k lah. dah abes transfer.

ja ne! mata ne~!

hobi. 8-)

salam ^_^

gud day every1.
semlm agak bad mood. so as usual, selongkar my asset and at dat time i found out my bad habit. (ermm bad habit kot) my asset mksdnye my collection \(^_^)/ consist of anime, manga, jadorama, kdrama, english tv series yg i like. ade sket taiwan's and hk's. n oso muvies.

my bad habit, most of the dramas yg aku tgk haha. aku xtgk sampai abes. nape? most of us normally want to see the ending rite? well, when i watch those drama or movie. i'm more attracted to the storyline. hehe. ending buat ape. lepas ending dah xdek dah.

even my fav dramas pon kekdg x abes tgk. :p jadorama x abes tgk --> hana kimi, gift, my boss my hero, mukodono, nodame, security police. ermm malas ar nk list down. too many. well, sume tu aku minat tp x abes tgk. sampai je part yg bulih agak ending dier. terus tukar cite lain haha. same jugak ngan kdrama. bulih bilang ngan jari brape byk yg tgk sampai ending. yg lain sume tgk half-half. then if another time rase nk tgk balik, i'll watch it from the start. then can figure out whatever yg i couldnt understand when i first watched it. :P silly kan? (sure k nis kutuk kaw kaw nye ni. i know!)

like i said, i know this is a bad habit. i might do d same thing with other thing that i should do. fortunately, it doesnt happen in my work... yet! i hope never! huhu.

oh! last nite i saw this one kdrama. it's about a girl that had been in prison and after she came out, she faces a lot of hardship. kat memane pon macam tu. bile keje, xkesah lah kalau skill power giler. if the employers know about the prison thingy, they wont hire someone like that. the same happened to the girl. I even cried on the first episode. biasenye jarang mcm tu. cite aids tu pon i cried tgh2 cite (kamisama mou sukoshi dake). cite the girl that got rare disease pon, i cried when she cant write anymore (1 litre of tears <-- this one is real story). kdrama yg about someone who has heart failure striving to become a doctor (surgeon bong dal hee). oh this kdrama, i only cried one time only. time yg dier pujuk a boy dats going to be operated on the next day and the succesful chance is really low.

haha sume tu psl sakit2 kan. japaneses like to make story like dat, actually. stories about doctors and diseases get high ranking in Japan. haha 100% love story dah ketinggalan zaman, orang kate.

oklah. actually, i'm waiting for the number 6:00PM. haha. nk balik! tak selesa. sakit leher + inconsistence menstrual thingy + mkn bende mengarut semlm <-- to avoid being depressed.

sore ja'! mata ne~!

bila dia..

salam ^_^

rasa sgt xadil. haha sape kate idop ni adil? Allah itu Maha Adil tapi manusia yg menyebabkan dunia ni xadil. so result = dunia ni xadil (mentang2 la baru tulih script)
nape aku tertibe ckp mcm tu?

ehem ehem.

aku xtau la aku ni termasuk dlm kategori pengecut or ape (well, sape yg kate org lain pengecut tu sbenarnye dier rasa dier brani bak besi berani. cetpoodah) hihi. sbb bile one of mai fren in bad mood or 'dangerous' mood. aku takot nk dekat.
sbb?
hmm. i'm not good in handling or comforting other ppl. kalo someone tgh bad mood dpn aku, aku hnye bulih kate "sabar.. sabar.." well, it's kind of not fair. coz telling other ppl "sabar.. sabar.." make that person looks like he/she is not being patience. it's d same as telling other ppl to work hard while org tu mmg tgh kerja kuat dah. sian org tu.

so i'm speechless. nk g nasihat indah2. aku nih bkn reti sgt psl hidop yg xadil ni. bkn pakar. pengalaman stakat xsampai 3 dekad ni cam rase x cukup je. tp tu lah yg Allah bagi kat aku.

bile tgk kengkwn ngan bad mood ke ape, rase jari ni tergerak2. hati rase x aman. bile buat kerja, sikit2 masuk kosentrasi, rase bersalah kat kwn tadi. sian dier. nk tegur, ape nk ckp? huhu. tp kengkdg bile mai frens in trouble, n they didnt tell me. terase la plak. huhu trouble sungguh. [-(
hidop ni subjective. xsemestinye kite kene ikut haluan org yg sudah berjaye untuk kite capai kejayaan yg same. sume org unique kat dunie ni. but when everyone is trying to b unique, thats why it seems normal. =D juz remember my fren said dat.

oklah. ermm kalo any1 yg bace ni, terase yg dier x septtnye bgtau her/his prob to me. i'm sorry. dats not what i meant. n kalo dier terase yg dier septtnye tell me her/his prob, then i'll always welcome u. =)

ja ne~! mata ne~!

Kita dengar, kita lihat dan kita imani.

Salam.

1st of all, entri ini bukanlah entri yang ingin menjahanamkan atau mengejek jauh sekali dari memperkecilkan mana-mana individu yang dirasakan terbabit dalam isu yang bakal dihujahkan di sini. (erk skema nye) cume aku rase terpanggil nk bg pendapat dlm hal ni. Kalau aku ade sedikit pengetahuan tapi tidak share dgn org lain (sharing is caring) sudah spt dpt saham fitnah dan ignorance.

Isu yang aku nak share kat sini adalah psl apa yang kita imani dari apa yang kita lihat, apa yg kita dengar seharian. tidak susah. semua tu kita dpt dari hari2 kite pegi keje ataupun g shopping. Sbenarnye aku rase nk tulih psl ni bila baca psl kengkunun 2012 dalam ohtidak. sile gugel. wel, xdek la rase enti pada entri yang ditulih. itu hak dier. dan jgn lupe hak pd dose yg bakal dipikul sekiranye semua itu dusta. apa yg mencetuskan jari jemari ini agar 'sharing is caring' adalah dari komen2 entri tersebut. dalam entri2 tersebut, memang la tidak semua tapi ade sorg 2 yg lebih percayekan trailer muvi yg dilihat (source: utube).

oh! sedih!

adakah bila kluarnya muvi bertajuk 2012 tu baru kita nk percaye dgn mate kita? oh! sedih! adakah disbbkan kite lihat muvi 2012 baru kite nk terase seramnye hari kiamat itu? dan perkiraan2 itu semua, bolehkah kita percaye? jawapanya? aku xleh nak bagi. kenape? sebab kalau aku bagi, orang lain xleh imani ape yang aku bagi. kite kene cari sendiri baru bulih imani. dan aku xlayak pon nk justify anything. apa yg aku pasti, aku akan imani apa yang aku tahu. dan tanggungjwb kite utk makin mencari.

one more thing, i cant find where the hadith thats said no human ever go to moon, except Rasulullah SAW. gugel gugel n xdpt. sdg tnye seorg sis yg i believed more islamic than me. still waiting. nnt kalo dier reply, i'll let u know. wel, kekdg kite terlalu bergntg pd gugel n alam maya whatsoever. mmg ada yg betul dan ada juga yg salah. wel, Allah SWT dah bg kite aqal dan its function is to think. kekdg ada yg kite percaye sgt2 adalah sebenarnye salah, so kite kene bersifat terbuka. kalau salah, percaye yg betul. Kalau betul, let others know. Dapat saham best nnt. insyaAllah sampai ke mati.

sore ja'! mata ne~!

kiri kanan

kiri kanan
sering berteman
riang gelak berkala
memecah sunyi
yang cuba menyelit

alangkah indahnya kita
kiri kanan
sering berteman
lupa pada merahnya mata
semalam
lupa pada dendam membuku
kelmarin

sedarkah kita
betapa bertuahnya kita
sedarkah kita
betapa huduhnya dunia di luar
sedarkah kita
bahawa kite sedang
dipagarkan dengan angan-angan

tapi kadang kala
mimpi itu perlu
angan-angan itu perlu
hargailah dunia kita
hargailah laman kita
sedang ia masih dipagar
sedang ia masih cantik terhias

kerna
kiri kanan kita
sebenarnya runtuh
dimamah usia
ditelan duniawi
dikunyah material
ditenyeh oleh daging busuk
bernama hati.

*notakaki: ilham puisi ini dari anys pongpongurl >:)

almost

salam.

hari sabtu. selama 2 minggu tertunggu2 hari yg bertarikh 25/07/09 ni. hehe.
my fren from college got married on that day. ops. no. i mean the day before. and the 'walimah' is on the saturday.
waaa. quite gempak. erm she is the daughter of Zubir Ali, a composer. (normally tradisional songs) hihi. and i met a few frens that i haven't see for more than 4 years, i think.
so, i was quite excited at that time. the pics are in my phone so i'll upload them later. cuaca hari tu agak panas. dan nak dijadikan cerita, i got lost on the back. haha oh, the ceremony was at kolej kediaman syed zahiruddin (UM) seksyen 16, i drove there safely because i studied the map more than 10 times haha. on the back, mesti lah xstudi jalan balik. last2, masuk KL and kluar balik ikut phileo damansara. cess.

reached home at about 7pm. really2 tired but satisfied. got headache but still conscious. haha. they insisted on a 'lepak2 at mamak somehwere' but i dont like night driving haha. nasib baik reached home b4 getting dark.

sampai rumah. basuh baju. and about 10pm felt really sleepy. so tutup lampu and prepared utk tido. erk rase something wrong. huhu nape plak ni. baring-baring guling-guling for about almost one hour. bgn bukak lampu balik. huhu browsed tenet... tuuttt.. ngantok.
tido. pukul 2am. terbgn. tak boleh tido. huhu kenape ni? sakit tekak. alamak. terigt td sgt panas. alamak~!
minum air. hampir satu botol besar. then tido balik. then terjaga pukul 530am. sgt terkejut. huhu minum air then solat subuh. tak boleh tido. huhu
minum air lagi. no food no orange at the moment. nk mkn ubat. dont like.
basuh baju then jemur. then minum air. kemas bilik then minum air. g toilet. then minum air. sgt xnk demam waktu skrg. seksa.
skrg kol 6pm.
alamak! plan nk g jogging. huhu xjd la. now i feel a bit better. but lenguh satu bdn sbb kemas bilek plus basuh baju td. bloated stomach so ulang alik g toilet haha. hrp2 tak demam. :P
almost~! nasib baik i know my body but not that well. at least kalau nk demam, i know what to do and what shouldnt do. hehe
adios~!

Bukan superman - the lucky laki

salam

Anak sapa la ni.



hehe ^_^

It's not goodbye~!

salam~!

a few days ago, i browsed around romantic/love songs (haha it's just i'm in that kind of mood). then, i found a korean vclip with an english song. the song is somehow quite attached to me, erk, no.. i feel attached toward the song. *blush*

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title: it's not goodbye

artist: laura pausini

And what if I never kiss your lips again
Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace
How would I ever go on
Without you there's no place to belong

Well someday love is gonna lead you back to me
But 'til it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
Somewhere out there you thinking of me


CHORUS:
Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
When you've been missin' somebody so long

It's just a matter of time I'm sure
But time takes time and I can't hold on
So won't you try as hard as you can
To put my broken heart together again

CHORUS

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just feel like sharing something. :P

nak dengar?

streaming

download: aimini, 4shared.

then, 2day i have this urge to watch the vclip, i mean the original vclip. it's quite old, i think. then, i found a video that used the song as the background song. well, it's actually a movie. erm, i never heard or watch this movie, so i put it in to-be-dload list of movies. haha. the title is sweet november.

the actor is keanu reeves!!! the movie goes one step higher in term of priority. but, sad ending.

nah, it's ok.

ok daa~!

1 tahun sudaa~!

salam.

tepuk pengakap~! pap! pap! .. pap! pap! pap! pap!~!

hehe..

yesterday, d anniversary sethn keje n sethn kat pf. alhamdulillah.

komen? hmm..

alhamdulillah.

..

tu je?

hmm..

setelah sethn dalam alam keje nih. mcm2 diambil sbg pengajaran. :D yela yg elok ambil sbg pengajaran. n yg tak elok tu jadikan sempadan.

i have frens who just graduate from univ. they all say about missing 'zaman studi'. i can only laugh. well, sooner or later u'll realize that thats not the real world. well, i cant say that i dont miss 'zaman studi' but at some point, i have my own targets. i want to achieve something and those targets cant be achieved while i'm in 'studi age' (haha mentang2 la baru tgk ice age).

i'm really thankful to Allah, coz i'm still in His mercy. n also to PF (rogue) coz believes in me haha.

huraayyy~!

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arigatou~! shinjite kureru..

\(^_^)/

salam.

indeed, i really love my frens.

\(^_^)/

i'm really an idiot. crying alone. despise the world. didn't realize that i have this many frens that care for me.

thank you (^x^) hugs n kisses for u guys.

i was depressed last few days and miraclely (i will call this, a miracle =D ) after read few comments left for me, i laughed with all my heart. yes, a miracle. i think, privating this blog is a really bad idea. i should know that i have my frens supporting me. i just didn't see them. because they are always there for me.

whoossshhhh~! (bunyik buang semua bad bad sad worry morry things)

slluuurrrppppp~! (bunyik sedut heppi merri gooo lakiii thingiii)

*

hehe.

n for the purpose of this entry.

**

ehem. ehem.

thank you so much for believing in me, when i myself can't face the world. i will never forget this moment, when there are people always take care for me. whenever i feel i'm at the bottom of hell (just analogy), i'll remember this moment.

i know word 'thanks' will never get to the same level as what u guys did to me, but i will do the same if u guys need someone. (except for anynomous, i don't know who u are, so if u need someone, juz let me know.. V(^_^).. )

tenkiu~! hugz n kisses~! fuuuu... fuuu... fuuuu..~! (bunyik flying hugz n kisses g kat sume org. hehe)

tensen.................................... grrrr

salam.

utk mengelakkan segale jenis perkataan tidak elok terkeluar dari mulut lembik ni.

nah~!

sakit peyot~!

salam.

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sakit peyot
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i bite my lips
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sori aku ngah gelong
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sakit peyot
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..........tuuuuttttt.......

this small world

salam.

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toleh kanan. bantal :|

toleh kiri. radio.

kat depan ada laptop.

blakang. tingkap terbuka luas.

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mane satu aku nk pilih?
semua aku xnk. eh bukan. semua aku nak.
aku toleh kanan. xde org.
aku toleh kiri. xde org.
kat depan aku pon xde org.
blakang?

adakah tak patut aku membelakangi org?

"ko idop di antara orang. xnk kwn ngan org, g idop sorg2 kat pulau la. thats better for ppl like u, who cant live around ppl."

*i bite my lips*

bkn sng nk carik teman idop.
toleh kanan. xde org.
toleh kiri. xde org.
aku yg kunci pintu bilik sndr.
xleh nk salahkan org.

i guess, there's nothing for me. T_T

suddenly, it strikes me.

salam.

venue: opis

time: 430+pm

pc: pc opis >:) bkn malas tp (quote tajuk)

something happened. a few days ago. kesannye aku rasa hina sgt. rasa aku ni tak layak berkawan dengan orang-orang yang mementingkan kawan. aku ni bagaikan tergolong di kalangan orang yang melupakan kawan, tidak setia dan apa ntah lagi. *whatever*

satu benda yang aku tak boleh terima. ludah dan jilat balik. it's not only about maruah. termasuklah stand aku terhadap kekawan lain. if i were to hate someone, i even don't want to see that person, don't want to be in his/her present. coz i will feel pain. and i'm not gud in poker. so everything will show thru my face. and atmost i don't wanna hurt him/her by doing so. if i feel the pain and they also feel the pain. whats the point of being hypocrite?

aku nih pendendam sgt ke? someone said to me that its not gud. dendam terindah adalah kemaafan. well, u go on with it. i've been stabbed from behind by i-thought-they-are-my friends and the incident was a year ago, and i still can't forgive them. i still can't talk like normal to them. it's not that i hate them. but i'm surrounded by the pain. and here we go, a hypocrite person who pretends that everything is allright. dendam la kot. but this is not what i want. i want to be fren with all. i want to get along with everyone. i love my frens. tapi orang tua-tua cipta peribahasa "pisang berbuah 2 kali" bukan untuk saja2.

maybe i've been protecting myself from all the pain. but it shows that how big their existance in my life.

*sigh*

i'm trying hard to sort out my feelings. if u found out that i can't move forward. pls forgive me. i have my own reasons. n this is me. T_T

it's not enough

i barely reach there

to this small town

it is not a modern town

it is not a lively town

it is a beautiful town

with friendly people

i feel great

i want to live here

i feel appreciated

i'm happy to be here

i feel beloved

i'm sure this is my place

but sometimes

there's flood

there's hunger

there's disease

there's unwanted guest

we just cant help it

we cant control the world

we were taught about accepting

we learned about forgiving

we knew about misunderstanding

but we forgot all that

at the moment of anger

at the moment of despair

the street at this town

seems lonely

full with tears

swallowed up by darkness

can it return to how it was?

can it be the place of joy?

i'm not a good person

i'm learning to be one

but i dont want to be hypocrite

i'm learning not to be one

so if i cant be nice

dont expect me to be nice

if i cant forgive you

dont expect a 'sorry' from me

i'm hurt..

brokenheart~!

salam.

i really really going to write a pessimis entry. so dont sneer or dont critic me for being a -ve person. one day i know i'm gonna end up being a lonely person. not because i want to. but i still havnt found anyone who is truely care about me. i'm sorry if the ppl around me is actually really care about me. but this is what i feel. i dont want to b a hypocrite person, i dont want to lie and i know that i'm not a fun person to b with. but i really feel thankful toward ppl around me. what they've done, are not at the same level as words 'thank you'.

2 depressing things happened to me 2day. make me think that i'm a nobody. maybe in a wrong place, i dont know. the first one is, someone put my name and my blog (this blog) in an entry and bullshit me. T_T i've never 'kutuk' any of my frens. even the worst thing, i just say i disapointed in them. i've never talk -ve thing bout them. at last, i will say i wont care about them.

i know i'm not a good person, not a good fren. thats y i treat ppl better than myself. then, what did i get from them? T_T when i read about her entry, i bite my lips all day today so that i will not cry. try it! it works. haha sorry! blame it to my messed-up head.

i'm not good at poker game. i cant act as nothing in front of someone who i feel really hurt because of that person. my eyes will run away from his/her face. my mouth wont open. my smile will feel bitter. my tears is free at such time. i'll bite my lips.

this life is not a game. this life is harder than a game. and it doesnt have level. but most of all, we only have one life. i dont want to b serious but i dont want to take it easy.

the second thing is, i feel like i'm being played. my salary was reduced. rm200 deducted from the original amount for 3 months. but my boss said to me that my salary will be as usual. he said it last month. last month i still got the deducted amount and also this month. i thought i heard it wrong, n thought that it will as usual this month. but i still got the less salary. i feel depressed. my parents said it's time to change my tires (my car's) and that would b around rm130+ and there's something wrong with brakes, so i decided i have to change the brake tube. and that would b around rm120. then, the battery prob. arghhhhhh~!

*i bite my lips again*

come on~! life could be harder than this. if i cant get through this, i wont become stronger.

so, whats a prob to someone, is not a prob to others. and whats prob to others is not a prob to someone else.

my obsession. >:)

salam.

ehem. ehem. ehem.

to those that dislike/despise or really hate anime. u can stop reading this time entry. haha.

de stori is like dis. :P

i just found 'one piece' fanclub in facebook. and fiy i really really really love one piece. and in one of the topics is about the quote that u really like in the series.

so i want to post here those quotes.

>:)

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"you can whip food or sake at me or even spit on me, i can just laugh it off
BUT! I DON"T CARE WHAT REASON YOU HAVE, I WON'T FORGIVE ANYONE WHO MESS WITH MY FRIEND"

-shanks

\(^_^)/

"everyone has something he can and he cannot do....I'll do whatever you cannot do, n' you do whatever I can't do..."
Sanji to ussop in Enies Lobby

\(^_^)/

" Miracle can only descend upon those with the will to carry on"

-Ivankof to Bon clay

\(^_^)/

When do you think people die?

When they are shot through the heart by the bullet of a pistol?

No.

When they are ravaged by an incurable disease?

No.

When they drink a soup made of a poisonous mushroom!?

No!

It’s when…they are forgotten.

Even after I’m gone, my dream will come true.

The ailing hearts of the people will be cured.

-Dr. Hiluluk

\(^_^)/

"Justice change its shape and direction depends on who hold it."

-Aokiji

\(^_^)/

"If you don't risk yourlife, you can't create a future."

"No One Decides Your Fate, You Decide It For Yourself!"

-Luffy

\(^_^)/

"if i can't even protect my captain's dream, then what ever ambition i have is nothing but just talk"

-zoro to kuma

when i think back. sometimes those words really kept me going. haha. one thing, maybe u think ppl who watch things like this (some of u called them craps) u thout we will get nothing out of them. yup, i agree only when u close one eye and shut one ear. well, some maybe say i just want to justify what i like. but it's up to u. =D

just jgn pndg rendah pd org lain. anyone. it could be ur downfall starting point.

live our life to the fullest, bcoz we dont have second chance \(^_^)/

mata ne~!

Bumper dam hampir kemek.. dududuuu..

salam.

huh!

lega!

masih bernyawa lagi!

geng chipmunks + anak baru masih bernyawe lagi alhamdulillah! tanggal 18hb june 2009 mmg pemilik kereta storm tu cari padah!

k migha~! tolong hntr pelesit sekor! eh cam ke x? lupe nk scan no plet dier. cet!

alkisahnye, kitorg satu kete stuju utk mempergunekan dam (aka dem! haha) utk menghayati keindahan alam di bawah payung putih di central court the curve. cet! dlm perjlnan, mcm x henggat dunie. cite citu sini sinu. jalan tu stret je so aku tekan pedal minyak tu dlm area 80 kmph. ok hape tu. xleh drift sbb xdek selekoh. ahahaha.

kat tgh jln tu ade sempang 3 tp mesti la prioriti nye kpd yg jln stret. btol x? g bace buku peraturan jln raye. kalo malas, aku hntr hantu raye (setari-ka kate name dier sam) baru tau! mase nk dekat ngan sempang 3 tu, ade storm baru sampai pastu jenguk kepale pastu masuk lorong mcm dem halimunan. cetpoooodaaaah~! hape lagi! tekan brek rapat2 sambil tgn kiri pegang stereng, tgn kanan tekan hon yg hampir x kedengaran sbb 3-3 penumpang dok jerit "aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

dramatik wa ckp lu! mmg sipi giler. nisah mcm biase co-driver cuak giler sbb dier paling dekat ngan kejadian tu. sikit lagi mau kene. lepas tu hape lagi, kitorg dlm tu menyumpah seranah la. pasang radio time tu pon rase mcm sunyi je satu alam ni. haha.

alhamdulillah! Allah nak kitorg hidup lame lagi. kalo x, dah masuk paper kosmo! dah kot. niat di hati nk tgk jangan pandang belakang congkak! mmg layan~! aku xreti tulih review so tunggu je la sesape pandai sastera mera tulih review. haha. tp layan la jugak~! sbb klakar. :p

k lah, adiosaaaa! ja-ne~!

bila boss tak ada..

salam..

bukan selalu post 2 entry dalam jam yg sama. haha. well, sbenarnya after i've post an entry to this blog, biasala view the page la kan. haha (i think the way i talk/write in english skrg is influenced by the tv series titled ghost. yatie n nisah punya psl la ni. cess utk diorg. haha.

ni screenshot (raw) from my office pc.

pelik kan.

nape tulisan jd mcm tu.

sbenarnya kat google chrome je jd mcm tu. hmm. biase la. error n bugs merata. google chrome nk pinjam my ridsect x? tp x brape berkesan coz those annoying lil' bugs still hang out in my porject. cess utk bug-bug tersebut.

k lah. almost half an hour lagi nk balik. so wanna wrap up my work so that i can continue hang out 2gether with the bugs 2nite.

mata ne~!

here is my place

i look up

looking at the road in front of me

searching for a true destination

no..

it doesn't matter..

what matter the most is

how we get there

i try to get up

i've rest enough

i want to go on

i've been idle for some time

but..

no one beside me

no..

that's not what i meant

a lot people

but they don't care

they don't stop

please..

i need some help

i want to get up

my legs are shaking

i need to get up

i need a hand

"you need to reach out ur hand"

that's what they told me

i look at them

they are calling for me

they are smiling at me

they are waving at me

they shine so bright

but the shine doesn't hurt my eyes

yeah..

this is a place for me

here is the place that i belong to

i want to stay at that place

thanks everyone

because where you are,

is where i belong.

doa buat si dia

angin membawa khabar
menggigil tanganku
mengecil jantungku
menggeletar bibirku

biarpun bukan berita baru
yang pernah ku dengar
tapi bayangan-bayangan ngeri
mula menyempit di kepala
bermain-main di fikiran
air jernih mula melimpah di kelopak mata
dada terasa sempit
pandangan mata mula kabur

lalu kuseka
lalu ku tarik nafas
terasa berat
terasa pedih

dalam diam
aku menghimpun doa
Ya Allah, andai ini takdirMu
berkatilah dia, sayangilah dia
andai ini jalan ceritanya
belailah dia dengan rahmatMu

kerna dia adalah
teman berharga buatku
kewujudan istimewa buatku

^_^dedikasi buat setariberi~!muge cepat sembuh~!

aku sgt tertekan.

salam.

aku dah xboleh nk simpan. someone said to me tht i'm kind of person tht keep secret to herself. well, i already knew bout that. but till this point, i cant keep it any longer.

aku sgt tertekan.

pressure keje. xyah ckp ar. td ade opismate tnye progress keje aku. aku jwb je la. last2 skali dier kate saje je tnye sbb nk bajet psl gaji. time tu tgn aku menggeletar. aku xleh taip ape2. aku tarik napas dlm2.
aku bkn reti sgt 3ds max. mmg aku minat tp mane ade mase. tp suh aku edit keje org lain gune 3ds max. mane aku reti. 2 hari aku buat baru dpt. tu pon bersengkang mane bace tutorials n docs dier.
bile aku tensen aku suke tgk vclip. skrg xyah ckp ar. aku kne block. nk bukak 8tv tgk cite ghost pon x dpt. aku xturun lunch so kekdg time lunch tu aku layan cite ghost. skrg dah xleh. yatie bg link utube pon aku xleh bukak sampai skrg.
sayup2 aku dgr org dok gelak2 sambil layan utube. mane aku x kecik ati. aku nk tgk ape? coding? buat modelling? main ngan server? tu je hiburan aku skrg.
pertame kali nye aku nanges kat meja opis. aku dah x thn. aku nk g nanges kat ne? toilet? level atas dah ade org. nk nanges sambil jalan masuk hartamas shopping center? silap2 nnt aku g basement g nanges dlm kete. laju jek air mate ngalir kat pipi.
pg td aku rase aku lah pekerje 'paling cemerlang' kat opis ni. dlm satu mase aku terpakse bukak photoshop (bapak berat), director (tmbh 3d giler berat), 3ds max 2009(dah terkedek2 dah pc aku), acrobat reader (tepakse bukak 2 files).
pnah satu hari tu, aku kene g miting. ade air dlm plastik (beli kat kedai x femes) atas meja aku. aku dah parking elok je. tp nk cemane kan. kalo licin dier terbalik gak. time aku miting, air tu terbalik. miting ade la setgh jam lebih. abes limpah meja aku xdek org amik tau. tunggu blackout satu bangunan dulu kot baru nk tlg.

bile aku nanges aku susah nk berenti. sbb tu aku xsuke luah depan2 ngan org. nnt aku nanges, setakat ni xdek sape leh pujuk. aku pnah try. aku dah serik.

minggu lepas 2 kali aku kne saman ngan dbkl. hari2 aku wat keje utk kwp (kementerian dbkl la). dirog saman gak aku wpon tmpt tu septtnye tmpt parking kete. aku dah la ngah catu duit. sbb gaji bulan lepas aku kene tolak 10%. dah 2 bulan. pastu duit tu buat byr gaji org yg aniaya aku kat opis ni. elok la tu.

dah la. aku tulih byk2 aku gak sakit ati. sbb aku dah tersepit. hari2 aku doa mtk terlepas dari sakit ni. mebi blom masenye lg.

k daa~!

wassalam..

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

aku penat.

aku penat.
asal penat aku tak tahu.
bukan..
aku tak tahu apa perasaan ni.
seluruh urat mukaku
seperti hilang arah.
tidak tahu bagaimana harus senyum.

aku pandang jemariku
tiada rasa.
seketika rasa sakit di benak.
oh tidak..
satu badan rasa sakit.
betulkah?
perlukah aku ketemu doktor?
bagaimana hendak aku perjelaskan
adakah aku sakit?
ada yang kata aku penat
aku penat?
bagaimana rasanya?

kenapa aku begini?
urat satu badan kurasa ditarik-tarik
sakit.
pedih.
aku tidak mahu semua ini
aku tidak tahu punca semua ini.

semuanya bermula
bila dia berkata
"kau tidak penting dalam hidupku"
"aku tidak memerlukan kau"
"aku tak nampak kau"
"kau tak perlu tahu kisah hidupku"
"kau hanya pengganti dia"

tidak..
aku tak rasa apa-apa
aku tidak mahu
aku mahu kuat
aku tidak mahu kata-kata itu menyadung kaki ku
walau aku cuba puaskan hati orang
aku sakit.
aku penat.

aku pandang belakang.
tiada siapa.
"hah, baru sekarang mahu hulur tangan"
"ke mana kau selama ini"
"aku lupa kau wujud"
sedih.
penat.

salah aku rupanya.
aku mahu belayar sendiri.
rupanya itu jalan yang salah.
aku mahu kuat.
rupanya itu salah sangka.
aku mahu disenangi.
rupanya aku tak cukup berkorban.
aku mahu kasih sayang.
tiada yang mahu memberi.

cukuplah.
biarlah aku sendiri.
aku mahu matang.
aku mahu ada prinsip.
biarlah kecil tapi aku mahu berdiri.
jangan tolak aku.
terimalah aku seadanya.
aku makin sesat..

adoi. sakitnya.

salam.

huh!

saje nk luah perasaan. hati-hati, entry ni emo sket dari biase. sbb ngah tensyen. kalo xnk bace bende emo. bulih la tutup. hihi


tuutt.


tuuttttt.



tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttttttttttttttttt.





nk bace gak? baik.



tenet slow. aku rase punce nye. ade org gune pc ni. share system kat pc ni sbb nk set up mende xampp tu. pastu pc ni dah rase berat. pastu bile aku diagnose, detect remote firewall. sial x?

huh!

aku dload pon, tgk mase gak. kalo ngah2 waktu keje, mane ade aku dload bende2 private. ebook, tutorial, open source, graphic file, 3d model file. sume tu pon aku kne dload gak. yg g firewall kan aku nye tenet ni pesal? hah! xnk bg aku wat keje? fine!!! nk bukak utube pon xleh. *sigh* ~sori k nis, link utube k nis bg tu saye xleh bukak sbb ade org bijak sgt kat opis ni.

boss call, mtk belikan paper kat 7e. nk turun tp org tu pon nk turun gak. xdek org kat opis. kene kunci pintu opis. malas ar nk bwk kunci.

"eh, nak turun ke? xdek org kat opis la kirenye?" aku baik hati time ni.

" haa, dah tu. ko la dok kat opis!"

huh! dlm hati aku dah start mencarut. blom sampai tahap aku nk mencarut kat mulut. aku x brani! dose dpt kat aku je. igt aku ape? jaga opis? huh! bg 10 juta pon blom tentu aku nk jd jaga opis ni. sbb ko!

sabar! sabar!
dalam hati, tu je aku leh pujuk hati ngah panas ni.
nk smbg wat keje~!
nnt pape hal, aku gak yg kene.
dasar male chauvinist!!!

jaa~!

hari ni.

salam.

ari ni perjalanan idop lain sket dari biasa. sampai opis lmbt 20 menet. nasib baik bosses xdek. tp kalau ada pon mcm la aku kesah. haha. xdek semangat nk wat keje. sbb? satu hari tu kene marah ngan opismate. sbbnye? vista yg secure sgt. tu pon nk marah aku. huh! penat! hari berkenaan aku semangat terlebih sbenarnye. tp bile kne marah bkn salah aku. tensi!

ok smbg kisah hari ni. dot. dot.

niat di hati sejak beberape hari lepas nk puasa senin ngan kamis. so ari ni puase la. sampai kol 1230. perut makin berasid. lapar! kol 1, aku niat buka terus. haha. puase separuh hari. kol 210 ngah rancak ceting ngan anys (saje gedik letak name ko anys :D) anys kate dier ade keje. teman ceting xdek. opismate pon dah balik dari lunch. aku pon kuar. niat nk g lunch. lalu ajidon.

hmm. nk mkn kat ajidon ke? xmo lah. xfeel sbb mkn sorg. masuk hartamas shopping centre. ade mamat jambu kat pintu shopping centre tu. tp sweetnye sbb dier anak mak. mane mak dier pegi. dier ikut je. tinggal ayah dier sorg2 kat luar. haha. terigt kat mama (heh heh ramai kenkwn aku dulu pelik ade org kelate panggil mak sndr, mama. well, life must go on. xdek kaitan) mama's day ari tu xbg adiah pape. dah lame plan nk bg brooch kat mama. suke butterfly tp susah nk jumpe. my brooch design butterfly ade 2. tp i think i wanna find a better one kot.

terigt nk beli firming lotion. oh! turun eskelate. tingkat g. pegi farmasi. terpakse. sbb kat watson xdek. for sure sbb dah carik. carik2. 2 minit kemudian, jumpe. tilik2 beli yg 200ml dulu sbb baru nk try. harge rm17.90. mahal dari biase. biase la, kat farmasi. what do u expect. g kaunter, sempat sambar eyemo. total rm22.++.

next g mkn. perut dah bunyik2. jln pon dah x btol.

naik tingkat 2 balik. terus g kopitiam. nafsu jerit2 nk mkn chicken chop. huhu dah lame x mkn chicken chop. masuk pastu duduk ujung skali. biase la. gaye org nk mkn sorg. jeling menu air. hmm. ari ni ngantuk so nk munim kopi la. order chicken chop ngan kapucino. layan tgk dokumentari psl whales. hmm best! baru tau otak whale same mcm otak manusia. same group la katekan. mamalians. haha. layan makan n tgk tv. baru perasan ade a few meja yg same geng ngan aku. mkn sorg. layan gak. tetibe hati syahdu. dah lame x mkn sorg2. dulu slalu terpakse mkn sorg2. tp sbb skrg idop dah berteman (hosmet la. jgn pk lain) dah lupe pengalaman sayu itu. mekaseh nisah kerna sudi teman aku. hihi mekaseh gak pd mira kekdg ade. hihi.

sayu sbb baru mlm td nanes. btol! haha. sbb tgk cite sedih la. terigt lg kat mama. sbb? cite tu psl nk amik revenge org bunuh n hina family dier. bdk umur 9 thn terpakse lontar batu kat mak dier. sedih bangat. nanes dlm hati. ari emo xtentu psl. nape ek. ntah la. perut dah kenyang. urusan dah selesai. mtk bil n byr. rm12.++ okla. ptg krg aku bantai nasik lemak bungkus kecik yg singgit satu (btol kan harge dier?) aku jalan dah xbtol. terhuyung hayang. bkn mcm org mabuk tu. terase kaki aku xpijak atas lantai btol2. huh! alasan. dah mc senin lepas. jgn ngengade. lalu stall jual bende perhiasan tp xdek brooch butterfly. mama suke brooch besar2. tp aku suke kecik2. so matching ar kitorg. kalau beli yg sepasang tu aku suke mtk yg kecik tu. haha.

keluar dari hartamas shopping centre. bunyi guruh. erk. nk ujan lebat ni. hrp2 reda mase balik nnt. sampai opis. masuk tp bosses xdtg sampai sudah. dah boring sgt tgk muke kitorg kot. starplayer xdek sbb wife dier baru bersalin so dier dpt cuti seminggu. nk tgk baby nazim n man. haha. duduk kat kusi pastu buat keje sket. tenet lembab. sbb ujan kot. ceting ngan anys, dier bg ayat pedas. erk. xdek duit buat care xdek duit. hihi terpkse tangguh dulu blanje wayang. huhu. xpela. xdek rezeki. aku mmg minat tgk wayang. sbb time tu sume masalah kuar dari kepale otak. kene tumpu tgk cite. syg byr rm11 (biasenye la) sbb nk njoy dlm mase sejam stgh. hmm. xpe la. tunggu kuar kat dload la. nk tgk push, coming soon, wolverine, star trek, monster vs alien, nite at museum 2, angels & demons. tu yg ngah tayang skrg (kecuali monster vs alien)

xpela. pujuk ati. tgk cite kat bilek je la. tp biasenye xdek mood nk tgk kat bilek. sbb aku cepat bosan. xpela. xdek duit. bkn bulih buat ape.

k lah. dah abes tulih diari utk hari ni. see ya next page. haha.

jaa'~!

lagu semangat.

salam.

njoy!






suke plak dgr lagu ni. sbb ngah kesesatan semangat skrg. njoy!

pasrah.

salam.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb bulih cuci mata tgk kete best.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb sng nk beli brg or mknn.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb sng dari segi nk g keje. 15 minit kalo xjem

aku suke sri hartamas sbb kat tmpt keje aku leh sesukati ngan syarat keje siap.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb tenet kat opis most of d time ok(berbdng berukband aku kat umah la).

aku suke sri hartamas sbb parking xmahal sgt berbndg tmpt crowded lain(sbb dgr kate kat tmpt lain sampai cecah 8 hengget sehari).

aku suke sri hartamas sbb bulih pakai sesukati asalkan tidak sakit mate org tgk.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb kalo psg lagu kuat2 or melalak kuat2 org len xkesah.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb pc power la jugak n bulih sukati nk culik bwk balik umah asalkan pulangkan balik.

aku suke sri hartamas sbb rase suasane org kaye, so terase diri motivated utk capai tahap tu.

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aku x suke sini sbb nnt cuci mate sorg2 xbest.

aku x suke sini sbb g beli brg or mkn sorg2.

aku x suke sini dtg keje sorg2.

aku x suke sini sbb wpon bulih wat sesukati, xkan la aku nk wat sorg. giler.

aku x suke sini sbb tenet laju pon, bkn leh melagho thp gaban nye.

aku x suke sini sbb hari2 kene byr minimum 6 hengget. dah serik parking free. kene saman.

aku x suke sini sbb kalo aku pakai pape pon, bkn ade org nk tego sengat la. kotor ke. x matching ke. cacat ke.

aku x suke sini sbb dah xdek sharing caring lagu baru. melalak sesame pon dah xdek.

aku x suke sini sbb pc vista bengong. pc power n byk pon aku ade satu mate satu otak je.

aku x suke sini sbb terase aku miskin.

yg paling utame aku x suke sini sbb mmg xbest. sbb geng 3 sunti bertige dah xdek. diorg pon xkan dtg lepak sini.

aku x suke keje ngan org hipokrit.

aku x suke keje ngan org jenis male chauvinist.

pasrah je la~!

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aku td kene marah. xkan la sbb aku dload satu file je, effect service xampp tu? tu kan local host. xdek tenet pon bulih jalan maa. pastu nk marah2. pastu kate aku ubah setting. huh!

geram tp pasrah je la~!

Namidairo - the colour of the tears by YUI

salam.

nk tujukan lagu ni buat kekwn yg kekdg terase ngan kate2 or perangai aku yg ntah pape nih.
sori sesgt.pls always stay by my side. forgive my wilful as i cant avoid it. just bgtau je kalo2 aku ade terase-kan hati korg. mmg luke parah yg aku toreh tu aku xnmpk.

suke sgt ngan lirik ni sbb sayu sgt. n sesuai ngan kekurgan-sensitip nye aku. ha.ha.ha




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ni lirik dier.
d@-@b

Namidairo

Getting a feeling that I'm being disliked.. on the way home
Looking up at the brightness of the room
I wonder what kind of feelings I'm experiencing now

When we get into a fight I apologise immediately
I'm weak, and you are such a sly person

During nights when my tear-stained voice cannot be heard
I want to become wilful even if it means being a nuisance
Tried to say I'm alright but
That's not possible isn't it

I’m accustomed to seeing my sorrowful face reflected in the puddle
Because I'm fully aware of my intention not to say that I give up/in… I become hurt

Whenever I'm treated gently by you I will feel like crying, you’re really such a sly person afterall

During nights when my tear-stained voice cannot be heard
I want to become wilful even if it means being a nuisance
Tried to say I'm alright but
That's not possible isn't it

In front of you I’m such a liar you know
Kept thinking “I hope that you would realise this”
Because I’m not in the least that strong at all

Despite already deciding not to allow my tears to fall
I'm troubling you ain't I? I just can’t be wilful

Once again I asked myself if I was alright but
That’s not possible isn’t it



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Namidairo [romaji]

Kirawareteiru you na ki ga shiteta kaerimichi
Miageta heya no akari ima donna kimochi de iru no darou?

Kenka ni nareba sugu ayamaru yowakute anata wa zurui hito

Namidairo koe ga kikoenai yoru wa
Komarasete shimau hodo wagamama ni naritai
Daijoubu sou itte mita kedo
Sonna hazu nai desho…

Mizu tamari ni utsuru kanashii kao minareteiru
Muri iwanai tsumori wakatteru kara kurushiku naru no

Yasashiku sareru to naketekuru yappari anata wa zurui hito

Namidairo koe ga kikoenai yoru wa
Komarasete shimau hodo wagamama ni naritai
Daijoubu sou itte mita kedo
Sonna hazu nai desho…

Anata no mae ja uso tsuki yo
Kizuite hoshii to omotteiru no
Sonna ni tsuyoi wake ja nai kara ne atashi

Namida kobosanai kimeteita no ni
Komarasete shimau yo ne? wagamama ni narenai

Daijoubu? Nante mata kiku kedo
Sonna hazu nai desho…

sharing is caring..

salam..

rite now kat opis tp gedik ayam nk tulih satu entri ni sampai x sempat nyempat. huahuahua.. 

bg yg xsempat nk bace berite. ini ade satu berite amik dari berite hari-harian. ape yg menarik nye dlm berite ni, psl kete meletup. eh, silap! psl kete dier meletup tp naskah al-Quran dlm kete tu xterjejas langsung~! kagum kan?

kalo nk tau cite dier. ni link dier. sile klik di sini.

k lah. nk smbg wat kije. nnt kene marah. :p

bye :-h

status: i'm not superwoman

salam..

mood: tension

reason: tension

mode: tension

*sigh*

tangan: sakit + kejang

kaki: lenguh + penat

otak: krem

jantung: penat

hati: sakit

kesimpulan: sakit hati + penat = tension

aduss.. nk idop mcm ni laa..

jambu n nescafe ais.

Satu minuman xleh tinggal selain teh o ais, adalah nescafe ais.

hasrat hati nk membasmi lemak cam susah je. ahahha so dlm kol 215 turun g ajidon, niat nk g beli jambu (utk thn lapar xmo mkn) n nescafe ais (utk thn ngantok sbb kije bertimbun)
lalu depan 7e yg ade sorg budak tu terlebih frenly sampaikan kecoh satu 7e tu kalo kitorg borak dlm tu.

heh heh.

then sampai kat depan kedai mann yg jual masakan kampung. sedap tp xlalu mkn for various reasons. ahahaa dont ask~!
mate tertgk this one guy yg ngah mkn sorg. n at the same time dier pon looking at me.

hmmm first impression, "nape dier wat rambut dier cam tu ek? ahahha sbb that guy bdn besar, wearing white shirt, have 'clean' face tp rambut mcm 'ali' =))

then, terus pndg tmpt lain. coz anyone yg pnah lepak ajidon mmg tahu ar. guys kat area tu mmg perasan. :)) (in my opinion la:P) then saw a football match maybe siaran ulangan, seville lawan something.

ahhaha not sure. terus g tmpt jambu, "nak jambu 2 hengget" terus order sdgkan akak tu ngah makan nasik. tersengih2 jap. :P pastu g kat tmpt air, tunggu dier masukkan duit dlm plastik, jap lg nk bank kot. "nak order, nak nescafe ais bungkus ek."

the air guy tu angkat kepale dier then, "nescafe ais ek." pastu g kat jambu lak. uisshh dier baru nk cedok jambu tu.
jeling-jeling kat tmpt air tu, dah nk siap, ngah bungkus so g byr kat air dulu. hulur rm1.80 tepat2 n laki air td sambut. siap urusan beli air, g kat jambu lak, still x siap lg. tunggu kejap then siap, hulur 2 hengget n done.

mase nk kembali ke opis, ade one girl nih ngadap tv n mkn sorg. wearing quite modern n sexy attire. plus quite a beauty and she is the reason why i have this urge to write this entry.

haha.

bcoz nmpk mcm moden n 'high class' tp dier mkn nasik gune tgn n agak canggung. :P tp x same kan sexy |= high class. dier nmpk lembut tp agak pelik mkn nasik gune tgn. mebi dier baru nk try-try idop ngan mkn nasik gune tgn.

as for a certain reason (some of us know) 2 3 hari ni asik dgr lagu hidup ini memang susah by yassin. quite unique but nope bkn nk ckp psl ni.

haha.

some of us kate kite kene tgk hidop ngan optimis but how optimis we can be.

if la kan.
remember this is an if~!

kite dimasukkan dalam satu hospital and the hospital bed yg kite dpt tu is the last one. then the doctor said that we have no hope (penyakit kronik la. nauzubillah) then xlame lepas tu there's one small girl, about 9-10 yrs old kene masuk hospital but no bed for her.

r u willing to give up ur bed to her? upon hearing that u have no hope?

dont answer, dont think coz first thing that pops up in our mind is our stand.

xpercaye?

makin kite pk, makin kurg kepercayaan kite terhdp decision kite tu.

xpercaye?

cnth la kan kite decide nk give up the bed coz we have already give up on the hope to survive, then after some thinking kite decide xnk give up. n believe me kite akan pk about that girl for a longest time.

kite bulih pupuk (wow!) stand kite. how to do it, depends on us. no one can do it for us.
for the giving up issue, well, for me we can be optimistic but for certain extend. blaja sume ni dalam kelas sebenarnye n rasenye i cant graduate that class with my current way of thinking.

haha.
no joke.

k lah. back to work. got a warning from rogue actually. but stuck!

what i feel rite now..

Untitled - (how could this happen to me) - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
WHY in here tonight
And I can’t STAND the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t STAND the pain


*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me